Trust

Some weeks ago I was talking about Trust in my church community and I was doing some research for myself. In my previous blog post I told you already about my thoughts and own fights against fear.
While I was in the midst of my inner storm of this fear-future-situation I was reading God’s word, to comfort, to root me, to calm my stressed soul and to find inner peace.
In Europe there is a big discussion about refugees coming from different countries and with different cultural backgrounds and different point of views, different religious believes. It is a wide range and fighting space for the evil to arise fear and discussion about the other.
Refugees from Africa, India, and east Europe coming and crossing Germany, some of them staying, some of them still on their journey. Singles, Families, children – especially the children and what they had gone through already and what they’re still facing in this world.
Last sunday we had our federal elections and because of the refugee situation right now, there are plenty of xenophobic and egoistic fearful people, who gave their voice and mark to some small groups, who proclaim to keep germany in structure in clear borders and away from chaos where we are right now. So is it chaos? Is it a mess and a huge challenge for everyone to handle war refugees and their providing, but as christians we should constantly pray and trust and believe that God is bigger than any circumstance, any situation that might seem like a huge chaos. God is able to turn around a sinner into a saint, God created this world and all of us – still he is waiting for us to trust in him.

8 It is better to take refuge in Adonai
than to trust in human beings;
better to take refuge in Adonai
than to put one’s trust in princes.
(Psalms 118:8-9)

For me I realized, that I have to search refuge in him only, that I have to trust in him and not in human beings. How often did we see and talked about the people of politics who broke their promises. There is only one who will never break his promise – it’s our heavenly father.

7 Blessed is the man who trusts in Adonai;
Adonai will be his security.
He will be like a tree planted near water;
it spreads out its roots by the river;
it does not notice when heat comes;
and its foliage is luxuriant;
it is not anxious in a year of drought
but keeps on yielding fruit.

While I was in my heavy inner chaos about what to think at all, refugees, victims, end of the world, how to think and act as a christian – but especially as a mother.
And I found peace reading my fathers words.

On this sunday my sister in christ shared her thoughts about trust in our heavenly father with me. In Germany we have a saying

Trust is good, control is better (Vertrauen ist gut, Kontrolle ist besser)

In here we all heard this one every now and then, and as a parent it’s like a sentence for every day. Like you start trusting your little kid being in the living room without breaking or damaging anything – while in fact you are spying with one eye to control what is going on in the other room. Or later, when the kids grow older and start to walk to school all by themself, it’s also well known, that some parents tend to say “oh, I trust him/her going all by him- or herself, but well I better take a look and check if everything is alright”.
And what about control in a partnership, how often did I say “I trust sure – but control is better”, so I recalled some of my past experiences in my partnership and found out, what I already knew, jealousy is not from God. It is actually a curse where you end up being locked and tortured.
I’ve been there, I walked into this curse by myself before, and it grew bigger and bigger. So I tried to escape this jealousy curse all alone relying on my human strength.
And fail.
It’s like you betray yourself. I found out, that if I can’t trust my partner I’m lying to myself, because if I can’t trust him the whole relationship is built up on lies and not rooted on solid ground.

God gives trust, he trust us and is patiently waiting for us to return to him, to his son and start talking to him again. God doesn’t come watching double checking if we are on the right path and walking towards him like he is directing our steps, he is patiently waiting, he is trusting and waiting with his never ending love for our return.

So God’s reliance is making us free, his trust in me makes me completely free to choose. His confidence in me gives me his freedom to be and become who I am in his eyes, who I am for real and how he made me, perfect in every little cell.

To control means captivity, like I said with my relationship and the jealousy, it left me in my own prison of emotions. I couldn’t trust my partner leaving for work, leaving for grocery shopping, nor even leave his messaging unattended or at least I double checked it afterwards. And yes, now I know that this is completely a no go! I was so much into my emotional prison, that I asked him to give me all his passwords so I could check whenever I want, to just make sure he’s not betraying me in any way.
So this presupposes that I assume him to cheat on me. In any way he is in a trap, because sooner or later my behavior leads him either to cheat on me because I’m asking for it, or leaving me because this prison is mine, not his and as I said, in God we have the freedom to leave these emotional prisons.
In my case I left the whole scene as I found out what I was building up, this emotional prison, this curse I got trapped myself in.

What did I do then, what were the steps I took? Well first of all it wasn’t clear for myself, I was searching and asking in prayer, and then I read Psalm 62.

(5) My soul, wait in silence for God alone,
because my hope comes from him.
(6) He alone is my rock and salvation,
my stronghold; I won’t be moved.

(7) My safety and honor rest on God.
My strong rock and refuge are in God.
(8) Trust in him, people, at all times;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us. (Selah)

 

And I continued reading Gods promises for me, and slowly found out what is actually from God and what is not. It was a journey to learn the things God has put inside my dna and Sarah-Code already. When I read Gods word and stay in his light it is easy for me to differ the good and the bad, because the Holy Spirit is leading my thoughts and opens my eyes.
Every morning I ask Jesus to be at my side and walk with me, no matter where I go or with whom I am. And every day I thank God my heavenly father for everything he has already done, for all that he is doing and for everything that he is going to do for me.

Thank you my dear readers, for taking your time to read my story.
Be richly blessed!

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Family and Relative Issues

Family and Relative Issues

Today seems to be a day outside, that’s nice too, because in late september the weather here in Germany is really nice. The temperature is around 21 degree (70 F) so we’ve spent our time outside, we walked to different playgrounds and took the dog of course.

While being outside I was already thinking about a next and new blog entry, something that’s on my mind for some time now.
As a big sister of 3, having countless cousins, aunts and uncles on this earth, stress, discussion and similar conversations are preprogrammed, before I walked with Jesus, close to him there was this thinking inside me, that wasn’t christian thinking at all.
Judging thoughts, bad thoughts and well simply not those Jesus has about me, and isn’t it I want to become more like him every day?
When someone did something bad, wrong or not nice, immediately there is judgement in my family. I guess it’s something common and I wouldn’t tell that there is a family without such situations. What I found out for myself is, to simply slow down in joining discussions and situations like this. It’s not the best to join in the first discussion only to be one of them talking about another.
I have one example, it’s already years ago but one of my relatives started to tell my family some rumours about another relative. The interesting part is, I kept quiet until they nearly finished their story tale and I started to interrupt, because I was actually in contact with this “talked about relative” and could most likely refute the tall tales.
Sadly this tall tale was already spread through the family world-wide (my family lives nearly everywhere, America, Australia and Indonesia) so it was an unfortunate story and situation. At this time I was really disappointed in my big indonesian Family, because it seemed that rumors are more likely than truth, or the wish for truth. Because truth and light is not as attractive as lies and rumors.

When I contacted my relative about this story and informed her about where it was spread already, the person told me, knowing about this fact and this state of family relationship. It’s sad, but how to stop if your father has 10 siblings – each of them several children and well every one of them their own life (more or less) and own problems, but seemed to be discussed from far away by their so wise relatives?
Also it’s a different cultural story, being asian means to stay under the talk of the elders more or less.. it’s a lot about respect, about reputation, gossip around the village and for a woman unless you are married you have to stick around your parents… I know it’s not only asian culture but I can talk about them now only, because I’m half indonesian.
For me it is a different story again, because I’m half indonesian and half german. I was born and raised here in germany, so I’m more german inside and my mind is more free than my families (I don’t want to put someone into a box or determine someone on this, it’s just the situation with my relatives and me)
When I talked to my relative, she told me, that it’s more easy for a woman to live freely in Germany, than in Indonesia. Sure you go working no matter if men or women, but as a single woman without husband yet it is not easy. Depending on the cultural background it can be really tough for a woman.
At this time it was a task for me to think myself into her position and try to understand their thinking… nevertheless, I was not okay with the gossip, because it came all the way to germany and as a child of the light and a follower of Jesus I cannot allow the lie to continue and be spread out more and more.
Walking with Jesus meant to stop the lie, but also not to judge the ones telling it (with or without intention). For me I understand that it’s important and a learning process to understand how God sees us as his children. We are all doing mistakes, because we are not flawless, we have different problems, different failings and as a child of God it is made easy, we can bring everything of it to him, telling him that we need him to correct us like a father should do.
So God doesn’t judge me for being wrong the time in my past, he opened his arms welcoming me, showing me how to act the next time, showing me how he react. So that I can see through his eyes and understand at least a tiny bit of his never-ending love.


And now? Today I can see the difference between me and my relatives, I’m still on my way so are they, and I try to tell them what I got teached, and today I can tell everyone with love and with Jesus by my side, what is bigger than any circumstance here on earth, without judging and condemn.

So what leads us to the attraction of gossiping about others? Years ago I talked about this topic with one relative already and found out earth-related reasons – boredom.
How do rumors arise? Can I tell you something, for me it seems, that if a situation is not that exciting at all there should be add some other things and information to top the whole story – no matter if true or well, lets say far-fetched.
So it’s to make a situation more interesting? Well not only to let the situation be more interesting, but to let the storyteller look like he is more informed than others.
But why should someone want to do so? – Egoism, narcissism, vainglory, envy,… the list will continue but my main focus is – this is not from God. God is not egoism, narcissism, etc. God is love, he is forgiveness, he is selfless and he looks to the other to be comforted in love.
So, if it’s not from God, where is it from? When we open our Bible (I like to do my research in the Bible App – on iOs or Android or on the internet), we find out that the one who first raised egoism to stand above the creator is the one who fell down from the heavens to the earth, the snake who deceived man in paradise was and is jealousy.
I realized, that every time I feel feelings like anger, jealousy, envy etc. it’s not my heavenly fathers feelings, it’s the enemies feelings. He tries to contaminate human on earth to be far away from the father and to keep them occupied.

So what does it mean to me? For me it’s clear, I’m trying to bring them the light, I try to tell them more about my brother Jesus. I do this with talk and the most powerful way in prayer. Be a blessing, so you will be blessed!

With this I thank you for reading my story! Be richly blessed!

Talking to God

Walking outside with my little one and our dog, meeting our other friends who got used to walk with us recently I enjoy this time of the day, just walking. Talking to the new friends, who share this passion and love of walking their dogs, some have one, some two, all different breeds.
Today our group was a small one of 4 human and 5 dogs. I can say, it’s such a nice way of doing small exercise for yourself and to get your dog to walk a good round with company. My dog is a mix breed, she’s almost 10 years old but still in good condition, the other day one of them asked how old she’s, because she is fit and active like a more younger one. Sure this made me happy, as I take care of her about her food and her well-being since I got her this year. We still have a long way to go, as she put on weight because of her food and less exercise. But that’s not a big deal, as my goal for her and me is, to reduce her weight til Christmas so that she’s feeling well and that’s a fair time to go.

Talking to God during this beautiful time of day is a good start, for me it’s perfect to thank God for this wonderful and beautiful day he gives me. With him I slowly got my day organized and while it’s still a way to go, I’m on the good – no, the perfect path – because his way is the one and only! I tried to do it by myself, on my own, because life seemed to teach me, that no one except me can handle and change my life. BUT this is a lie – because I can not do anything without God. While I tried to change and handle my life in the past without God, sure God was always a part of me, but always on second place (I realize now) I tried hard and honestly fail everytime – not always the same way but different ways with the same result. Fail.

This time I trust God in everything! I write everything and mean everything – because I realized that, if I do not trust God in every little thing, I put myself on his place, trying to rule and control everything I in fact can’t.

In May this year I went to a kind of holiday with my kids, 3 weeks just us, and nature, some sportive activities and plenty of time to talk to God. This was my intention, my plan. Still I took my smartphone (sure, how to stay in contact with family and friends?) – I made a schedule to not open or take a look at the smartphone during the day, just a few minutes at night time, when the kids are already sleeping – friends, now I’m more than honest to you, I made this plan and schedule more than once, I made it back home, I made it during the time of fasting and you know what? I fail, because it was ME who said, I will do it and I will make it… I haven’t trust him yet. So this time was different, because before the journey started I prayed to my heavenly father to help me, to lead me and to be my plan. I wanted his not my plan to be my schedule.
So when the day came, we took the train to our destination, everything was good, we entered and took our last train and during the ride my smartphone fell off facing the ground and broke completely. The screen was so damaged, it was not usable anymore, and while I tried to reactivate the smartphone while I entered our room finally, the iPhone starts to switch by itself, dialing, writing and well, nearly messaging without my directing. So I was lead by God actually, to be without this smartphone and any other smartphone for 3 weeks. It was like a relief, because I was simply not able to be distracted by a smartphone at all… and these 3 weeks made it really smooth for me to change from iPhone to BlackBerry. And you know what? When I came back home I ordered my BlackBerry Classic on Amazon, where they sold it new for around 158 EUR, while it was around 250 – 350 EUR before and after this time.
So, sure some may say it’s just a coincidence while I know, this was completely led by the Holy Spirit. Why is BlackBerry right for me? I was using and loving Apple iPhone for around 8-10 years now, always wanting to have the latest version, so proud and happy about owning one and watching the screen almost the whole day. I felt how it made me addicted, but why stopping something that’s simply beautiful and helping you through your day and night? I didn’t need anything else except this smartphone, I talked, wrote messages, viewed all social media online, had my push notifications on everywhere and took brilliant photos and videos. Yes, this photo thing is really missing – but, another fact I see clearly now, I took thousands of pictures with this (and previous) iPhones, while more than 70% is now resting on some online storage and the question I’m asking myself is, if I will ever take a look at them.
I started to put all pictures I really want to be remembered in photo-books, I order them online so they look similar on the outside and inside it’s a complete year of my children.
I’ve been a bit lazy lately and well saving some money for different things, so I think I will start and continue this photo book task in the early months next year.

Back to the smartphone issue I had, while I’m a happy BlackBerry user right now for almost 4 months now, I feel free more and more. When I open my WhatsApp messenger there is this reminder note from WhatsApp developer that I can use this messenger until 31.12.2017 after this time they will not support my device any longer. In this message they also lead a link to show me how to buy another supported device to continue using their service… well, I don’t think so. If they won’t support me, than we have to seperate our ways, and everyone who needs to stay in contact with me will find other ways, I still got e-mail, phone, sms,….

What I found out and feel is, that I really enjoy using this time, this day to be with my family, be outside, be with my heavenly father. Talking to him was more talking at night time, when the day is nearly over, and I was thanking him for the previous day, and praying for a good night rest, and a good morning with him.
When I started talking to Jesus as if he is one of my closest, best friend I started to make space for him to be part of my life. And this is so important, because as a Christian, we know and read, that Jesus is Love, but we also have to practice talking to him, while we talk to him first – not running to friends talking about all the problems or stress you’re in you will receive his love and by talking and trusting him you will actually show him, that you honor his precious gift when he took our sin to the cross.

I will not lie to you, it will not be easy, at least not all the time… writing you about the positive experience it may seem that it’s easy all the time for me. But when you start trusting God 100% the one who is against God will try to trick you and try to make you fail, or try to make you feel wrong.
What do I mean by this? After my holiday and my positive experience with the smartphone, the free-time, the time with my family and nature; the enemy actually found something new to catch my attention. While reading and trying to be in a close relation to God media, no matter if books, tv, or the internet is not sleeping at all, always trying to get my thoughts in this direction. I watched several youtube channels, and read some facts about the Illuminati, the NewWorldOrder and some other specific topics, it really got my attention and I started to plan a back-up-plan for the end of the world.
Sounds ridiculous – I know – but still the evil had my attention. Which parent wouldn’t start thinking about their family and kids when knowing that the end time is here already?
How did it look like? Well it was in my head first, my thoughts and my view was on the future, what will be tomorrow? The signs are there already, war, tortured christians in some parts of the world, the start of the intended chip that should be inserted into your right hand.
So I build this back-up-plan like what do I need as an essential for the first time, what is necessary, how can I build a food storage that’s long-lasting. What can I buy to have less weight as cans can be heavy if you store too much. What car to buy next so I can use it as a travel and living mobil. I got distracted by the lifestyle of vanliving that’s on several social media, they are really looking great, and still (even if I left this back-up-plan) I’m planing on purchasing such a van for long weekends travelling with the family.
In the end I was thinking about buying a ship to be self-sufficient, including some animals and plants… Really?! So I would need about 1 mio. EUR to purchase the start… not including time and work to prepare everything to be ready for day X…..


Finally I started to direct my thoughts to the one and only – GOD – who told me to calm down, to start talking to him again, I wouldn’t say that we stop thinking about our future, or that we are not thinking and trying to figure out what to do next, next day, next week or next year. The difference is, that slowly I know I have to trust God more and more, that I can differ soon, which though is from God and which is from the evil to distract me and to kill me from the inside.
And because Jesus paid the highest price for me already, I no longer belong to myself or this world – I belong to Jesus, and it is my heavenly father whom I trust only. I no longer trust human, or me – because how often I just catch myself not keeping what I first said I want to do, or say or be. The only one who never change is GOD.

I thank you all for taking this time to read my story.
Be blessed – Shalom

Getting organized

My dear readers, I have to apologize, I was offline more or less, but especially not in the right condition to write a new blog post. I’m so happy I am away from iPhone and using BlackBerry, occasionally reading that in December this year #whatsapp will no longer be available, but they can explain how and especially what device you need to still use #whatsapp. Well, if you won’t support my BlackBerry then, that’s it. I will say Goodbye to Whatsapp then…

Back to the blog, I’ve been thinking about posting a new entry every second day lately, but still couldn’t start. This distracting phase is back again, after the moving part, then the paper works and the applications, finally I started to crochet again, to read my books, to watch some series while having a glass of good red wine or a cold mixed beer.
The last 2 months I’ve started watching a lot series #TheFlash first, then when I’ve reached the last episode of the season I was thinking about which series would be next and I ended up watching #LegendsOfTomorrow also until I reached the last episode of the season. So now it’s my free time of series (I tried old ones of #NewGirl, #TheBigBangTheorie and #HowIMetYourMother but it’s still too present, so it’s a bit boring)

I’m still reading my christian book #Woman in the book of books, and #ExceedinglyGrowingFaith by Kenneth E. Hagin. When I was in High School and even in University, I was reading these books in less than a day, right now I’m reading and stopping, reading and well, reading the Woman book is taking me now the second year. I started on January 2015 and am still reading every now and then.

Have you ever felt restless? Having so much on mind, everything you need to do and then end up counting up maybe 2 or 3 things you finished a day… I’m usually lying in my bed thinking about the day and about the day after this one. I start walking around the unit in my thoughts and funnily in my imaginary the declutter plan works so well, while in reality I just can’t start. (anymore ^.^ I started before the big moving, and am still working on declutter every now and then)
It’s like a circle, I’m working on every single room a week… I don’t know, why even after I threw out so many bags, and donated so much things, clothes and toys, there is still so much left… it’s like there is a spot where everything hides and comes out after I tried to make space. I also try to not even bring in too much stuff, so I don’t need to declutter in the second step… still it’s a game and right now it seems I’m not winning.. it seems – but I won’t give up, and with God’s strength I will finish my #declutter plan by the end of this year!!

Yesterday I started my #Bulletjournal Life. Small steps but well I started. I took a good look at my new calendar for 2018 and wrote down some essentials. Then I started writing some notes and information’s into my recent calendar and put post-its 🙂 in it.

Now I will start concentrating on writing this blog here, need to figure out what to write about again and then I will start and hope you’ll all like what you read.

Until then, I’m happy and thankful for all your patience and that you took your precious time reading my story!

Be blessed dear friends!

Finding peace, knowing where to look at

I don’t know why, but since a couple of weeks I’m really exhausted and not able to wake up when the alarm rings the first time – honestly it’s even not the second or third time when I finally wake up, it’s more like enough time for me, to get ready in the bathroom and to have one coffee or Chai – without latte and constantly calling for the kids to wake up.. today we really made it until 15minutes before we had to reach the childcare – but actually we did it! As I said, exhausted day schedule. After this we headed to our christian-mother-kids-meeting-café I really like this group and company and tried to rest and relax myself for about 2 hours.
When I finally went back to the childcare to build some school starter package for my son.
Another new, exiting step for all of us… and while it is so beautiful to see the big pre-schooler waiting for first grade to begin it’s also a big step for both of us, son and me 🙂

About me being exhausted, I try to often rearrange my point of view and my focus to be positioned at Jesus, his Love and my heavenly father’s love for me, his daughter.
I like to have good conversations with him, and am often telling him about my day schedule and my kids schedule to let him be part of my life, because it is my decision and my invitation to him, to be part of my life, and it is the most important act of my day. So every morning I’m inviting God to be with me the whole day through, and it is really helping, it is supporting me mentally and spiritually to always reconnect to the father.

The weekend was full of conversations with many different friends and family and with some of them it’s really helping to just go back to Jesus, lay down all of the things I shouldn’t and couldn’t carry on my own and let him help me, in love as my brother. Some conversations may affect me negatively, so I learned to give them no room in my life, I put it under the cross within some minutes.

So Monday is nearly over here, while I was doing some decluttering I was listening via radio app to an Arabic – Canadian radio station and the second played song immediately throw me back into my past #Nancy singing with her beautiful voice. I can’t tell, it’s a long time intention and like to hear Arabic voices/music.
And with the time I will learn this beautiful rich language (same as 2 others, that are on my list)
So about the declutter – I never thought it would be this slow to finish it the first time. I started in one room and continued day after day to finish each room.. but honestly when I started to declutter it seemed that the more I’m throwing the more stuff is inside my unit!
I’m still working on that because I still want to reach a healthy minimalistic way of life for me and my family.
Will keep you informed, as soon as I get there – or close.

Be richly blessed dear brothers and sisters!
Shalom

Stay cool

It is summer and the temperature rises high, the humidity is high as well, this indicates a potential lightning/thunder/raining combination. We will see, or at least maybe hear it later.

It is midnight here and I was thinking, whether to write one short quick post or rush into bed and try to get some hours of sleep. So you see I’m writing and enjoying and testing the blackberry keyboard. I have to admit that it is very comfy for someone who is typing a lot and who simply missed the real keyboard.
When I bought it 17 days ago some of my closest told me, that I wouldn’t stick to it a week.. because they know me well, and yes back then it was really difficult for me to change after being with apple for, we’ll let’s see and count, 8 years now. I started with the 3rd Generation the iPhone 3GS, and quickly I bought a new phone every year.. sure it’s nice, it’s optic and all the software inside is attracting and magically holding all its users. For me, at some point it was enough..
6 years ago I already tried to change and get away from iPhone but the PalmPre I was using and hoping to cope with the market wasn’t able to meet my preferences and needs. Then back in 2014 I tried Samsung, because this was and is the other big smartphone provider you can find. I had the new Samsung with a new mobile contract but was unhappy after a few days too.. so I sold this one as well and bought an iPhone until this one I was using latest the iPhone 6.
Yes of course, it is a good phone, it is more than a phone, it includes calls, messaging, mail, Internet, calendar, alarm, so many countless apps a few you really need and heaps of unnecessary stuff just to waste time – and this was and is the BIG point in my decision to leave apple, Samsung and all the others with heaps of apps no one really needs, but thinks they need to have because otherwise you’re out of everything and out of the world..
We all know that for some people the smartphone (no matter which company) is an addiction – well, I can tell what happened with me. Yes I was addicted to my phone, I was happy and so lucky to have this smart, super fast and stylish looking iPhone I was holding it the whole day, never leaving it around.
Sometimes I wanted to check the time – because I don’t have a watch anymore, but when unlocking the iPhone I was sliding through my screens, checking if there where any messages, or something interesting to see on IG, or Pinterest, or Twitter, or Facebook, or G+, or BBM, or Threema, or Whatsapp, or some more.. then I told myself to stop, because it’s too much again and while pushing the screen-lock-button I often realized that I didn’t even took a look on the time!! Arg, so I had to do the same thing again, but this time with high concentration to really just take a look at the time…

At one point I realized that the fact, that I was holding the iPhone and was waiting or typing a message made me aggressive or stressed and this affected my whole body and even worst my family!!
My son told me several times, that I’m at the iPhone way too often – and guess what? He was right!! I was! And this fact was a shock. Still not as easy as it should be, I tried to set myself a schedule about when to use and when to check the phone or some apps, but honestly, for me in my case I needed something more effective.
And this was the last day in June. Yes it was a good, a real good day, because while being on the way with my kids the iPhone hit the ground of the last train when we nearly arrived at our destination Bavaria. I was in shock and angry about myself because I was the one who dropped it!
At the end of the day I could arrange to use it for 2 calls, my parents and my sister in Christ, to tell them that we arrived safely and that my phone is total broken. Did you ever experienced, that your iPhone screen is so hard damaged that everytime you unlock it the screen things you touch it while you are not and then it starts to open apps, delete messages or notes and starts to write funny sms or whatsapp. Well at that point I locked it immediately but then it happened to block me completely, so I wasn’t able to unlock it with my numeric code, because the screen was half blind.. untouchable 😀

Can I tell you something? I had the best 3 weeks, that I truly enjoyed with rich conversations with other families, with my children and simply taking real pictures with my God given eyes! I can tell you, the time I spent with my kids was pure and a lot relaxed, because I wasn’t checking my phone every 10 min (at least). I was released, I was free, I was me – without the phone.
Sure something else was showing me, how addicted or lost we are if the phone where everything is written down and saved is is.
In my situation I wasn’t able to contact anyone by land line except my parents, no other numbers in mind. I was trying to remember birthday dates – but anyway wasn’t able to send greetings, or callings. I wasn’t able to remember the address of some friends to send postcards and well you can image the list continues.
So what did I thought of, when I was in this situation? First thing to do when you got home – buy an address book made out of paper – check, I did.
I haven’t start with the next point, the more important one, write down all addresses and phone numbers.

So what is different using the blackberry classic now instead of using either IPhone or Samsung?
On blackberry I receive the message, that I can use whatsapp until 31.12.17 after that it will close its service well I can change to the whatsapp10 app, I will try.
In general is it the lack of useless apps I can’t install, like too many messengers, like too many unnecessary Programms to work on pictures or other apps. Yes I know I could’ve simply just delete them on my IPhone, but hey be honest, how many of you actually do this? I always tried to delete as much as possible to minimize the trash and time-consuming ones, but it’s like hypnosis you seem to be not able to click the small x that’s shaking on the right top of the app.

I know, that in my situation I received help from my heavenly Father, who helped me to get away from the phone and the addiction. Because we can do all things through Jesus Christ!!
The BlackBerry brings me back to a normal phone usage, it’s ringing to indicate incoming calls and I (still) receive whatsapp messages for some more months. I can receive sms, mail and BBM, that’s enough.
And I’m using Twitter, trying to get more readers.. so this phone is keeping my concentration back on me – my life, my believe/faith and my family .
I thank you Lord!

And I thank you dear readers for taking your time reading my story!
Be richly blessed! Shalom

Shabbat Shalom

Shalom to all my readers!
What does “Shalom” mean? It is a jewish greeting and saying for goodbye but including your good wish of God’s Blessing for this person you are greeting or telling Goodbye.
For me Shalom means Love Greetings, it is not only Hello, or Goobye it is “Hello my dear brother or/and sister” it is “Be blessed brother/sister” and it is “God’s blessing to you dear brother and sister” in one word.
*Shalom*

The Shabbat is the one day of the week, where Jews praise Elohim Adonai and lay down all the work and just give this day for him.
It starts at Friday night when the sun gets down and ends on Saturday night when the sun gets down. So the day starts at night for Jews, it did for Jesus.. several weeks ago I asked myself why we changed it.. the western time or day starts at midnight, then we say it’s a new day.. but we could’ve leave it the Jews way.. to get back is not as easy as it may seem.. I need to change my complete thinking.. but alright, seems like a new challenge 🙂

Today we had a special day with our kids and church, to spend time together as a family of God, with Jesus Christ our brother in the middle of our festival. We had good conversations, nice games for young and adult and the food was so delicious. The weather was like an order, the sun was shining the whole day and yes I’m a bit tanned as well.. like I’ve been on a beach trip.
I enjoy my time with my family in Christ and really feel His presence. Recalling all what has happened the week before and just thanking the Lord for always standing in front of me, securing that nothing will hurt or harm me or my kids. I thank him so much, for his unconditional Love!!
The next week will be a tough one with a real strict schedule, but after this week I hope I can start to relax a bit.. who knows..

Last week I started thinking about some new Job opportunities, maybe I will walk a complete different way, I don’t know yet.. maybe I start working at schools, or at the army.. maybe something complete different..

As always, I will keep you informed..
Be richly blessed by the Lord – Shalom