Minimize

Since some months now I’m thinking about my families life and our living situation. My family and I are living in a 2 bedroom unit, with a big living room, a big kitchen and 2 bathroom. This is a standard unit for a family like mine, but as the internet is full of either postings about more and more material and big homes, there are also those posts about minimalism, about van life and the freedom of owning less but living more.

This thought comes and goes and falls with my financial possibilities right now, but I really love the imagination about down-sizing, at least for some weekend or holiday. So what exactly? I love all those pictures and blog posts about the #VanLife and especially families with kids and their life and adventure on the road.

Why does this come to my mind? Well I love to travel, and I know my family does too. Sure we like to travel by plane, but this one is expensive and I think driving around let you see so much beautiful that you might lose on the way.
Last summer we just visited The Netherlands by car and really enjoyed it! I love the flexibility and the freedom you experience while going by car – if the car is driving. My car is old and it is an adventure to use it and see if you reach your destination. I’m thinking about how to reach my new goal on this personal wish to buy a van (converted or not) to use it as a great way to travel with the whole family and not missing anything from home.
I also checked on those cute little tiny homes, well these are also on my wish list. Guess I need to find the needed financial credits to purchase both or at least one of them on my wish list.

Advertisements

Goodbye 2018

There are still 2 more days to come in 2018 before we start counting down the numbers to the next year. With this I just started thinking about the year 2018 today, what I’ve planned and what I actually did and what experience I collected and all the little extra’s.

Sure there are always plenty of ideas and thoughts you have at the end of a year and you really want to change or do something in the new upcoming year. Right now, I don’t really have plans for 2019, how can I say, I just gave it all to the highest, my heavenly Father Adonai.

I just checked my old calendar/planer 2017 what I wrote down for 2018 and have to say, I nearly did it all. What was on the list?

  • Bible reading plan
  • Crochet (for selling)
  • Learning new languages
  • Declutter
  • Household plan
  • Clean eating plan

I completed several bible reading plans, and I’m thankful for the app on my smartphone to make things really easy and handy.
Where I can choose the topic and receive the perfect bible quote, to let it sink in and think about it, where I can see it in my current situation and life circumstance.

The crocheting projects are rolling, mainly for personal use and as baby gifts for family and friends, this year I sold one toddler hat/beanie and I hope to continue doing so. The clean eating and household plan is still ongoing, yeah I guess this one is a life-time plan. Especially my clean eating, I did this up-great-life thing, it was good, it was healthy and delicious, but somehow I ended up eating even more, like my mind said “why to leave out all the delicious food”? So, after I lost several kg I gained even more back on…. this was and still is kind of frustrating, but somehow I started to take a close look and I figured out about what I need to change and why. This is one of my new challenges 2019.
About the declutter plan, just this month I started and finally finished the kitchen!! As a mother with small kids it’s really a challenge, I found myself cleaning, cleaning, cleaning from one room to the other and somehow it seemed that I will never finish, as it was always a new chaos after I finished one room.

About my language plan, I re-started my duolingo app and first I refreshed my Russian and also my Hebrew learning, I also try to watch enough videos on youtube to help it reaching good language skills – but I have to admit, that it’s a tough process, to keep up. Besides Russian and Hebrew I now and then like to learn some arabic words, while it’s really difficult to keep up with 3 languages – sometimes I wish I could just simply learn a language overnight. Ha, guess this is a dream many (who loves languages) have.

As I read and watched many others creating and having their bullet journals I intended to start my own, well until now I still haven’t, I just put my personal calendar into some sort of it, I love to write down every now and then, and in all the blank sites I practice my lettering, or I painted something or combined both. This is something I loved back in my past and still love today, so everytime I find some free time, where I don’t read, and don’t crochet or knit I try to combine bible study and art.
These are the plans I made 2017 for this year, I wish I could travel more with the kids, doing some weekend trips beside the holidays. Living more with less, this is still a plan I’m going for until I’ll reach it. What does it mean for me? Less materials and more life, more time with the family and less on social media. I know I can reach it with God, I only have to rely and trust his plan and I know his plan for me is the best. 

During this year I realised that I have too many hobbies and I need to organise it better, or select out some of them.
Combining family, personal life, free-time and so on. 

So with this I’m wishing you a good and blessed time in 2018 and a wonderful step into 2019. Be blessed!

Cold season

Finally it is becoming the cold season, it is cold outtside and windy and rainy from time to time. For me and the kids it is a beautiful time, spending outside if we want to, enjoying the fresh and clear air, walking and watching the nature change and just thanking God for everything we have.

Yesterday night I was thinking about one homeless man, whom I saw the other day. I was thinking about his condition, his life situation and about what I can do for him during this cold season.

I looked up at the internet about what they might need.

Money? Food? Clothes? Blankets? A tent?

So I thought about a sleeping back and took it to him today. I asked him about his needs, what he would like to have, e.g. food or more blankets/clothes.

His answer was first:

“Is this sleeping back new?”

Honestly, I was a bit surprised, but tried not to show it, I told him that’s brand new, even all the signs on it. Somehow I felt, he might not want it.

When I asked about food if I should buy him breakfast or some fruits, he simply said, he just wants and needs money.

Then he said something that made me think

“I need money, a lot. If possible 1-2 Mio €”

Sure could be jokingly, but then I also thought about his thinking. There are some homeless by bad circumstances, some because of addiction and some by choice. Some doesn’t want to live under the German system of tax and regulations. Somehow it seems that this homeless today is the one living outside by choice.

Thinking about homeless and all this topic it is difficult to decide whether I should help more or less. I don’t want them to thank me or something else, while I was thinking about how to help (besides money) I really thought I might help a little. The scene today instead showed me that it is best to ask, what they need, to donate after that.

My motivation was to help the homeless in this time, as it is turning really cold outside and they keep staying outside the whole time. Honestly I don’t want to just give money, as for most of them (as they say themselves) they need money to buy drugs and alcohol. I don’t want to be part or a helper for providing drugs or alcohol – when I want to help with what they really need like food or clothes or sleeping utensils.

Guess it’s a difficult topic, while it can be so easy.

Wishing you a blessed week and a peaceful time with Jesus Christ. Shalom

Difficulties

The Difficulties I experienced and still experience wearing a headcover – no matter if it’s my Tichel or a Hijab or Veil is still in the air.

Even posting pictures on Instagram (@Sarah_Jesus_Headcover) creates questions, questionmarks inside some heads and well sometimes misunderstanding. But I really appreciate all my followers and followers-to-be who simply write a message or post a comment below and ask whatever is on their mind.
Sometimes it’s even easier to talk to others on these online platforms as in real life.
Why is that? Well let me explain, in real daily life, walking with a tichel or any kind of headcover as a Christian creates these questionmarks on people’s face. I can’t even tell why, but I experienced that sometimes people want to ask, and sometimes they don’t. If they don’t, they’d like to keep their own explanation, even if they are totally “wrong” or “misled”. While on others it’s like this disgusting look, because I stopped wearing my tichel the second half of 2017 and started again in 2018. And it feels like a facial expression telling me “come on, you’ve already had this period and let’s call it phase of your life, than finally you stopped and got back to normal and now again? Why’s that, I hoped and wished that you’ve passed it now and forever”… this is a lot, for just an expression – but well, I don’t know why, but too often it’s that I’m right about such things. It’s like a “feeling” or something like this.

Last time I had a good talk to my sister, while I don’t know if she understood what I tried to explain to her or not, because as I know myself years ago I was similar, thinking “why should God want us to cover our hair? He created us like this” yes, totally right, it has nothing to do with our naturally appearance but more about obedience for our heavenly father Adonai. Our culture, the media and well social acceptance created a point of view in my sight that kept telling me to take my right as a woman wearing what I want, if I want to be sexy I wear even less clothes, because I can. Well, yes because I can, doesn’t mean it’s the right way.

“Submit as people who are free, but not letting your freedom serve as an excuse for evil; rather, submit as God’s slaves. Be respectful to all — keep loving the brotherhood, fearing God and honoring the emperor.”
1 Pe 2:16‭-‬17 CJB

The most experience while wearing my tichel is a surprised facial expression and sometimes question about my believe, if I converted, if I’m Muslim, if I changed something important in my life – and if so what exactly?! Some asked, if I cover because of sickness, if I lost my hair and cover because of cancer or leukemia.
And still, on Instagram I’m asked if I’m Muslim even I’m posting christian and biblical quotes – I’m not offended or anything at all, it’s always a pleasure to get in touch and in good talk to people interested in “why I cover”. When I started last year it was a challenge for myself, but also a way to let others know and inform why others cover and the most important thing to stop a limited mind thinking about headcover is for muslimas only.
It is still a way to go and not as easy as it could be, because the first impression is still something different. But as long as people ask and show interest, there is hope to spread truth.

When I met Jesus and when he took place in my heart, I wanted to know him more, become more like him, like my heavenly father sees me, he has created me as a whole, perfect person and I want to show this, and thank him by gifting him my whole life and everything I am and everything I do.

I can pray in my home, in my room; same as praying in my church community – but I also pray and talk to God while I’m outside, walking in the park or forest.
Last year I read a bit of “stop being a people-pleaser” by Joyce Meyer and this is what I still try to practice in full. Sometimes it is easy, sometimes it is a bit more difficult.
Especially right now in the cold winter season, I’m wearing normal hats/beanies besides my tichel headcovering.

Well, well.. I will keep you updated with my headcover post and the year 2018!

Be blessed!

Small things

It’s Valentines day, the weather is so beautiful, while its still really cold outside, the sun is shining.
The days become longer again and so you feel the energy returning too.

While I had some plans ongoing the last couple of weeks and months today is a day with just a cleaning/household plan.
After I finished “the purpose-driven life” I thought about starting another reading plan but guess I need a break of a couple of days maybe.

I finished some beautiful blankets and also gifted 3 of them to new mama’s and their baby’s. And I’m still creating new ones for sale.

I’m still planing on having my own war binder/blog binder but haven’t found the perfect leather outlet for my inlays.
Found so many beautiful videos on youtube about it!

Ha, and the de-cluttering session is not finished yet, last time I just sorted out everything in my closet. And felt relieved already, so yesterday I tried to sort out everything unnecessary and put it in boxes =
Selling, donating and to throw away.

Honestly, first I thought it’s a month challenge – now I know it’s a lifetime challenge… especially with kids, maybe it’s easier as a single person, but maybe not… until I’m done – I continue crocheting blankets, blankets, blankets… haha…

Hum, this is it for today, sure there is more upcoming.
Be blessed

Christian Head-Covering Tag

It is time to start this blog post, to let you know some more facts and to let you know more about my ways wearing a headcover as a Jesus following christian.

A dear blog follower introduced me to this christian head covering tag and I think it is really a good idea to write down some facts about me and my story on wearing a headcover a jewish tichel.

• How old are you?
I’m 33 years old.

• For how long are you covering?
I started covering last year, 2017 in spring, after I donated my hair.

• How do you cover?
I cover all of my hair; after I tried to cover parts of my hair, like some leaving a fringe, but with my head and hair it didn’t work.
After I started covering my head I started thinking and wearing more modest clothes. I cover my legs and I sorted out tops, shirts and sweater showing too much of chest and chestbones.

• Why do you cover?
I’m born into a protestant christian family, no one is wearing a headcover, whether in church, nor outside.
As a half Indonesian with many visits in this beautiful country I got in contact with hijab wearing women, as Indonesia is the biggest country with Muslim people, 88% of the Indonesians are Muslim (about 191 Mio.people).

Some years ago I started to question myself why some women cover, and the first impression and thought was because of a rule, or a husband, a tradition or a country who tells women to do so. I did some research about the different ways and styles of headcover and their different expression and intention, I began to pray and asked God about my way, my purpose and what I still need to know about headcovering.

I read 1 Cor 11
But I want you to understand that the head of every man is the Messiah, and the head of a wife is her husband, and the head of the Messiah is God. Every man who prays or prophesies wearing something down over his head brings shame to his head, but every woman who prays or prophesies with her head unveiled brings shame to her head — there is no difference between her and a woman who has had her head shaved. For if a woman is not veiled, let her also have her hair cut short; but if it is shameful for a woman to wear her hair cut short or to have her head shaved, then let her be veiled.
1 Co 11:3‭-‬6 CJB

And I started to re-think about the way the western woman is clothing herself and why we think it is a freedom and gift to wear less clothes as a woman. I took a deeper look at the social advertisement, the media and the education.
It is said that women shouldn’t be bound to her wearing, her clothes and her appearance – I think this is correct, but when you start changing the point of view into a neutral point, where you start seeing yourself as a perfect creation God has made, it is a fast way to a more modest way of clothing and behavior.
For me it got clearer every day, as my mind knew, I don’t have to show more flesh and body parts of myself to the world just to be accepted, to be recognized, to be someone.
I just want to be me, the “me” God has created in my mother’s womb 33 years ago.
As a sign of honor and reverence I started covering my hair during prayer at home, which quickly extended, as I questioned myself, what I should do outside, while I’m at the mall, or grocery or at the zoo or elsewhere when I am praying unplanned.
This is how and why I started covering in the first place.

• Do you cover for the same reason now and in the beginning?
The reason I covered in the beginning is still the same now, while today I have to answer even more questions about covering than before. I moved 6 months ago and while moving I didn’t cover my head and now I started again.

•In front of whom do you stay covered? Are there exceptions (family gatherings, working place..)?
At the moment I cover my head in church and on some activities of the kids. I don’t wear my headcover at home or while family gatherings, usually I take off my headcover while visiting female friends and wrap my “tichel” back on when going home.

• What was the reaction of your husband? Of other family members? Of persons you meet?
The reactions were differently, my sisters reacted distant, so did my mother, while my father knows that biblically and in old traditionally christian communities it is nothing new or uncommon to see head covered women in church.
The other family members didn’t asked much, I don’t know if this was because of no interest or fear to ask an embarrassing question.
When I first cover, I met many people outside guessing I’m Arab and Muslim, while I think my appearance is clearly Asian, I could friendly tell that I’m German, while half Asian and no, I’m not a muslima but Jesus following Christian.
For some the next question was, why I cover then, if it is normal for a Christian or not and as soon as we got in a conversation it was a positive exchange of this topic “head cover”.

• How did covering change your life? (prayer, self-esteem, testifying…)
The cover was a shield, like a helmet and a crown. I decided to cover for God, not because my husband has told me, or my father or my church community, but because my heart told me to listen to my heavenly father and obey his rules, and not to look to other people’s opinions, or
conviction.

• your denomination?
I am following Jesus Christ, the living Word of God, ADONAI my heavenly father and his Ruach HaKodesh – Holy Spirit – christian.

I thank you for reading my new blogpost, please leave a comment below. Be blessed! Shalom

It’s a cold friday

It’s freezing outside, everything is sleeping under an icy blanket of frost.
And I start thinking on how to cloth myself to go outside, walking the dog and enjoying some nice walks through parks and the forest.

First of all I need a big, cozy and of course warm scarf to keep my throat and neck away from the icy wind. Then I put on some selfmade crocheted gloves the fingerless ones. They are really nice, keeping your hands warm (well still the fingers are freezing, but you can use the phone if needed outside) and what about my head? Of course some kind of headcover, a beanie, knitted, crocheted or bought one or my Tichel with thicker scarf to keep my head warm and the headache away.

With all its beauty and the fresh air I’m thanking the Lord that he has blessed me with good health, enough clothes and a warm home – while others don’t, depending on financial circumstances, or after coming as a refugee or homeless.
To be honest, the homeless in Germany sometimes chose to stay outside instead of staying at a save and warm place.
Years ago I questioned myself why there are homeless in Germany, while we have a good working system leaving no one on the street if not wanted.
Even I heard that someone wanted to give a homeless food while instead he wanted money and rejected taking the food because he wanted to buy something strong to drink to keep warm and stay outside.
And even if someone wants to stay outside, being not in the system at all there are some possibilities to sleep in a warm place at least.
There are different possibilities, they have new buildings especially for women, they have busses for homeless to sleep in and other places. I think, it is important to let homeless people know, that there is a possibility to stay warm, at least at night, where it’s freezing and reaching temperatures below 0 degree and more.

Nowadays it is easier to help refugees, especially with kids clothes, blankets or other things needed. It is a simple step to check on communities, the church, the citizen office and/or at the mayor.

While I declutter my closet (again this year 2018) I checked on all clothes still usable and clean to donate, because honestly even I, owning not as much as others, have more than enough.
I can tell, I’m so blessed because of my church family, my family, my friends that I have more than enough and I’m so happy to help others.
After I watched “the minimalist” on Netflix the other day I realized that I can donate even more clothes out of my closet. I liked the part where they showed women trying plan 333 – where you chose out 33 items, clothes, tops, pants, pullover, sweater, skirt, jewlery etc. And use them for 3 months. Sure first you check if everything fits and is easily to be combined with each other and the most important thing – it’s the cloth you really love and usually wear.

I realized that this thinking is right, as I can see with my kids, who already chose what to wear them self. They love some of their clothes and it’s somehow easy to sort out.

With that I donated some clothes and my closet is still not empty at all. I’m happy I declutter but I will continue in 3 months, after I’ve finished the other rooms. It’s like going in circles but after sorting out I also try and watch me buying carefully and thoughtfully.

Also after having this idea of living a minimalists life I loved the idea of a van with possibility to live in. Still a dream but who knows, one day I’m ready for this step.

Be blessed!