Forgiveness

I started to write this post before, but then I interrupted myself and I couldn’t save the text so, it simply disappeared. I will write it again, maybe with new informations and some different views.

Forgiveness – it is a big subject, it is something, that I am dealing with at least once a week. Sometimes it’s small situations to forgive, but sometimes there are situations bigger to get through with.

I have at least 2 different types of situations where I have to focus on how to forgive (not to compare to forget), the simple ones are situations, that occur with family and friends, because of simple misunderstanding and wrong information about something, and the heavier ones are those related to family and friends doing the same hurting things and saying/telling me what I’ve done, defines who I am, or these kind of partners, who tries to break a person on a psychological way, trying to push yourself down, so you feel like you’re worth nothing at all.
Well I’ve experienced it all, people, once called friend or even partner trying to put their psychological craziness into my mind to change it or direct me into what they want me to do or think. I’ve also had the situation where I’ve been told that my past will cling to me like a bad smelling bubble gum and I will never get rid of it and should hide or better vanish into nowhere.
How to react, to continue a conversation or relationship with this kind of situation and person?
I’m honest, if I don’t have to see the person again – I won’t – ever, if possible. The normal situation is something different, because usually it is, the closer your relation is to a certain group or person, the easier it becomes to be hurt and to have this situation where you have to forgive.

Once I thought, it is an easy saying to quickly forgive, but how to truly forgive by heart not only by saying?
I can only tell you how it is with me, when I have had situations and assaulting like this I took it inside my heart and mind immediately and kind of locked it inside. Like I wanted to keep this bad feeling, this growing anger and this boiling blood feeling. Why? First I told myself, that the longer I keep it inside, the better, like it would get less bad or like it would become smaller by time and less hurtful. I can tell you – I was wrong. When I kept all this inside it became even worst after time, because you start thinking about it from every possible point of view. And sometimes it can even grow. Finally I realized that I was building my own prison by doing like this.
I started praying, I started asking my heavenly father how to stop me doing this and creating even bigger and stronger chains.
Slowly he showed me what forgiveness means. Somehow I related or even put it on the same stage as forgetting. I thought that forgiving means I will or need to forget as well. Like erasing the situation out of my mind and to easily and quickly return back to a friendship or relation as it was before.
And this turned out to be not true – in my case (and I guess in so many others as well).

I can give you an example out of my past.
I had a partner almost 12 years ago, he had his positive side of character but also a bad side, like jealousy and some kind of forcing character of his way of lifestyle and how he actually wants his and our life to be and become. Being in a relationship with him for over 2 years, living together and even planning to go on some vacation (that we actually never did because of his stingy behaviour) somehow I found to myself and my own worth in Christ and left him. He did hurt me with several things like jealousy, unanswered conversations and wishes for a real and in gods-way-relationship, with unhealthy sexual desires he asked for and finally when I was done with his trying to make me jealous because of his ex-girlfriend he wants to meet and his jealousy of not leaving me to work, I ended this relationship – also he didn’t want to have a family like I did.

After this nearly 3 years of relationship where surely we both tried to arrange the other partner to our lifestyle I felt exhausted and broken, I felt hurt and my heart was injured and first I couldn’t and the most I didn’t want to forgive him all that happened in the past between him and me, but when I broke up with him I started talking to God leading me to forgive him – so that I could be free.

After this part of my life a new part started, I finished my trainee at a big company after 2.5 years and planned a work & travel year in Australia in 2009. Everything was ready and I told myself that I didn’t want anything or anyone to interfere, so I would change my mind again – but it happened. I was invited to a birthday party of a good friend and met my ex-partner, the father of my son. Today I can’t understand what got into my mind, I’ve been on my Australia trip, but instead of being there for 12 months (at least) I’ve shortened it to 2 months. This was a negative thing for my parents, as I used their money for my flight tickets – and of course I excused my decision because of my future plans with him.

I’m not pointing my finger at my ex-partner, because all decisions where mine. When I think back, I’m more likely pointing at myself, giving me full responsibility of what I’ve chosen and asking myself why. I was blaming me, but same as to forgive others I need to forgive myself – and in Jesus Christ we can.

Jesus showed me, that he loves me, that he is patiently waiting for me at the point where I left him because I thought I could run my way in front of him. He is waiting until I return back to him, taking his hand, apologising and receiving his love, his understanding, his comforting and his grace for me.

Back in 2009 I was really focused on me, myself, my wishes, my plans and everything Me-related, I didn’t put God first, I didn’t asked Jesus opinion, I didn’t invited the Holy Spirit to guide me and open my eyes for my heavenly fathers view. And I ran into a brick wall (metaphorically). As I walked with my plan that was fixed in my mind, I was walking completely out of Gods path, I didn’t thought about the right way of things; I just focused on my desires, that included happy family life, having children and if possible (financially) a nice wedding. Maybe you see the point? Thinking back to 2009 I’m asking myself, who was thinking for me, why was I imagine a marriage a “maybe“? So I’ve walked the road real far away from Jesus and didn’t want to return back then, until the curtain fell, when I finally realised that all I’ve planned and wanted and tried by myself was unhealthy and not good for me, same as for my ex-partner.

My ex-Partner wasn’t and sadly isn’t walking with God, and at this point I was still fresh and new to my own relationship to God. Life and some heavy addiction problems of my ex-partner brought me ending our relationship, while I still tried to help him with any support possible, mental, physical and financial until I barely couldn’t support my own small family of two I stopped the financial support.

What I’m trying to tell is, that for everything I’ve done and I’ve decided to do, I am responsible and for those, where I blame myself, where I made mistakes and did wrong, I even need to forgive myself; I need to let go of the past and stop thinking about “what might be if?..” . maybe you have some similar (hopefully less painful) past situations you need to let go and forgive yourself, because the past is gone, what we decided and what we did passed already, we have to live with the outcome, we can thank the Lord for everything he made possible, for every time that he saved us, for every minute he was listening to our smallest prayer, but mostly for always loving us more than we can ever imagine.

Today I want to encourage you to forgive. To forgive others because it will free you. To forgive yourself, because Jesus took it all away so that you could be called a child of God.

I thank you for your interest and your patient reading my life story.

Be blessed – Shalom

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Living with less

Some weeks ago my sister in Christ showed me a documentary about American Amish, because I was and am thinking about a Christian modest and simple lifestyle.
While I was watching the 6 series on Youtube I was talking to God, reading his Bible and thinking about how to start changing my own life and lifestyle.

Last year I already started to declutter and to think about what to sort out for good, I did every room after another, and it is a circle returning after months. So, I started with the kids room, the bedroom – all the closets and then the livingroom and kitchen, when I returned doing everything all over again, when my family and I moved last year, and still there is so much stuff – I told my sister it’s like a black hole and we are not getting less it seems that we keep all the stuff while I’m throwing more things out.
So what is it again that’s too much? When I take a look at my kids rooms I find too many toys and games (even I sorted out more than the half of it) and again I’m decluttering their rooms.

Last time I donated a lot of kitchen stuff like plates, cutlery, bowls and cups.
And still it seems like I have no room for my left over plates and pans, I try to minimize everything to a minimal point, just enough for the family.
So what got my attention while watching the documentary?
There were several points, starting with finding my position and purpose as a mother and housewife, how to find a new point of view of my life, my person and my position at home. In my past, especially during school and study time I was thinking I’m independent and have to be well educated and on the same position as men; I don’t say education is bad or there is no need in education for girls/women – in fact I still think it is good and necessary to give both, men and women the chance and availability to study.
I’m just talking about my own story and history – as I’m grown up in a family with 2 sisters and my parents wished that we should all finish our High School graduation – so we did, and I enrolled university to study, while to be honest I didn’t know what to study. I took a course called “Asian science” and started learning to speak the Malaysian/indonesian language and some history, cultural and religious information.
After 2 years study I finally stopped and started my training at a big firm as an office clerk, and worked there for about 3 years.

Looking back at these times I can tell it was good, maybe also necessary, but also a journey of my own, searching for my own place, my own self.
Why? Today I know that my heart wished for something else than high quality education, since I was 16 and in High School I was planing to be a wife, a mother and first place a daughter of the highest. While my life turned out to be a journey with different stops and dead end roads; yes I am happy and thankful to be able to go to school and to study at university and choose my own job, so I can become independent – but do I need it? God has the right partner for me as well as for you, I knew that before, when I was at school, but still there need to be a kind of emergency plan or else.
When I look around my self, my family and friends, I see the uncertainty on their faces and minds when it comes to future plans or even a so called 5-year-future plan. Some of my friends are still not sure about whether they should marry their partner whom they already live with in a unit for years now or not and stay in this position and life circumstance for some more years.
I walked this path already, I lived with my partner for years, not married to each other like so many nowadays and then became pregnant – this changed everything, my point of view, my wish of the right path, the one God has planned for me. While my partner was far away from God’s path, I wished for the partner God has already created for me, the kind of caring and loving partner, that loves God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit and where both partners listen to God’s plan and his marriage order in life.
Finally I’m able to see and understand God’s order and this documentary about the Amish showed another way of modest and good way of God, I liked the part of “having less but having more” – I mean, having less electronic and especially the internet including smartphones and other distraction but instead of having all these distractions you’ll have so much more life value.
I experienced this one last year where I broke my iPhone while I was on my way to the family holiday and finally when it broke I felt relieved being away from the force to have this phone in hand to check everything possible, like messages, calls, news, the weather, social media etc.the list continues…
I enjoyed these 3 weeks, full of family and no smartphone, sure reality returned back the week I’ve been home again – but this experience and some more thinking about Amish lifestyle led me to the point where I am currently.
I’m not saying to leave out everything I’m used to be and start a life in the wild or as an Amish or hutterer but to value everything we have that we already forgot to be grateful for, like for example electricity, running water and of course grocery stores etc. I guess it is really a complete different life, going back to live like 150 years ago.

What is my conclusion or decision after finish watching the documentary of the Amish lifestyle? Well I can’t change within a short time period, but I can start. Living a life like the Amish here where my family and I live is a bit more complicated, starting with the clothes and the community, if your church community and all of your siblings in Christ are living approximately 30-50km away from you, it is difficult to reach your siblings without a car – and I haven’t seen many riding a horse, well I was thinking about riding the bike instead of buying a horse.

I like the simple and modest life of the Amish, their love to the father and their freedom of loving their life as God has given it to them, so do I. I love the life and the chances God has given me, the situations and possibilities I experienced and the people I’ve met, still I’m looking forward to my simple life.
I will keep you updated!

Be blessed!

Inviting Jesus

It is Good Friday, and while I was thinking about how to leave out the bunny and focus on the Lamb – Jesus I was and am confronted with commercial, family traditions and unbelieving friends having this look and even the question of you’re really serious!

It is one thing to leave out the easter tradition made out of human, while you are single but for me, as a mother it is another thing to explain and educate the kids why everyone is celebrating the easter bunny instead of remembering Jesus and his precious gift he gave us. Years ago I was looking forward celebrating those traditions like easter with painted eggs, Christmas and all the lamps and decorations, while the last ones I was thinking how to combine the truth and history with the decoration – for this time I started to read the story where Jesus took the last supper with his disciples and was then betrayed and left, while the kids where drawing some pictures. Then I prepared some eggs and some boiled ones to be painted as well. I can tell, it is easy to explain to my family, but it is something different to shut out the world, and their questioning views. I’m still on my way finding peace in how to simply explain to friends, family and others outside why we are not celebrating an Easter bunny or a fat man named Santa.

As the weather is so spring-like nice today, I just took the kids out on a bicycle tour to several playgrounds.
After this we went back home and prepared some meal to finally have our time cuddling on the couch (I really love this time!) the movie we are going to watch is “Narnia” (first part).

Coming back to the topic – inviting Jesus. For me it is important to invite him to everything, every situation in my life, he is my everything and everything in my life is his. So while I enjoy my time with the family he is with us always, I can talk to him, ask him for directions and he is there for me leading and directing me throughout my day. Sometimes I see my children pray to God, asking him daily things and I just see and immediately know this is the right way and as it is said in the bible I try to become more like my children when praying/talking to my Heavenly Father!

Be blessed!

Covering the hair/head

Another post about why I cover my hair for Jesus. Yesterday I talked to my Muslim friend, who definitely wants to start covering one day. We were talking about her workplace and one of her office colleague, who frequently ask her why she’s fasting, why there are women covering up, being oppressed and not living in freedom.
This colleague is privately related to some magic stones, some magic silver waters and other witch-related things. For me, there is nothing against positive and healthy ways of living, like clean eating, using herbs, veggies and so on, but starting with “Globules” (homeopathic globules) or some magic sprays, drinks or tincture I try to keep far away as this witch craft is against God’s will.

„“Then I will approach you for judgment; and I will be quick to witness against sorcerers, adulterers and perjurers; against those who take advantage of wage-earners, widows and orphans; against those who rob the foreigner of his rights and don’t fear me,” says ADONAI -Tzva’ot.“

‭‭Mal’akhi (Mal)‬ ‭3:5‬ ‭CJB‬

Talking to my friend really showed me again, what the evil tries to do with the people that seek Gods presence. I told her, that because she believes in God, she offends many who worship the evil.

Coming back to the topic, headcover – I told her, that when she feels to cover her head, she will do it. I told her, what I experience even now, it’s not only the looks, or questions – last time I even had to answer the sentence “your hair will fall and then you’re bald” – well, I already talked to my hair dresser and with plenty research I could give the answer, that hair loss is a genetic problem not a hair covering one. And besides, I’m not covering 24/7, I mean I’m not sleeping with my head covered.

As a Christian I told my friend to keep talking to God in prayer and to trust him, that he will lead her. I guess it’s difficult for her, as she has to face the people during her working hours, while I am talking to everyone who’s talking to me, in my son’s martial arts class, while I meet family and friends and on my other meeting points.
Just last weekend I’ve been on a kids birthday party with 5 other parents, talking about faith, believe and how to teach their children the Love of God. At first sight they had some question marks on their faces, because I was covering my hair and wearing a cross necklace. As I written before it is uncommon and unusual for christian women to cover like I do, to fully cover their hair, or to wear a hijab, some wear a cover like this one –

I enjoy the conversations to new people, as well as the conversation to my Muslim friends.
Years ago I felt some anger or other feeling while talking to other people about God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, as it always felt like I have to prove or win a contest. Today it is different, because I don’t need to prove anything to anyone – I know that God loves me, so he sent his son to bring me back home.
I know my mission is to introduce others to Jesus, but the point is, I don’t need to force anyone to see clearly, I don’t need to force my view upon someone else’s mind – because Jesus is Love, and he teaches to love each other.
This is why I try to avoid situations with discussions who may lead to non-sense quarrel.

Dear readers I wish you a blessed day and nice conversations wherever you are. Shalom

New Life

It’s March and as it is said that with March the spring begins, new life is created in nature as well as with us human.

Right now I’m in the hospital welcoming a newborn baby to this world.
Again it is fascinating and always a blessed wonder to see what God has created in us. Thinking about situations in the past with befriended couples trying to receive a baby, to become pregnant using all human medicine and hospitals can offer to help with, spending 2 years or more of their time and life and not to forget the expenses you are willing to pay, because your biggest wish is to become pregnant to your own baby.
With this befriended couple, which tried for several years using the best human medicine and help that they could get, still they didn’t received what they wished for. When they decided to finally put a break on this tiring journey and went for holidays, finally they became pregnant and all without any medication or hormones or other help.
God is great, if God wants you to become pregnant he will give you a baby even if it is impossible for the human medicine, even if it seems to be impossible because of age or other circumstances.

Today the daily bible verse is
Hebrew 11:6

„And without trusting, it is impossible to be well pleasing to God, because whoever approaches him must trust that he does exist and that he becomes a Rewarder to those who seek him out.“
‭‭Messianic Jews (Heb)‬ ‭11:6‬ ‭CJB‬‬

People tend to forget how many miracles happen in their life’s and if they recognize it’s something unspecified or some high power; even for some Christians they don’t remember God, who truly never forgets his children.
Sometimes, when I watch these sort of scenes from outside I have this picture inside my head =
A mother and/or father loves their child with all their heart. You would never wish anything bad, or would like to see your child being hurt or injured.
As a loving parent you try to be a good parent providing everything your child needs, food, health and love to fill their heart and your relationship between each other. And even if you are not around your child you still think about everything and wish the best and if needed you will be there for your child, no matter what.

I experience exactly this with my heavenly father. Sure my family on this earth is there for me too, loving me, caring, but there is no one like my heavenly father, always waiting there for me, with open arms, wanting to keep away everything and everyone who will do me harm.
You may ask “why are bad things happen then?” if you are a parent, I can ask a question as well “did your child ever fell? Hurt his/her knee or arm or any part of its body?” in this situation, what did you do to prevent all these bad things to happen to your precious child? And in general you just have one at the same age (sometimes twins, sometimes triplets…) why didn’t you take more care? Please don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to say a parent who’s not guarding their child 24/7 every single second in life is a bad one, as a mother of beautiful blessed children I can tell, that sometimes it’s not possible to prevent things to happen – but something good will come out – in German we call it “Lern-Effekt” guess it’s quite similar in English as an learning-process. So if my child is running and not really taking care where he’s running and how fast, he might fall down. I already tried to warn him, telling him to not run too fast and always keep looking where he’s running to. Still there are situations where kids fall – and then? As a mother I run to my child, carry him, caring about him and trying to ease the pain with my love.
So is our heavenly father – but he is much more! Because our heavenly father IS Love – he is even more caring about us, he wants us to be healthy, active, full of joy and full of love, because he is Love.
And he is there for us when we fall, the point is, because we can’t see him face to face (read the story of Adam and Eve) it is sort of difficult for many to ask him for help. To reach out our hands to him, when we’ve been the wrong road for some time, when we took the wrong exit or when we need his guidance.
It was the same with me in my past, I was rather running to friends, calling them and asked their opinion or even wanted a direction where to go, instead of talking to my heavenly father first.
It’s like your child tries to find its way out to a place where he belongs and he’s not asking you, instead he’s asking another baby with no clue at all.
Again, I’m not telling that we are all baby’s not knowing anything – but for me, the fact is – God knows everything, he knows me better than anyone, because he knows the real me, every hidden spot inside me and sometimes I can tell he knows me better than I do myself.

Lately, when I’m thinking about my sick cousin (she got cancer), I got sad, and I ask myself why people don’t want to try something so simple, yet so powerful. It’s not expensive, it’s nothing complicated or need a higher education, studies or else, it is just a willing heart to let Jesus enter and receive the full Love of our heavenly Abba. May it take 10 minutes if you do confess yourself to Jesus at home, honestly it’s nothing if you compare it to all the unnecessary stuff you do every day, is it?
And I will be honest with you, the part of family telling to be christian (but plainly on paper) seems to be even more complicated to try accepting and letting Jesus enter their heart, as if it would mean they’ll leave everything, or it means extra hard work or something they never can achieve, while for real everything is already done, Jesus died for you – because of Love.

Yesterday I talked to one of my aunt and while she used to be pushed mentally into a corner, placed to be not well educated, slow minded and well some other negative thinking, I always wished for her to be free with and in Jesus Christ. I had a good talk to her and started to introduce her to Jesus, when she started to tell me, that she wants to read God’s word, but it seems difficult for her because of this and that. I gave her solutions, she can download the bible app and can even listen to it, she doesn’t have to read it herself. She was so happy about this information and told me, that she will download it asap. This is just a small step to bring someone back home to the front door. She will knock by herself and because our loving father will always open the door for a seeking heart of his child, she will receive his never ending love, and because I’m his daughter and I know his truth I will support her with every question and challenges.

Sometimes we think Life is complicated, complex and difficult, while in fact together with God, who creates everything it is simple, it is good and holy.

Shalom

Difficulties

The Difficulties I experienced and still experience wearing a headcover – no matter if it’s my Tichel or a Hijab or Veil is still in the air.

Even posting pictures on Instagram (@Sarah_Jesus_Headcover) creates questions, questionmarks inside some heads and well sometimes misunderstanding. But I really appreciate all my followers and followers-to-be who simply write a message or post a comment below and ask whatever is on their mind.
Sometimes it’s even easier to talk to others on these online platforms as in real life.
Why is that? Well let me explain, in real daily life, walking with a tichel or any kind of headcover as a Christian creates these questionmarks on people’s face. I can’t even tell why, but I experienced that sometimes people want to ask, and sometimes they don’t. If they don’t, they’d like to keep their own explanation, even if they are totally “wrong” or “misled”. While on others it’s like this disgusting look, because I stopped wearing my tichel the second half of 2017 and started again in 2018. And it feels like a facial expression telling me “come on, you’ve already had this period and let’s call it phase of your life, than finally you stopped and got back to normal and now again? Why’s that, I hoped and wished that you’ve passed it now and forever”… this is a lot, for just an expression – but well, I don’t know why, but too often it’s that I’m right about such things. It’s like a “feeling” or something like this.

Last time I had a good talk to my sister, while I don’t know if she understood what I tried to explain to her or not, because as I know myself years ago I was similar, thinking “why should God want us to cover our hair? He created us like this” yes, totally right, it has nothing to do with our naturally appearance but more about obedience for our heavenly father Adonai. Our culture, the media and well social acceptance created a point of view in my sight that kept telling me to take my right as a woman wearing what I want, if I want to be sexy I wear even less clothes, because I can. Well, yes because I can, doesn’t mean it’s the right way.

“Submit as people who are free, but not letting your freedom serve as an excuse for evil; rather, submit as God’s slaves. Be respectful to all — keep loving the brotherhood, fearing God and honoring the emperor.”
1 Pe 2:16‭-‬17 CJB

The most experience while wearing my tichel is a surprised facial expression and sometimes question about my believe, if I converted, if I’m Muslim, if I changed something important in my life – and if so what exactly?! Some asked, if I cover because of sickness, if I lost my hair and cover because of cancer or leukemia.
And still, on Instagram I’m asked if I’m Muslim even I’m posting christian and biblical quotes – I’m not offended or anything at all, it’s always a pleasure to get in touch and in good talk to people interested in “why I cover”. When I started last year it was a challenge for myself, but also a way to let others know and inform why others cover and the most important thing to stop a limited mind thinking about headcover is for muslimas only.
It is still a way to go and not as easy as it could be, because the first impression is still something different. But as long as people ask and show interest, there is hope to spread truth.

When I met Jesus and when he took place in my heart, I wanted to know him more, become more like him, like my heavenly father sees me, he has created me as a whole, perfect person and I want to show this, and thank him by gifting him my whole life and everything I am and everything I do.

I can pray in my home, in my room; same as praying in my church community – but I also pray and talk to God while I’m outside, walking in the park or forest.
Last year I read a bit of “stop being a people-pleaser” by Joyce Meyer and this is what I still try to practice in full. Sometimes it is easy, sometimes it is a bit more difficult.
Especially right now in the cold winter season, I’m wearing normal hats/beanies besides my tichel headcovering.

Well, well.. I will keep you updated with my headcover post and the year 2018!

Be blessed!

Not enough hours

I was thinking about this next blog post.
The day is already done, and I’m preparing for bed, as I need some rest – at least 7 hours to keep going.
Sometimes I think I’ve too many schedules and plans a day, but then again it makes me feel whole.

So what is it, that I do? Besides writing as a new blogger, I crochet baby blankets, I read different books about faith, believe, God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, I do bible studies, I’m still de cluttering my everything, still planing and working on being more and more minimalist, I want to create my own war binder/bullet journal/travellers journal, I enjoy Hillsong, I spend time with my family and I practice writing. It’s actually not that much, while I’m counting them here, while during the day it’s time consuming. So I can’t do everything everyday, I need to put them into a schedule, this is really difficult, as I want to have enough free-time for my family and kids.

I try to combine different things to save time, like crocheting while listening to the bible app or my latest audiobook “Eve” by Paul William Young.
Like right now I’m listening to my daily bible plan while writing this post. It’s training my brain to work and listen to God’s Word.

While it is still unorganized in my daily life I know where I have to put my faith and trust, you know I tried to arrange and plan everything myself, but never involved my heavenly father.
I have to remind myself every day, to put God first in every situation, I want to walk with him everywhere he wants me to be. And this is, why I know that he will help me, arrange my daily routine and schedule; he will show me and let me know, what might be not necessary and what is important for him, so I can check and change to start focusing on these things.

When I started my healthy eating and cleaning-household plan I realized, what God wants in my life. He doesn’t want to restrict my life with rules, but with this plans I can see, that he wants the good for me, my body and my life. Same with my minimalism challenge and my new plank-challenge (I just started 4 days ago). Living with less let me see and value things I own more, it’s reducing waste and well who knows, maybe I can reach a no-waste-Sarah this year?! Guess I will start crocheting some tote-bags. And I started a 30-day plank challenge, because I want to do something for my body with a bit of exercise. I do some extra exercise for my back as well.

Guess plans and challenges are the perfect thing for me. It’s not for everyone, but yes I can tell you, it’s 100% right for me.

Blessings to you!