Summer holidays

Oh I can’t believe it’s this time of the year, the school holidays just started and with this beautiful and great weather it is just a great beginning!

We’ve been meeting friends already and are enjoying our time on the couch now.

I’ve decided to leave the holidays as they are, not much planning or schedules just living and enjoying our time with the family and if we decide to travel we will do, something spontaneous – without stress.

I’m still on my way and I’m learning to trust the Lord in everything I do and everything I’m looking for in the future I’ll put my prayer in it first. Sometimes I have to remind myself to pray first, usually I run into situations and after I’m in already I start to pray. I really want to make it my life to pray and talk to God first in any situation and circumstance before I walk.

Starting the day like this and keeping God first in all gives me a calm and wonderful feeling, I’m less stressed, less worried and I know my father is watching me and keeping me safe.

God bless you all

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Wednesday good night story

This will be just a short entry about my today’s good night story for the kids.

Some hours ago I was listening to Joseph Prince book “live the Let-Go Life” and I’m close to the finish, when Joseph is talking about children, kids and their education, their problems and how to start letting go and let God. Joseph said, that a good routine is always good and you can start telling your children about God, who he is, what we are through Jesus Christ, what Jesus did and why. Start introduce your child to him, and this is what I made and the exciting fact is – my eldest asked me something about God and the people, so it was easy for me to catch up and answer his question and add one or two more facts about God, his character, about Jesus and his never ending Love for us.
The kids fell asleep and I had a calm heart, because I felt and knew that God gave this question so that I could start this new way of “good night story” it’s just changing from those bedtimestories about Princess and Prince or Knights to the beautiful Love Story of God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.
I really enjoyed it myself today, because I let myself into his arms and his guidance of where this telling would leave and what I would tell my kids actually. And you know what? As soon as I stopped directing myself, it was so easy and every word and every sentence came out just by itself and gave my kids the peace and rest they need.
Now they are fast asleep and so will I – after turning on another 15 min of Joseph Prince “live the Let-Go Life”.

Have a blessed night to you all!

Sunshine

The temperature is growing high again and it is such a beautiful time spending with the family outside sitting under the trees and cooling down at the small pool. After we came home the other day from our small trip to Netherlands I recalled some of the situations that caught my attention and my new character in Christ.What does it mean “new character in Christ”? For me it means a lot, because with Jesus I become more calm, more relaxed and more quiet. Years ago, when I didn’t walk with Jesus, it was easy to stress out and get into discussions and arguments. Like the other day I had to wait for over 4 hours to register my car at the office (usually it should be done in about 30min). And well normally I would’ve become loud in the waiting area, telling the staff to stop treating all those people this way and start working on their chair. This time I didn’t, although it really started to grow inside me I took several breathing breaks to keep myself calm, even when I saw some people using money to illegally squeeze in a spot way before I did. I heard that this is common now, corruption in offices where people think and use money to avoid long waiting lines and well they get along with this – years ago I stood up, and spoke and nearly got beaten by a grown up man because I told him to line up like every one else is doing. Today I know that I don’t have to fight this flesh fight, because everyone will get what they planted and so will they. Yes it got my attention and made me angry but I let go and this made me calm.But back to the situation with my family back in the Netherlands, I started to realise that we start to be unhappy soon when we have too many plans or visions of what we want – too many expectations can Stress your day and your life. Even the kids seemed to be unhappy because they wanted more and more as they thought that only being occupied is real happiness. During this time I started to think about the best vacation for my family – and it is more “back to the past” and less “24 hour fun”. I mean, last time we’ve been at a holiday parc where the kids could swim everyday, where they had horses and many playgrounds outside and indoors. Still it wasn’t enough. So the kids and me, we were kind of exhausted running after every kind of experience that we lost the beauty of holiday itself. I told myself, that the next holiday will be even more simple, nothing at all except the beach. So this will be all we will be doing, wake up, breakfast, preparing the bag with snacks and staying at the beach for the day until the day is over. Simple and no stress at all please. We need to find peace and joy in this beautiful things God gave us and we need to start being thankful and grateful for all these things, and stop racing for more and more, I realised that my kids copy my way of how I live my life, of how I chose and do holiday. We as parents have the responsibility to teach our kids and we also have the gift to show and teach them everything they need to know to have a happy love filled live. Showing them that happiness isn’t connected to materials is a step to show them what live is about.Be blessed!

Living with less

Some weeks ago my sister in Christ showed me a documentary about American Amish, because I was and am thinking about a Christian modest and simple lifestyle.
While I was watching the 6 series on Youtube I was talking to God, reading his Bible and thinking about how to start changing my own life and lifestyle.

Last year I already started to declutter and to think about what to sort out for good, I did every room after another, and it is a circle returning after months. So, I started with the kids room, the bedroom – all the closets and then the livingroom and kitchen, when I returned doing everything all over again, when my family and I moved last year, and still there is so much stuff – I told my sister it’s like a black hole and we are not getting less it seems that we keep all the stuff while I’m throwing more things out.
So what is it again that’s too much? When I take a look at my kids rooms I find too many toys and games (even I sorted out more than the half of it) and again I’m decluttering their rooms.

Last time I donated a lot of kitchen stuff like plates, cutlery, bowls and cups.
And still it seems like I have no room for my left over plates and pans, I try to minimize everything to a minimal point, just enough for the family.
So what got my attention while watching the documentary?
There were several points, starting with finding my position and purpose as a mother and housewife, how to find a new point of view of my life, my person and my position at home. In my past, especially during school and study time I was thinking I’m independent and have to be well educated and on the same position as men; I don’t say education is bad or there is no need in education for girls/women – in fact I still think it is good and necessary to give both, men and women the chance and availability to study.
I’m just talking about my own story and history – as I’m grown up in a family with 2 sisters and my parents wished that we should all finish our High School graduation – so we did, and I enrolled university to study, while to be honest I didn’t know what to study. I took a course called “Asian science” and started learning to speak the Malaysian/indonesian language and some history, cultural and religious information.
After 2 years study I finally stopped and started my training at a big firm as an office clerk, and worked there for about 3 years.

Looking back at these times I can tell it was good, maybe also necessary, but also a journey of my own, searching for my own place, my own self.
Why? Today I know that my heart wished for something else than high quality education, since I was 16 and in High School I was planing to be a wife, a mother and first place a daughter of the highest. While my life turned out to be a journey with different stops and dead end roads; yes I am happy and thankful to be able to go to school and to study at university and choose my own job, so I can become independent – but do I need it? God has the right partner for me as well as for you, I knew that before, when I was at school, but still there need to be a kind of emergency plan or else.
When I look around my self, my family and friends, I see the uncertainty on their faces and minds when it comes to future plans or even a so called 5-year-future plan. Some of my friends are still not sure about whether they should marry their partner whom they already live with in a unit for years now or not and stay in this position and life circumstance for some more years.
I walked this path already, I lived with my partner for years, not married to each other like so many nowadays and then became pregnant – this changed everything, my point of view, my wish of the right path, the one God has planned for me. While my partner was far away from God’s path, I wished for the partner God has already created for me, the kind of caring and loving partner, that loves God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit and where both partners listen to God’s plan and his marriage order in life.
Finally I’m able to see and understand God’s order and this documentary about the Amish showed another way of modest and good way of God, I liked the part of “having less but having more” – I mean, having less electronic and especially the internet including smartphones and other distraction but instead of having all these distractions you’ll have so much more life value.
I experienced this one last year where I broke my iPhone while I was on my way to the family holiday and finally when it broke I felt relieved being away from the force to have this phone in hand to check everything possible, like messages, calls, news, the weather, social media etc.the list continues…
I enjoyed these 3 weeks, full of family and no smartphone, sure reality returned back the week I’ve been home again – but this experience and some more thinking about Amish lifestyle led me to the point where I am currently.
I’m not saying to leave out everything I’m used to be and start a life in the wild or as an Amish or hutterer but to value everything we have that we already forgot to be grateful for, like for example electricity, running water and of course grocery stores etc. I guess it is really a complete different life, going back to live like 150 years ago.

What is my conclusion or decision after finish watching the documentary of the Amish lifestyle? Well I can’t change within a short time period, but I can start. Living a life like the Amish here where my family and I live is a bit more complicated, starting with the clothes and the community, if your church community and all of your siblings in Christ are living approximately 30-50km away from you, it is difficult to reach your siblings without a car – and I haven’t seen many riding a horse, well I was thinking about riding the bike instead of buying a horse.

I like the simple and modest life of the Amish, their love to the father and their freedom of loving their life as God has given it to them, so do I. I love the life and the chances God has given me, the situations and possibilities I experienced and the people I’ve met, still I’m looking forward to my simple life.
I will keep you updated!

Be blessed!

Inviting Jesus

It is Good Friday, and while I was thinking about how to leave out the bunny and focus on the Lamb – Jesus I was and am confronted with commercial, family traditions and unbelieving friends having this look and even the question of you’re really serious!

It is one thing to leave out the easter tradition made out of human, while you are single but for me, as a mother it is another thing to explain and educate the kids why everyone is celebrating the easter bunny instead of remembering Jesus and his precious gift he gave us. Years ago I was looking forward celebrating those traditions like easter with painted eggs, Christmas and all the lamps and decorations, while the last ones I was thinking how to combine the truth and history with the decoration – for this time I started to read the story where Jesus took the last supper with his disciples and was then betrayed and left, while the kids where drawing some pictures. Then I prepared some eggs and some boiled ones to be painted as well. I can tell, it is easy to explain to my family, but it is something different to shut out the world, and their questioning views. I’m still on my way finding peace in how to simply explain to friends, family and others outside why we are not celebrating an Easter bunny or a fat man named Santa.

As the weather is so spring-like nice today, I just took the kids out on a bicycle tour to several playgrounds.
After this we went back home and prepared some meal to finally have our time cuddling on the couch (I really love this time!) the movie we are going to watch is “Narnia” (first part).

Coming back to the topic – inviting Jesus. For me it is important to invite him to everything, every situation in my life, he is my everything and everything in my life is his. So while I enjoy my time with the family he is with us always, I can talk to him, ask him for directions and he is there for me leading and directing me throughout my day. Sometimes I see my children pray to God, asking him daily things and I just see and immediately know this is the right way and as it is said in the bible I try to become more like my children when praying/talking to my Heavenly Father!

Be blessed!

Covering the hair/head

Another post about why I cover my hair for Jesus. Yesterday I talked to my Muslim friend, who definitely wants to start covering one day. We were talking about her workplace and one of her office colleague, who frequently ask her why she’s fasting, why there are women covering up, being oppressed and not living in freedom.
This colleague is privately related to some magic stones, some magic silver waters and other witch-related things. For me, there is nothing against positive and healthy ways of living, like clean eating, using herbs, veggies and so on, but starting with “Globules” (homeopathic globules) or some magic sprays, drinks or tincture I try to keep far away as this witch craft is against God’s will.

„“Then I will approach you for judgment; and I will be quick to witness against sorcerers, adulterers and perjurers; against those who take advantage of wage-earners, widows and orphans; against those who rob the foreigner of his rights and don’t fear me,” says ADONAI -Tzva’ot.“

‭‭Mal’akhi (Mal)‬ ‭3:5‬ ‭CJB‬

Talking to my friend really showed me again, what the evil tries to do with the people that seek Gods presence. I told her, that because she believes in God, she offends many who worship the evil.

Coming back to the topic, headcover – I told her, that when she feels to cover her head, she will do it. I told her, what I experience even now, it’s not only the looks, or questions – last time I even had to answer the sentence “your hair will fall and then you’re bald” – well, I already talked to my hair dresser and with plenty research I could give the answer, that hair loss is a genetic problem not a hair covering one. And besides, I’m not covering 24/7, I mean I’m not sleeping with my head covered.

As a Christian I told my friend to keep talking to God in prayer and to trust him, that he will lead her. I guess it’s difficult for her, as she has to face the people during her working hours, while I am talking to everyone who’s talking to me, in my son’s martial arts class, while I meet family and friends and on my other meeting points.
Just last weekend I’ve been on a kids birthday party with 5 other parents, talking about faith, believe and how to teach their children the Love of God. At first sight they had some question marks on their faces, because I was covering my hair and wearing a cross necklace. As I written before it is uncommon and unusual for christian women to cover like I do, to fully cover their hair, or to wear a hijab, some wear a cover like this one –

I enjoy the conversations to new people, as well as the conversation to my Muslim friends.
Years ago I felt some anger or other feeling while talking to other people about God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, as it always felt like I have to prove or win a contest. Today it is different, because I don’t need to prove anything to anyone – I know that God loves me, so he sent his son to bring me back home.
I know my mission is to introduce others to Jesus, but the point is, I don’t need to force anyone to see clearly, I don’t need to force my view upon someone else’s mind – because Jesus is Love, and he teaches to love each other.
This is why I try to avoid situations with discussions who may lead to non-sense quarrel.

Dear readers I wish you a blessed day and nice conversations wherever you are. Shalom

Difficulties

The Difficulties I experienced and still experience wearing a headcover – no matter if it’s my Tichel or a Hijab or Veil is still in the air.

Even posting pictures on Instagram (@Sarah_Jesus_Headcover) creates questions, questionmarks inside some heads and well sometimes misunderstanding. But I really appreciate all my followers and followers-to-be who simply write a message or post a comment below and ask whatever is on their mind.
Sometimes it’s even easier to talk to others on these online platforms as in real life.
Why is that? Well let me explain, in real daily life, walking with a tichel or any kind of headcover as a Christian creates these questionmarks on people’s face. I can’t even tell why, but I experienced that sometimes people want to ask, and sometimes they don’t. If they don’t, they’d like to keep their own explanation, even if they are totally “wrong” or “misled”. While on others it’s like this disgusting look, because I stopped wearing my tichel the second half of 2017 and started again in 2018. And it feels like a facial expression telling me “come on, you’ve already had this period and let’s call it phase of your life, than finally you stopped and got back to normal and now again? Why’s that, I hoped and wished that you’ve passed it now and forever”… this is a lot, for just an expression – but well, I don’t know why, but too often it’s that I’m right about such things. It’s like a “feeling” or something like this.

Last time I had a good talk to my sister, while I don’t know if she understood what I tried to explain to her or not, because as I know myself years ago I was similar, thinking “why should God want us to cover our hair? He created us like this” yes, totally right, it has nothing to do with our naturally appearance but more about obedience for our heavenly father Adonai. Our culture, the media and well social acceptance created a point of view in my sight that kept telling me to take my right as a woman wearing what I want, if I want to be sexy I wear even less clothes, because I can. Well, yes because I can, doesn’t mean it’s the right way.

“Submit as people who are free, but not letting your freedom serve as an excuse for evil; rather, submit as God’s slaves. Be respectful to all — keep loving the brotherhood, fearing God and honoring the emperor.”
1 Pe 2:16‭-‬17 CJB

The most experience while wearing my tichel is a surprised facial expression and sometimes question about my believe, if I converted, if I’m Muslim, if I changed something important in my life – and if so what exactly?! Some asked, if I cover because of sickness, if I lost my hair and cover because of cancer or leukemia.
And still, on Instagram I’m asked if I’m Muslim even I’m posting christian and biblical quotes – I’m not offended or anything at all, it’s always a pleasure to get in touch and in good talk to people interested in “why I cover”. When I started last year it was a challenge for myself, but also a way to let others know and inform why others cover and the most important thing to stop a limited mind thinking about headcover is for muslimas only.
It is still a way to go and not as easy as it could be, because the first impression is still something different. But as long as people ask and show interest, there is hope to spread truth.

When I met Jesus and when he took place in my heart, I wanted to know him more, become more like him, like my heavenly father sees me, he has created me as a whole, perfect person and I want to show this, and thank him by gifting him my whole life and everything I am and everything I do.

I can pray in my home, in my room; same as praying in my church community – but I also pray and talk to God while I’m outside, walking in the park or forest.
Last year I read a bit of “stop being a people-pleaser” by Joyce Meyer and this is what I still try to practice in full. Sometimes it is easy, sometimes it is a bit more difficult.
Especially right now in the cold winter season, I’m wearing normal hats/beanies besides my tichel headcovering.

Well, well.. I will keep you updated with my headcover post and the year 2018!

Be blessed!