time off

I’m so sorry I haven’t shared a post in a while… I even can’t tell that I’m that busy – sure I am but not more than the other time.

It’s just that my iPhone broke and while I’m trying to get time off of all the electronic device it’s like a help for myself to just stay away from social media and my smartphone…
Still I’m not a blackberry user, although I got really attracted to the #q10 or #classic… maybe I should wait for the #keyone ? I’m not so sure yet and I know that this iPhone break might be a good reason to think and rethink about what to change and what to keep.

Last sunday my son got a challenge for saturday – the whole day – no electronic device, not even tv, no smartphone, no iPad no Laptop – nothing… back to basic – or as I like to say lately, back to normal… wednesday we had a nice camping trip with brothers and sisters from church and we tried to only use what God has given us, made fire in a fireplace and some of us slept outside. So much fun for the kids and the adults!

As I got the opportunity to write here on a laptop I took the chance to write at least one last post, before I’m off for some weeks because of a kind of vacation.

What did I receive lately from my heavenly father? To be honest – a lot! I had some nice conversations, some good and refreshing ones, some silent and thoughtful ones, some challenges while living this daily life with kids, other people on the road driving around or discussions on online platforms. And beside all that, the challenge to start working with forms and applications with the government.

Where to start? Some weeks ago my sister in Christ posted daily quotes and prayers for the week, and I really like and enjoy it! Praying for our friends, praying for our husband, praying for our parents and praying for our children. This led me to my own thinking. Thanking and praying for those God has sent to me on purpose on his plan. Thanking him and accepting his gift and his will 100%, relying on him even more than before! And I know for myself, there can never be an “I have enough of God’s Love, or his Grace or his Advice”, when I accepted Jesus, and prayed to God with all my heart the cry of “more” started to grow. Every day it’s “more of your Love”. Realizing that lately I got distracted by daily schedules even more than the other days before. It’s like I’m always putting more on top while I know I need time off and time to rest and especially time with God! Otherwise I can’t recharge – mentioning this, this is what I try to do the next 3-4 weeks. So I hope you are all patient waiting for my return.

And then for sure some new stories and life changes as well!

Planing on some new researches and plans. I will keep you informed.

Until then I bless you all my dear brothers and sisters! May God guide your ways

Discussion

Discussion

Before I followed Jesus like I do now, I honestly enjoyed talking and discussing topics, from unimportant to important topics. Sometimes I even got myself into so much temper that it would be a loud discussion, where everyone tries to implant his/her opinion into the others mind.

When I asked Jesus to be in my life 100% (not only 50% or when I need him) he started to change me in my everything through the Holy Spirit.

I became calm and quiet, before I used to babble along with every topic. Today I can listen, think about what was said and let it sit for some days. Before I was easily tempered and impulsive, today it is not easy to stay calm, but when something occur I fix my eyes on Jesus, my Lord. He helps me stay quiet.

With one close relative I was frequently talking hours about Religion, politics and life. When I turned to Jesus in life and actually live with Jesus, I stopped discussing and arguing on this loud level and keep my voice at a normal volume. He actually noticed it and sometimes it is making him losing his temper. I know it is not my relative when his temper is exploding, it is someone trying to get a chance to get me back to my old me. No chance.

For me I understood that it is not important to argue or trying to make someone understand and accept your opinion. Yes of course I can tell my point of view, my way of life, but I’m not the person to say to someone else what is right and what is wrong for him. Knowing and accepting this in life makes it so much lighter and easier. 

The other day I had a short talk on instagram via comment underneath a picture related to a biblical quote. The comment was stating that the Bible is a written book by men with a God living 2000 years ago not today – before I would have started arguing, writing long texts and explaining him why he’s wrong. Today I can simply reply to him, that if he is willing to read the Bible with his heart and mind, he will truly see that the Bible is full of life, truth and that even it’s validity back then same as today and tomorrow will remain. He shot his answer back, that he studied Christianity and its full of war, calling to fight and that Jesus invented hell. Wow, this was a GO for my old me to start the battle, while the new me, together with Jesus, could offer him Love, by writing him truth. As he studied Christianity and the Bible it is obvious that he didn’t read with his full mind and heart, as Jesus never asked anyone to start a fight, to start war or even to kill someone, even if the old law gave you the right to. Jesus didn’t invent Hell, as it is mentioned in the Torah (Old Testament) thousands of years before Jesus was born…

I can tell you, dear brothers and sisters in Christ, with our Lord Jesus, everything is possible! Me, I was irascible especially on topics about God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. But with Jesus Love I’m able to give all the negativity away, I put it down at the Cross where Jesus died for me.

Thank you for reading my story! Be blessed!

cloudy again

cloudy again

Tuesday morning and it is cloudy and partly raining, same like yesterday there is not much to do, while there is always something to be done.

Tonight I woke up at around 1 and stayed awake until 3. I was walking around spiritually and was thinking about what do be done next, what is important, what is less important, how about my schedule and so on. Sure this kept me awake and then I started my talk and prayer to God. I was thinking about getting up and start writing a new blog post but then I stayed in bed, decided to focus on my Lord Jesus so my soul could find rest at this restless night.

Labor Day is over, what did this day had for me? Two wonderfully blessed conversations with two close friends of mine. One conversation was more planet and nature based while the other one was a lot more spiritual, talking about our path walking and living with God, praying, talking, reading scripture and slowly bringing God’s living word into our lifes – not only reading it theoretically, but realizing how practically it can be if we allow Jesus to controll our presence.

Yesterday I started to read Judges, a chapter a day for the month May. It is a blessed way to stay connected with brothers and sisters all over the world. I read Judges before, but it is always nice to exchange what we received while reading the chapter. I’m using the bible app (you can download it on the App Store or on the Google Store), it is wonderful you can read it yourself or listen to the chapter.

Today’s chapter talkes about the israelites turning their backs towards God and praying to other Gods and even forgetting God and what he had done for them.
It is a strong chapter, it is a reminder for all human on this earth – because while the Israelites back then had no chance to return we have! And we have this chance because God loved us more than we can imagine – he sent his only son down to earth, so that we all – no matter if Israelites or from other nations –

11 And again, “Praise the Lord, all you Gentiles;
    let all the peoples extol him.” Romans 15,11

19 Therefore, go and make people from all nations into talmidim, immersing them into the reality of the Father, the Son and the Ruach HaKodesh, Matthew 28,19

We should wake up and be aware of being Disobedience praying or worshipping other Gods. How does this look like today? Isn’t it easy to say “these Israelites built their altars for other Gods and worship them, this will not happen to me” – really? We have to start searching through all our routines, all our behavior, our thinking about people, celebrities, thinks and wishes in our life.
How often did you push Jesus from his throne in your life and put your desire for a new smartphone, a new car, an expensive ticket for this once in a year concert of any singer or similar? Try to pray to your God today, to show you your altar that was build without knowing you pushed Jesus down in your life. This is the presence altar we build in our life, even if we build it secretly in our thoughts hidden from others.

Thank you for reading and supporting me and my blog. Be blessed!

Listen to God

Listen to God

Okay, while I was trying to not think at all and taking a hot bath (usually I’m not the “bathing” but shower person) I was thinking about this blog. I started in March, so it’s my second month now. It started with the urge to write and tell others about my relation to God, but really quickly the thinking of making some money besides was really attractive.
Still I haven’t started to put affiliate links, as I’m still using the free version of wordpress (not being on any plan).
I was thinking about moving my blog to a plan, but it’s a massive amount for me to pay upfront, so I’m still not sure about when and if I should do these affiliate links at all. Sure I’m putting some links about the books, movies, series or yarn I bought, but this is still a normal url link with no benefit for me. These thoughts were really annoying at some point, as I started this idea of blog to be a true life telling testimony of mine.
It is all about God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit – not about me, trying to gain some pocket money.
So back to the roots, I was talking to God, while in the bath and not so sure about if I should continue this blog or not, what to write if I do and so on. I love it, the thing is, immediately there was this clear picture in my mind and something to tell you about me again, where God showed me his living word. So, maybe you’d like to read it –

In summer 2014, I arrived back in Germany, after my 2 years journey in Australia. Happy to be here at the one hand, blue about leaving my ever-wanted-to-stay-in country Australia – but it was my choice and at this time it was necessary for myself, to get a lot of things sort out.
After the long flight, it seemed that I was in a stage of wrapped awareness. When I entered the hallway of the airport in Germany it felt strange, not as being the german citizen but this shouldn’t be it. Later on I realized why I felt this way and that it didn’t caused the german ground, it was more the knowledge that I listened to God’s Holy Spirit and was on my way of recovery.

I had to start at zero, because I quit everything and everyone when I left. It was my choice back then and I had to handle the consequences. Step by step I started to take small steps towards all the broken relationships I cut on purpose, while I had to start with myself in the first place. It was a tough journey, where I discovered my soul and my worth in God. Before I lived in Australia my life and my approval was controlled by others, by family and friends, it nearly teared me apart, while this was my own fault.
The last half year of 2014 was tough for me, as I had to learn to stop letting people control my approval rather than God’s approval. I also started reading a book by Joyce Meyer – Approval Fix
And when I opend my bible app on my smartphone God showed me, what he thinks. I had to stop looking at other people’s opinion or conviction, and I read John 4, 17+18 and was touched, because I thought this could be me nowadays.

17 “I have no husband,” she replied.
Jesus said to her, “You are right when you say you have no husband.
18 The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true.”

Jesus talked to this Samarian woman, which was kind of excluded because of her lifestyle and past, but Jesus didn’t judge her past or behavior, more he saw that she was telling him the truth without even trying to tell him a lie or something to let her stand in a good light.
With this Samarian woman, many other Samarian’s start to believe and follow Jesus Christ. They were lost before but because of this woman they where saved.

While I was reading her story, it touched my heart, because first I felt worthless, because I don’t have a husband, same like her, but with this christian knowledge I was feeling and thinking that I should stay all by myself because it didn’t work with partner no.1 and not with partner no.2.

God doesn’t want me to be alone, so I know that he wants me to be with the one that God chose to be with me. I don’t have to be scared or impatient or anything else, because it’s God’s perfect plan and timing! He is giving me peace and my heart and my soul is calm, waiting patiently in obedience. Knowing 100% that God’s will is the best, sweetest, greatest, more than I can image now future for me than I can ever dream of.
So, how to listen to God? Start your relationship today, read his word, because it is a living word. Start to talk to the almighty, heavenly father, seek him as he is patiently waiting for you to return back to him – he loves you more than you can imagine!

Thank you for reading my journey. May God bless you today and tomorrow!

Breathe in

Breathe in

The other few days were cold and windy while it’s already late April. Seemed to mirror my inner feelings and fighting with several world related wishes…

Today is such a wonderful day. It started cold though but right now it’s such a wonderful warm day.

While combining walking the dog and creating some little adventure for the little ones we decided to visit a nearby forest. I love the atmosphere, the silence and simply nature. Talking to my Heavenly Father is as easy as talking to my children and I can simply recharge my soul and body while walking through the trees. 

The progress to start and proceed less electronic is still on going, because I’m starting everywhere straight away.. my habits with iPhone, iPad and TV, same as my sons iPad and TV. The spirit is already there while the soul and body is walking a bit slowly behind. Last week I started deleting 5 apps, and I try to keep deleting all unnecessary apps until I’ll just have one page of the necessary ones. Who knows, I was thinking about going back to Nokia, while this would mean no internet at all. Right now this is really difficult, as I’m posting my writings here via smartphone. Sure I thought about purchasing a blackberry classic while this is more an android as well.. though challenge right now. I just watched You Are Wanted on Amazon Prime about the electronic and internet addiction and how easy it can be for hackers to steal your identity and your life. Sure this one was just a Serie but well a bit truth is combined. I started looking from different positions and aspects about the electronic devises and how I use them. Pictures everywhere and honestly it’s like a force to post anything on instagram or co. just for the posting.

I started to read some books about Islam and converters – why Muslim women and men convert to follow Jesus, it was just a sample but I think it is so interesting reading true stories about real people converting while facing death penalties afterwards. So while I saw a wide range of testimonies about people, no matter what gender to convert to Islam, there was not one telling me that they converted because of God, or because prophet Muhammed told them to. Again, it is up to every individual, whether to chose a believe and then which believe in particular. All I can suggest and try to put near your heart is, go and search with all your heart and mind. And read – while this time we are overloaded with books, with the internet and all the kinds of information we can get it is easy and it should be our duty to seek the truth. I’m positive about you finding the light and truth for your path today! 

Thank you for reading and your interest in my writing. God’s rich blessing for you – Shalom

Saturday rush

Saturday rush

Saturday, the Shabbat for Jewish and messianic Jewish. As in a post a few days ago I did some small research about the Jewish calendar and why they see Saturday as the Shabbat day, and the day where you should rest, pray to the lord only. For western Christians it’s Sunday as for our Muslim brothers and sisters it’s Friday. As a Christian I start thinking and question “why Sunday?” Without any big research I’m just writing down some thoughts I have right now. 

You can find a connection between the Jewish Shabbat on Saturday and the Christian Sunday with Church service. The Shabbat ends on Saturday, and for Jews Sunday is the beginning of the 7 day week, as the Shabbat again stands for the last day or the day on which God rest after he created the world, nature animals and Adam and Eve. As for Christians Sunday is the day where Jesus rise from the death.

„After Shabbat, as the next day was dawning, Miryam of Magdala and the other Miryam went to see the grave.“ ‭‭Mattityahu (Mat)‬ ‭28:1‬ ‭CJB‬‬

So Sunday is the first day of the week, and it’s the day we celebrate Jesus being alive!

It’s a small information for some, but maybe informative for others.

Today I read a sample The Deception of Allah I’m still reading and not sure if I like it or not. It is a book about the life, family and history of prophet Muhammed and the Islamic Allah. Still there are some other books on my list, again I’m still reading Woman of the Bible already read 34 of 53, and several biblical plans and 2-3 books still wrapped not opened yet… time is running so fast and it’s time to organize time properly not wasting precious time for nonsense…

So besides my reading plans and studies I want to start what I was planning last year, I want to start changing my electronic devises… need to change my habits and with God’s help I can handle to get a distance to my apple products. Starting with my iPhone and iPad, switching to something else. You will be informed shortly.

Thank you for reading!

May God bless you all!

God is guiding

God is guiding

I hope you all had a blessed Easter Holiday with your family and friends.
These past few days I had some time to think and plan my life, my future and my present, in daily talk with my heavenly father I’m more confident and I can just give Jesus my worries and sorrow. Different aspects from job directions, different opportunities about living arrangements and some other small life challenges.

This was the first part I started to write 3 days ago. This time I was really challenging myself about writing something that is actually working inside me. It is important for me to have plans, as it is for many of us, maybe all of us. There might be some really living just today, not worrying at all. 

I can’t – well not yet. I’m on my way with God’s guidance to have more and more faith, letting go of control of everything I have, everything I am and especially everything I want. This is the most important part the things or situations I want. And I remember one quote “less me, more you Jesus!”


Back to my past few days, what happened? Daily schedule again, the days rushes by to fast, Easter just hopped away and well here we are Friday, nearly midnight and finally I’m writing this new blogpost using my iPhone to type in everything coming to my mind. I changed thinking, when I started this blog last month, I tried to tell myself that it’s a blog for sharing Gods love, Gods word and the Grace I received and that I want to share. But quickly it changed to stress, how to use social media for more traffic and then using this blog for making some money besides… sure this one is still on hand, but I learned something really important for me now, my heart knows that it can’t and shouldn’t run behind the money, biblical it’s already written down, we need to work for a living, but as I said in the beginning of my blog I want to write because I want to share my life with God with you guys, I should focus on that. Nothing else! And this is what I am doing now.

I started to fast before Easter and kept it until Good Friday, I prayed then I prepared the last supper and thanked God for giving me Jesus, I thanked Jesus for taking my sin to become a daughter of the highest. The next days were blessed (as is every day in my life with Jesus) I spent a lot time outside with the family, laughter and happiness, feeling the love Jesus gave us… when I glanced into the sky, catching some beautiful pictures, the different sunlight shapes and the whole miracle God creates for me – for us every day. This actual view keeps me in a mood, it’s similar to a spiritual trance, it calms my soul and touches my heart, same but at the same hand different as walking and breathing in the fresh air while walking in a nearby forest.


Have you ever tried to search God in everything you do and are? I started it, not everything for once, this is causing headache because we are not used to it, but I mean start somewhere you feel comfortable with. Back in my past I used to fall into deep thoughts about my life, what I’ve done, which steps I took, which ways I went etc. and I started to fall into a small kind of depression and put myself into dreams of how things could have been if I would have done things differently… this took some months until I grabbed Jesus Hand and listened to the Holy Spirit. Because falling into these dreams just keeps you away from the present love God is offering you right now. Everything I went through, everyone I’ve ever met, every talk I ever talked or listened to, was an important step for me towards my Heavenly Father… everything you had and have in life, all situations you are going through are not useless, always remember that you are never alone. 

I learned, that because of my free will I walked paths and streets that caused me numberless pain, but I know for sure, that there was not one minute that my Heavenly Father was away from me, he never left me alone, whether in Germany, the USA or Australia. And he will stay forever as his word is the truth.

Everyday I receive and realize more about this truth, Jesus came and died for me, how precious are we, that he had done this? Why are we so important to God? I can only answer for myself and this answer is to follow Jesus, to grab his hand and confess “Jesus you are the truth and the way to our Heavenly Father! No one comes to the father except trough you!! (John 14:6) 

He is waiting for you to grab his hand too ❤️

My journey hasn’t finish yet, I’m still in the middle or even at the beginning but I will continue writing and telling you what is happening in my life with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit! It is special every day!!

Blessings to all of you my dear brothers and sisters all over the world!