Godly Woman – Who’s she?

Reading the bible, on a daily basis, whether you just read one chapter, or you are reading on a plan at one point I was wondering “how does a godly woman look like?”. Not only her outer appearance, also her behaviour. Inside my heart I knew she should not hide inside the house or have no voice at all, I mean, there might be people showing biblical quotes that seem to state “this is the godly woman”. I did my research and found the Proverbs 31 woman and some other characteristic aspects I want to share with you today.

Why I started this personal journey? It’s not something I planned years ago, or as a life plan of myself. To tell you my personal circumstances, sure I was born into a christian family with christian tradition and since childhood my parents told me parts from the bible until I was able to read and teach myself. As a teenager I was sure I called myself a christian pre-adult, avoiding alcohol, drugs and men. While last point was more the fact there was no way of having a relationship, as God was still teaching me to be patient. At some point the flesh was at its rebellion stage and I had a late puberty at the age of 19 or 20 something. It included everything, disrespecting my parents, not listening to good advice, especially not advice from my younger siblings, testing and consuming alcohol, clubbing the weekends and of course men. The evil start telling lies and made me believe, that as an equal human on earth, why shouldn’t women be allowed to act and try men before marriage as it is sort of normal for male nowadays. When I was 25 I met my first fiancé, telling myself that I don’t need to marry him before starting a family, as it seemed that we both want the same. I didn’t listen God’s advice (and my families) as I thought my way is the best, at least for myself. So things happened as I ran ahead not waiting and listening to God’s Holy Spirit ended alone as a single parent. In the end it was my choice as I did not want to sink on this huge ship of sin and addiction.
At the age of 28 I decided to start a new life with my son, a fresh start and just live life. We moved down under – Sydney – I love this city! When I went this path, I promised God, and myself to trust in the Lord, no matter what. So Jesus was in my heart and I was relying on his love and I told myself to trust on his way this time!
I received so many blessings and was overwhelmed when I met my second fiancé, through my cousin one day. I can’t remember what exactly went through my mind, as I started this journey with my son I told myself to establish  a solid base first before meeting anyone.
Well things changed, as the flesh (again) pulled the gear to satisfy it’s desire. Love grew, feelings pushed the hormones and the positive thoughts to handle it all – by ourself.
In the end, as I asked God in the first place, I was called back to my believing roots and I listened to God’s Holy Spirit, to end this seemingly beautiful relationship, as it was not what God has planned for me. When there is Light, Darkness has to flee.

“The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness hasn’t overcome it.” John 1:5

Jesus is my light, he shines inside my heart and shines through darkness, I don’t want to say that my partner was “darkness” himself, but he lied about promises, that seem meaningless for him (maybe), but are essential and important to me.
As a christian I put God first always, I put God before myself, before any prospective partner, or husband. The time I realise that this fact should change, not recognizable for the world but for me inwardly, I focused on the voice coming from a loving God, not an enraged God but an understanding, patiently waiting heavenly father that he is, waiting for me to return back to his way, full of light. So I took his hand, refused to listen to fear, grabbing my back, I hold his hand tight and stayed in his Love. Since that time I continued studying and praying to my God and received so much blessings even as a single mother.

“Listen, my dear brothers and sisters: Has not God chosen those who are poor in the eyes of the world to be rich in faith and to inherit the kingdom he promised those who love him?” Jacob 2:5

In 2016 I started growing my desire to know more about God, to know more about Jesus and to know more about the Holy Spirit – and most of all, to listen more what God has to say. By mentioning this, it’s not only meaning to hear a voice, sometimes it is a feeling, a feeling to open the bible and immediately read what you need, sometimes it is something your brother or sister in Christ is telling you, not knowing that this was meant for you from God himself. The desire and wish inside my heart to re-read some bible verses and finding out if it’s right for me to wear a headcover arise. See my blogpost on Headcovering for the whole story. 

Back to the topic “Godly Woman”, who is she? How would she look like today? Would she wear clothes like back then? Is it necessary what to wear? What kind of fabric, or even color? There are some quotes in the holy bible, telling that the Godly Woman was wearing fine linen and purple. 

„She makes her own quilts; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. נ“

‭‭Mishlei (Pro)‬ ‭31:22‬ ‭CJB‬‬

First it sounds oldschool, like who’s quilting, or wearing linen? But then I started to ask for a different point of view, it doesn’t have to be out of fashion, linen is a good fabric, keeping you cool on hot summers and it doesn’t mean you are just wearing this sand-caramel color (while this is a nice color I think). And crafting – knitting, crocheting, sewing and quilting are more and more common. I started knitting in 2012, then I switched to crocheting, as I preferred it, then in 2014 I started trying out sewing, this is nice too, while I’m still doing the small projects like beanie hats for kids; so next challenge might be quilting? (Besides all my other challenges new languages, journaling and of course blogging) okay, but it’s not stated that you need to be able to do these things, I think it’s mainly focused on the things I should be able to do. These crafty things are essential for me, for me as a woman, for me as a mother and for me as a wife. Nowadays we don’t need it to survive a winter, but honestly it’s something different to snuggle in a handmade crochet blanket or to take a bought one (nothing bad about them too though). 

When I browse the internet and of course my favorite Pinterest, I found some points about the Godly Woman, she is

  • Generous (2. Cor. 9:11)
  • Wise (Prov. 31:26)
  • Light hearted (Prov. 17:22)
  • Reputable (Prov. 31:23)
  • Godly beauty (Prov. 31:30)
  • Trustworthy (Prov. 31:11)
  • Humble (Isa. 66:2)
  • Depend on God (Mat. 4:4)
  • Modest (Prov. 7:10)
  • Patient (Rom. 12:12)
  • Confident (Phil. 3:3)
  • Speak truth (Eph. 4:15)

As you can see, the most quotes are from Proverbs 31, so I started reading this again. Starting at Proverbs 31:10 the godly woman is far more worthy than jewels, and her husband will depend on her, he will never be poor. She never causes her husband trouble, she enjoys making things with her hands (craft, cooking, household), she wakes up early and prepares everything for the family, she is strong and able to do all her work. She works until late to make sure her business earns a profit. She is a strong person and people respect her, she looks to the future with confidence. She speaks with wisdom and teaches to be loving and kind. She is never lazy, her children say good things about her, her husband brags about her.
Well so far, honestly I can’t see me in this picture for now – but you know what? I’m working on it! Several points are on the list, that I’m working on now, and I know together with God I can achieve everything! I don’t do it because of me, or for myself – I want it, because I want to draw myself closer to God. It will not happen overnight, but with the time, step by step I will achieve to reach the godly woman as it is described in Proverbs 31.

Thank you for reading my thoughts and my story. Be blessed dear brothers and sisters!

Busy week

I was wondering about my new life as a blogger what to write about and how often I should write and so on. My last post was about my spring cleaning, and yes I did start on Monday 20, as I wrote it and it is pretty challenging still. I did this organizing chore and got 3 boxes of kids clothes and 1 of mine (and some shoes). I will donate those this upcoming week and will continue with my 2 bathrooms and after these I will check my living-/dining room… so it is still on going, I will upload process pictures on the original Spring Clean Post.

So this week starts fresh on a Monday where I de-cluttered the closets, meetings, appointments and Stress was moving in, my head was filled because of the calendar full of appointment, meeting and schedule itself. Many thoughts came too, while I was sitting in this café with my daughter and the other moms, I tried to connect to the topics they were talking about, while I was breastfeeding my little one. Thoughts about “enough breastfeeding?”,”time to stop it completely?”,”do I want to stop, or is it the world who wants me to stop?”…. you see these 3 questions just going around me and others… where is God? Embarrasst I was after realizing this! “Me, me, me…” and this particular song is inside my head Breathe Jonny Diaz I was listening to on the other day via my iPhone app K-LOVE.

So reminder to myself – before starting to think about things I really can’t answer myself, I should start asking the one who knows best – God! This I did, and now I’m doing pretty fine and so does my little one, because we started smoothly with less breastfeeding but not completely ending our precious cuddling time together! Thank you Lord – Your way is always the best!!

We spend the day at a small zoo, where the kids could pet the sheep, donkey and cows. This was such a happy afternoon, the kids were happy – and this made me happy as well.

Tuesday I had to pick up a family at the airport, 1 week vacation, I’m happy for them, they needed it as a small family and hard working parents they needed a break and some rest at a nice beach and hotel. Immediately my heart (?) and/or soul is longs for something similar herself, just taking the kids, some bags and 1 week off(line)….

Again, me, me, me…. where is God? I need to focuse on my point of view! 

On Tuesday night it was the first time I had someone babysit my kids. It was my dear sister in Christ, who is a mother of 3 herself, and so lovely she offered to watch my 2 while I should meet the other women in church. It was women meeting with hill song and encouraging talking with my lovely sisters. It was blessed, I was breathing in the blessings and holding my breath so I could keep it inside. These couple of hours helped me to settle again, gave my restless soul peace and directed my heart to lift up view to my Heavenly Father. Recharged and full of Gods promises I returned back home realizing that time with God is not connected to free time realized through my dear sister, I can and will put God in my daily rountine first place! Things I need to start doing will include limiting time and use of time-consuming devices and services that keep me from God, from praying and from my family, one of this device and service is my main and biggest issue – my smartphone… I guess I will start a new post about this journey, but months ago I already started thinking about how to limit the time I’m spending scrolling down instagram, Pinterest, twitter, Facebook, WhatsApp and the list continues… too many hours lost watching this screen, time that cannot be returned…

Wednesday was schedule for the first half, kids group first with crafting and playing, after this we went to the drummers class for my son and finally a day out, walking in the forest, breathing in the fresh air, listening to the sound of nature, birds, trees, wind… calming down the soul, letting your mind restart, and you simply feel Gods presence in everything he creates.

Thursday started without any stress, I put my son on holiday mood, because we would be cancelling all our schedule plans and simply drive to see my sister. They are living more rual, again less stress, less cars, less noise – lovely!! And indeed it was a good day, the kids were happy so was I.

Friday schedule stayed the same, while something was coming up. Since then we stayed at home, as we caught stomach ache and just unwell feeling… but that’s also something good, as I got some time to rethink and organize my thoughts about my life, my family, my blog and my future – with God! Always remember God first! 

Thank you for reading my thoughts. Be blessed dear brothers and sisters in Christ! Shalom!

Christian heart meets minimalistic lifestyle

It’s march 2017, spring is here and it’s time for deep cleaning and clutter-free living.
Some months ago I started checking my unit for clutter and I start wondering how to get rid of most of it as soon as possible; it’s a real challenge for me, well I’m not the person who’s collecting a lot of stuff – my sisters would roll their eyes right now, telling me, that it takes at least 10 minutes for me to sort and trash out letters/mails, because I’m oldschool having some penpals writing real letters (not the electronic mails). And with this, I’m very picky what can be thrown out and what I need to save.

So this one is a big challenge for me, as I don’t like to clean much, honestly I’m not the best cleaner but with this post I want to change and take you with me on my trip to

  1. Declutter step-by-step
  2. Organize the things to
    – sell
    – throw away
    – keep
  3. How to clean a 74qm unit in no time

To be clear, this is a plan I’m really looking forward to take place, as I will start – I will upload pictures and steps until I will reach the end.
I want to include some advice and essential DIY tips I found on Pinterest, and which I tried myself (especially hacks for cleaning the couch/sofa).

But back to my first intention and thoughts about this post, as a christian I was wondering if there is advice in God’s Word about this life issue. I felt restless while I was running behind the kids and even myself cleaning and picking up things, to put them from one place to another. And my heart was telling me, there is something you can read about in God’s Word, the Bible about our life and our lifestyle. So this is just for myself, everyone has a different feeling about this”issue”, well in my case I felt simply not well and just revised with this daily chore.
With so many things and plans in my head I was thinking about “how to organize my household” with 2 small kids leaving their toys and stuff around and overcrowded rooms.
I know, there need to be more hiding places for things, but the most important thing in my case is – sorting out!
Everyday there is at least one piece going inside the unit, that could stay out in the first place. Let it be the envelope of any mail. I already started to not take in the brochure we receive every wednesday and saturday – but I will change this as well – we don’t need so much rubbish, to do = pin a sign that inform “no advertising please”
In the end of my decluttering season I want to be less stressed when I come home, to be honest with you there is at least 50% of things in my unit I actually don’t need – or my kids. So in times where there are refugees coming to europe and germany there are plenty of possibilities to give away those things that seem unnecessary for me. (I have to ask the kids first of course, but I know they will agree to help)

  • Sell what you own and do tzedakah — make for yourselves purses that don’t wear out, riches in heaven that never fail, where no burglar comes near, where no moth destroys. 34 For where your wealth is, there your heart will be also.” Luke 12,33-34 CJB
  • In other words, do not let yourselves be conformed to the standards of the ‘olam hazeh. Instead, keep letting yourselves be transformed by the renewing of your minds; so that you will know what God wants and will agree that what he wants is good, satisfying and able to succeed.” Romans 12,2 CJB
  • “Now true religion does bring great riches, but only to those who are content with what they have. For we have brought nothing into the world; and we can take nothing out of it; so if we have food and clothing, we will be satisfied with these.” 1.Timothy 6,6-8 CJB

These three bible verses gave me the impulsion to start, okay I need it to be well organized (because last year I started this clutter free life, and it ended frustrated and unfinished because I tried to start all at once without any plan at all)

  1. Try to make a roughly plan in your thoughts and if you want and need write it down
    – As I have a 2 story unit I will start from top to bottom
    – Work from room to room (as I mentioned before, you risk to get frustrated, because it can be a lot!)
    – in every room, seperate boxes e.g. laundry baskets to split what you are going to toss out, what you can donate and what you will keep
  2. Before you start in your first room now, enjoy a cup of coffee or tea first and then get things started.
    – Clothing, ask yourself if you used/worn the item the last year, or if you’re going to wear it in the next 3 months
    – if the answer is no/no check if the item is still wearable in good condition, so you can donate or sell it. If not = toss it.
    – if the answer is yes = keep it
  3. Second room (Bathroom)
    – check for outdated products, parfum, deodorant, nailpolish,….
  4. After finishing the upper floor I have to check my big living room – this will be my biggest challenge (besides the kitchen) as I store a lot of things there, like as mentioned before Mails, Documents, Photos, Books, Yarn, some toys from the kids, domestic appliances (vacuum cleaner)….
  5. Last but not least the kitchen, this will be serious too, as I have to ask myself what I really need and what I can donate, like for example how many cups do I actually need? Or cutlery? Pots and Pans? And then I will start organizing drawers for bags, binbags, shoppingbags, freezerbags (one of my next blog posts will be about foodprep)

After this plan I really hope and am looking forward to see a clutter-free home of mine!
Start date will be Monday March 20, 2017.

Update 13. April 2017
So I started, I sorted out and already gave 4 big bags to charity in a nearby church, later there will be more who will be donated to another organisation near my place, for singleparents in need.
And I did my kitchen on Monday, still a long way to go – I want to reach a minimalistic lifestyle even with kids.

The following 4 kitchen cabinets I show you now, were photographed before de-cluttered. 

© cabinets before

On Pinterest I found some nice essentials, well maybe it’s just for bakers, I still have to find my right balance for my family and me. I started to sort out some of my cups, and those heaps of glasses (on picture 3, still unpacked and 12 in total) and some of my plates.
I got my own list now =

  • Cutlery (for lets say 4-6)
  • Glasses ~4
  • Wine Glasses ~2
  • Cups ~4
  • Plates ~4
  • Bowls ~4
  • at least one good knife (I got 2)
  • wooden spoons (2-3)
  • whisk
  • can opener
  • bottle opener
  • measuring cup
  • mixing bowls (~3)
  • cutting board (~2-3)
  • pot (2-4)
  • frying pan (2)
  • colander
  • cookie sheet
  • baking dish

Well reviewing this small list, I still got too much. So, next step after the easter break – more de-cluttering!! I still need some more food containers for continue my prep meals, as I don’t use and don’t have a slow-cooker (I don’t know if it would be the right machine for me) I’m more the person to prepare food on one or two days to be prepared for a whole week or 10 days. I tried some pasta already, worked for me, as I don’t like too much spice, but when my sister tried it, she notes that it’s too tasteless. Guess I stick to asian food, I will try some israeli/arabic food next time to prepare and store in the fridge and freezer. As well as I need some JÄMKA IKEA food storage basics, and basics for sugar, flour, rice, noodles etc. right now I’m using TupperWare they are nice, but well way too expensive honestly, and sometimes I like the style of IKEA.

I’m still working on my clutter-free home, and the big dream is still this Tinyhouse… One day, if it’s God’s will.

By Whatcom Lake Cottages

Thank you for taking time following my spring deep cleaning plans 2017.
God bless you!

How Jesus changed my everything

Last month in febuary I was asked to prepare something for church, honestly I was nervous, because I was thinking all the time “what to tell? What should I prepare??” in the end it was so easy, because I did nothing (except writing some sentence down and some bible quotes). Today I want to share this moment with you, not only this moment – I want to share my changing thoughts and my life.

It was the beginning of febuary this year and when I decided to let go and said “God, it’s all in your hand” I already wanted to rest and lay down in bed, when suddenly clear structured thoughts crossed my mind. I couldn’t help but take my bible study notebook and wrote it down.

Bible studies
Bible studies notebook

I wrote down without thinking, and this is what is written in my notebook =

  1. Who am I, when I accept (and follow) Jesus?
  2. How does my appearance change afterwards for the world?
  3. How do I define myself now?
  4. How does Jesus change my heart?
  5. How does Jesus change my thoughts?
  6. How does Jesus change (influence) my acting?
  7. How does Jesus change my appearance?

I just wrote it down like this, then later while I was searching and studying for bible verses I realize that 2 and 7 are nearly the same – but still I will keep them.

Alright, I had those 7 points and was thinking and searching the Bible for answers. I didn’t want to just put my own experience, I wanted some Bible quote to manifest it for myself. I will start with point 1.

So, who am I after accepting Jesus, after being baptized and a follower of our Lord Jesus? I’m still Sarah, but =

„Therefore, if anyone is united with the Messiah, he is a new creation — the old has passed; look, what has come is fresh and new! And it is all from God, who through the Messiah has reconciled us to himself and has given us the work of that reconciliation, which is that God in the Messiah was reconciling mankind to himself, not counting their sins against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation. Therefore we are ambassadors of the Messiah; in effect, God is making his appeal through us. What we do is appeal on behalf of the Messiah, “Be reconciled to God! God made this sinless man be a sin offering on our behalf, so that in union with him we might fully share in God’s righteousness.”“. ‭‭2 Corinthians (2 Co)‬ ‭5:17-21‬ ‭CJB‬‬

„He has rescued us from the domain of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of his dear Son. It is through his Son that we have redemption — that is, our sins have been forgiven. He is the visible image of the invisible God. He is supreme over all creation, because in connection with him were created all things — in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones, lordships, rulers or authorities — they have all been created through him and for him.“. Colossians (Col)‬ ‭1:13-16‬ ‭CJB‬‬

My favorite

„But to as many as did receive him, to those who put their trust in his person and power, he gave the right to become children of God, not because of bloodline, physical impulse or human intention, but because of God.“ ‭‭Yochanan (Jhn)‬ ‭1:12-13‬ ‭CJB‬

„You were dead because of your sins, that is, because of your “foreskin,” your old nature. But God made you alive along with the Messiah by forgiving you all your sins.“ Colossians (Col)‬ ‭2:13‬ ‭CJB‬‬

And a reminder, that we are no longer slaves

„For you did not receive a spirit of slavery to bring you back again into fear; on the contrary, you received the Spirit, who makes us sons and by whose power we cry out, “ Abba! ” (that is, “Dear Father!”). The Spirit himself bears witness with our own spirits that we are children of God; and if we are children, then we are also heirs, heirs of God and joint-heirs with the Messiah — provided we are suffering with him in order also to be glorified with him.“ ‭‭Romans (Rom)‬ ‭8:15-17‬ ‭CJB‬‬

Second point was, “How does my appearance change afterwards for the world?”

First of all, how can my appearance change? Clothing, way of talk, my whole being?

„We know that when the tent which houses us here on earth is torn down, we have a permanent building from God, a building not made by human hands, to house us in heaven.“ 2 Corinthians (2 Co)‬ ‭5:1‬ ‭CJB‬‬

Let me explain, why I chose this quote. It doesn’t tell directly how I change, or what changes the world can see. 2 Corinthians 5:1 tells us, that our life on earth is just temporary, that no matter what house we have on earth is similar with a tent. So for me, a tent is portable, nothing solid, nothing to keep me safe or else. A tent is not used for someone to stay longer than a holiday. And this one quote leads to my change. As I start to understand, that my life on earth is not forever, similar to a holiday I can spend in a tent, I realize what really matters. My aim as Sarah, Spirit, Soul and Body is to obey our Heavenly Father so that I can look forward to return back home, whenever my holy father decides to. And this change my appearance, my whole attitude, my speeches, my comments, my temper, my everything.

Third point, “How do I define myself?”

After I received God’s grace, I changed. I’m not only Sarah, female citizen of this earth, daughter of my parents, born at and so on; I am now, Sarah, beloved, wanted daughter of the highest, rescued by his beloved son, and dead to sin.

Point 4, “How does Jesus change my Heart?”

„and this hope does not let us down, because God’s love for us has already been poured out in our hearts through the Ruach HaKodesh who has been given to us.“

‭‭Romans (Rom)‬ ‭5:5‬ ‭CJB‬

This assurance that was filled into my heart through the Ruach HoKodesh comes directly from God and this changes broken hearts. My heart was broken in several pieces only Jesus could heal completely, now Gods love fills it and nothing can change that.

5. Point “How does Jesus change my thoughts?”

„In union with him, through the shedding of his blood, we are set free — our sins are forgiven; this accords with the wealth of the grace he has lavished on us. In all his wisdom and insight he has made known to us his secret plan, which by his own will he designed beforehand in connection with the Messiah“

‭‭Ephesians (Eph)‬ ‭1:7-9‬ ‭CJB‬‬

„Brothers, I, for my part, do not think of myself as having yet gotten hold of it; but one thing I do: forgetting what is behind me and straining forward toward what lies ahead, I keep pursuing the goal in order to win the prize offered by God’s upward calling in the Messiah Yeshua.“

‭‭Philippians (Php)‬ ‭3:13-14‬ ‭CJB‬‬

„When the Messiah was executed on the stake as a criminal, I was too; so that my proud ego no longer lives. But the Messiah lives in me, and the life I now live in my body I live by the same trusting faithfulness that the Son of God had, who loved me and gave himself up for me. I do not reject God’s gracious gift; for if the way in which one attains righteousness is through legalism, then the Messiah’s death was pointless.“

‭‭Galatians (Gal)‬ ‭2:20-21‬ ‭CJB‬‬

My thoughts are not longer in my past, the things I did, the things I did wrong, the people I met, or maybe shouldn’t have met, the things I should have done, but didn’t and so on – my thoughts are more on the present, on God’s precious gift, he gave me, because I’m worth it and I’m loved by him no matter what I had or was.

The sixth point “How does Jesus change my acting?”

„If, along with the Messiah, you died to the elemental spirits of the world, then why, as if you still belonged to the world, are you letting yourselves be bothered by its rules? — “Don’t touch this!” “Don’t eat that!” “Don’t handle the other!” Such prohibitions are concerned with things meant to perish by being used [not by being avoided!], and they are based on man-made rules and teachings.“

‭‭Colossians (Col)‬ ‭2:20-22‬ ‭CJB‬‬

„Beloved friends, let us love one another; because love is from God; and everyone who loves has God as his Father and knows God.“

‭‭1 Yochanan (1 Jo)‬ ‭4:7‬ ‭CJB‬‬

So my acting is changed as well, like “do not speak before you think” sure I did this too before I accepted Jesus, but like gossiping, judge and condemn others I’m changed a lot, as for me, there is no permission to judge others, as there will be only one judging every humanbeing on the judgment day!

Last point 7, “How does Jesus change my appearance?”

„for you were bought at a price. So use your bodies to glorify God.“

‭‭1 Corinthians (1 Co)‬ ‭6:20‬ ‭CJB‬‬

„Also we have come to know and trust the love that God has for us. God is love; and those who remain in this love remain united with God, and God remains united with them. Here is how love has been brought to maturity with us: as the Messiah is, so are we in the world. This gives us confidence for the Day of Judgment. There is no fear in love. On the contrary, love that has achieved its goal gets rid of fear, because fear has to do with punishment; the person who keeps fearing has not been brought to maturity in regard to love. We ourselves love now because he loved us first.“

‭‭1 Yochanan (1 Jo)‬ ‭4:16-19‬ ‭CJB‬‬

So as I was bought at a high price – the highest ever! I have the urge to thank God with all I am and all I have. I can’t love as much as God loves us! My body, my heart, my thoughts, my life – everything I have and am belongs to my Heavenly Father. He should at least have every second of my life focused on him no matter what. Still this life is working hard on distractions and problems. In any way, this is how Jesus changed my appearance, I want to be more like him step by step. Jesus is Love, he is the love himself, he took my sin, while he was without any. He suffered what was my price to pay and just because he wants me to be close to our Heavenly Father and no longer far away! Halleluja!

Thank you for taking time reading what I was working on, I hope you enjoyed it. Be blessed!

Busy schedule…where is the next exit?

This post will be about one topic I was pondering when I was preparing for church the other day.
As a mother of two, with a busy schedule, childcare, mother-kids-meeting, church, sports, music, meeting friends and family there is at least one day a month I ask myself “where is the next exit please?” Exit for what? Well I don’t mean an exit of life, or of my beautiful family and children. I mean, the exit of this superfluous life, that seems to never end giving me tasks, input and well bereave my strength and breath.
One night I opened my Bible App and typed in words like “Stress, overtaxing, hopeless, sorrow..” And I have to tell you, the word of God is a guide for happy, blessed days!

Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to his life?” Matthew 6,27 CJB
I can answer this question – no, I cannot add any single second to my life, as only God knows when it will end. So for me, I understand every second on this earth as Sarah, as a mother, as a sister, a friend and most important a daughter of the highest, the heavenly father it is my precious gift from God to live this life with all its ups and downs, nothing will change if I will get lost in sorrow or anxiety, it will steal my time that I should use and enjoy in the truth God gave me.

“Anxiety in a person’s heart weighs him down,
    but a kind word cheers him up.” Proverbs 12,25 CJB
And here we go with anxiety and what it will do to a person’s heart. This is not God’s plan for me, and for you too. God’s plan is bigger than all the sorrow in this earth.

Don’t worry about anything; on the contrary, make your requests known to God by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving. Then God’s shalom, passing all understanding, will keep your hearts and minds safe in union with the Messiah Yeshua.” Philip 4,6+7 CJB
So make your requests known to God by prayer, sure I was and am praying but what am I praying? Me personally I like to pray the Lordsprayer – as it says and includes already everything we need, no matter if it’s for me or you. Sometimes I add my request after this prayer.

Something to practice read Psalms 84 “one day with God is better than 1000 without him!”
And an interesting question “How do you live a day with God?”
I thought about this question, because honestly how easy is it to get distracted by life itself? When you wake up, listening to the rain outside your bedroom window, snuggling just a little bit more under the blanket not to wake up immediately, there are so many thoughts inside your head, but God?
For me – I have to choose God everyday, and I love to choose him everyday when I open my eyes! Let this be your daily routine, to wake up, open your eyes proclaiming that you need God and that he is the leader of your day and life. I add Jesus to this announcing, I invite  him to spend the morning together with me and the family, to stay with the kids while they are in childcare, kidsgroup and on the playground.

To finish this post, I also have to lay down all my sorrows and stress under Jesus Christ Cross so he can handle these things for me – as I could never handle them by myself!

So if you were raised along with the Messiah, then seek the things above, where the Messiah is sitting at the right hand of God.[a]Focus your minds on the things above, not on things here on earth. For you have died, and your life is hidden with the Messiah in God. When the Messiah, who is our life, appears, then you too will appear with him in glory!

Therefore, put to death the earthly parts of your nature — sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed (which is a form of idolatry); for it is because of these things that God’s anger is coming on those who disobey him. True enough, you used to practice these things in the life you once lived; but now, put them all away — anger, exasperation, meanness, slander and obscene talk. Never lie to one another; because you have stripped away the old self, with its ways, 10 and have put on the new self, which is continually being renewed in fuller and fuller knowledge, closer and closer to the image of its Creator.” Colossians 3,1-10 CJB

Thank you for taking time to read on my post.

God bless you!


Hagar from “Women of the Bible”

A slave, married to Abraham she became proud, but because of being proud God´s punishment was big. When she listened God´s voice she followed immediately and she got the prediction that her son would be the father of many.

Who was Hagar? She was an Egyptian woman, who could be possibly a gift from Pharao while Abraham and Sara were hiding in Egypt. Then Hagar was a close slave from Sara, as Sara chooses her to be the birth mother of the predicted Son, Abraham and Sara should have. Of course this action caused a spiritual desaster. After Hagar realized that she actually was pregnant, she began to put herself higher up on Sara, while this led Sara to treat her not well at all. So one day Hagar was desperate about her situation and how Sara treated her she runaway straight into the desert. She wasn’t too far, when she heard a voice calling her “Hagar, Slave of Sara, where are you from and where are you going? Go back to your master and stay being her Slave” but as to soften this, it was followed by “You will give birth to a son. Call him Ismael, as the Lord has listened how you are suffering” After this, there was no concerning or struggling inside Hagar, she returned back to Abraham and Sara, because God calmed the storm inside her heart like a spring in a desert oasis.

Ismael means “God hears”

Hagar, a young woman, used as a slave, brought far away from her hometown to serve her masters, pregnant with her first child, abandoned into desert after her son was about 16 years old.

In all this time and after this still, God never left her, God always saw her pain, her struggling and God heard her Sons voice. And Gods promise, that her son will be the father of many people stayed true, as Ismael is the father of our Arabic-Muslim brothers and sisters.

Refering to the book The Benjamin Generation written by Joseph Prince and the Bible, Hagar symbolize one Mountain – Sinai in Arabia, same as Sara does. Both women symbolize the union with God.

“Tell me, you who want to be in subjection to the system that results from perverting the
Torah into legalism, don’t you hear what the Torah itself says? 22 It says that Avraham had two sons, one by the slave woman and one by the free woman. 23 The one by the slave woman was born according to the limited capabilities of human beings, but the one by the free woman was born through the miracle-working power of God fulfilling his promise. 24 Now, to make a midrash on these things: the two women are two covenants. One is from Mount Sinai and bears children for slavery — this is Hagar. 25 Hagar is Mount Sinai in Arabia; she corresponds to the present Yerushalayim, for she serves as a slave along with her children. 26 But the Yerushalayim above is free, and she is our mother; 27 for the Tanakh says,

“Rejoice, you barren woman who does not bear children!
Break forth and shout, you who are not in labor!
For the deserted wife will have more children
than the one whose husband is with her!”[a]28 You, brothers, like Yitz’chak, are children referred to in a promise of God. 29 But just as then the one born according to limited human capability persecuted the one born through the Spirit’s supernatural power, so it is now. 30 Nevertheless, what does the Tanakh say? “Get rid of the slave woman and her son, for by no means will the son of the slave woman inherit along with the son of the free woman!”[b]31 So, brothers, we are children not of the slave woman, but of the free woman.” Galatians 4, 21-31 CJB

Hagar symbolize the flesh = as her son was planned by human.

“Thus, those who identify with their old nature cannot please God.” Romans 8,8

Photograph by James C. Lewis

„God heard the boy’s voice, and the angel of God called to Hagar from heaven and said to her, “What’s wrong with you, Hagar? Don’t be afraid, because God has heard the voice of the boy in his present situation.“

‭‭B’resheet (Gen)‬ ‭21:17‬ ‭CJB

Hagar in our time? What would she be like? Maybe a young mother or mother to be who is also struggling with life and situations others put her through without her even asking. How many are singles, single mothers, seeking for love, understanding and acceptance? How many try and work on their life to be successful while their heart is cracking and falling apart because the fact is, they can’t do it all alone – what they need is our Heavenly Father, who is watching over them, willing to help, but we have one tiny task to do first – we need to ask for help. God will help, no matter what situation you are in, he will never leave your side and he will always be there for you, as long as you ask him to. God will never force you to ask, or accept or even talk to him, but he wants you to want it yourself, because God loves you so much, he doesn’t want to see you suffer, he doesn’t want you to be in pain, but because of our free will he can’t interfere with our path we want to be in. As soon as we realize and accept that we need God and ask him to be there he definitely will! And that is a promise! A promise God himself made for all of us! So the story in the Bible included 3 main people first, Abraham father of many people, Jews, Christians and Muslims, Sara mother of Jews and Christians and Hagar, a slave and mother of Ismael, father of Muslims. And God was with all of them, God showed mercy, God corrected their path (called them back), heard her suffer, kept his promise.

Hagar, mother of Ismael is a very interesting woman, back in the past I already thought about her, her life, her struggling, her pain and her relationship with God. Although she came from Pharao in Egypt, she heard Israels God, not once- twice! And she listened. She showed obedience without questioning and she faced all the struggles, but because God was with her.

Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts about Hagar.

Be blessed!

Woman of the Bible

I love reading books. This is what my friends know. 2 years ago, when I was baptized, my brothers and sisters in Christ gave me a great book about all women of the Bible. There are 52 mentioned, so its a good thing to read one story of a woman each week so you should be done in 1 year… well, that was the plan, today it´s almost 2,5 years ago and I´m still reading and studying this book. To be honest, during this time I was into so many other things, crafting, reading, and so much more… but today I want to share with you one story of a woman who really fascinated me – and for sure I will add more during my studies here on this Blog.

If you want to purchase this book yourself here is the link that directs you to the amazon.com.uk shop.

So I mentioned before, that there are 52 women written about, all of them mentioned in the Bible. Today I want to start and tell you about Rahel, beautiful Rahel sister of Leah, second daughter Laban´s and her life being ruled and manipulated by him, she didn´t had any control of her own life, being in a passive modus of herself. With the sin that happened to her, she answered with sinning in respond – measuring herself with her sister and betraying her father.

When you start reading Rahels story in the Bible you may see the dilemma. Starting in Genesis 29:15 when Jacob started working for Rahels father Laban, and Laban asked his nephew Jacob what he wants in return for his work. Jacob asked his uncle to marry his daughter Rahel, because he fell in love with her, and in return he would work for his uncle Laban for 7 years. Laban agreed to his wish, marrying his daughter Rahel. Laban had a first daughter named Leah – and here we go. After Jacob worked for 7 years he asked for the marriage and Laban invited everyone for the wedding. Genesis 29:23 says, that Laban didn’t put Rahel, but Leah to marry Jacob and he (Jacob) didn’t realized it until the next morning after they were already married. Sure Jacob was really mad at his father-in-law I mean, he worked for him for 7 years and they agreed that Jacob could marry his love Rahel, but now Laban betrayed him and gave him Leah. What should Jacob have done? And now Laban was tricky, he told Jacob to work for another 7 years, so he could marry his second daughter Rahel.

The book “Women of the Bible” is a good book to study women of the holy bible, you can read the story, and the authors give you questions to ask yourself, to answer while studying and to get you deeper in the story and time of this happening itself. For example

  • Read Genesis 30:1     The tragedy in the voice of Rahel happened to so many women afterwards. Why was the close relationship to Leah the cause to make things even worst? Shouldn’t this help to decrease the pain instead?
  • Read Genesis 35:16-20   While they were still on their way, Rahel gave birth to her only son, try to imagine her circumstances and her physical and psychics pain she was going through.
Photograph by James C. Lewis

In the end Rahel was the mother of Benjamin, who should first be called Ben-Oni (son of my grief) because of the painful birth she had and in the end died of, but his father Jacob named him Benjamin (son of the right hand, son of the south). And why Benjamin is the one directing for something else, something important in the Bible and our life today  is another very interesting book I refer to, it´s “The Benjamin Generation” from Joseph Prince, really very interesting point of view and he is connecting the Old Testament with the Scripture, it is so wonderful to see this light while reading, understanding, discovering even new points that you haven’t seen there before. I recommend this book from Joseph Prince, it is not that heavy or too much to read, it is more informative, supportive in studying the Word of God.

Thank you for reading! Be blessed!