No one is covering, should I?

Some time ago I started covering for God, it was a good yet strange feeling as I image all the stares I received. When I started covering I was living in an area with many different cultures and believes, so it may not be as much recognized as today.

I moved and am living in a mainly Christian area were no one is covering except me. It’s still the same in my church, as I’m the only woman covering for years.

It is still interesting to answer their questions, while often I receive a statement like “Paul doesn’t mean us to cover, when he says so it’s only for Corinthian women, or it’s a traditional and different time thing”… Well if it’s not the right time for them I’m totally fine, while for me it is exactly what my heavenly Father has called me too. And I think it’s important for me to study even more about God’s love for us and how he sees us and wants his children to behave. Sometimes people just pick out the nice and perfect fitting quotes while leaving or cutting out others.

These last few months I’ve been through some tough passages in life, I started questioning a lot, tried to organise life in every spot (this is still a way to go), thought about nature and how I can be more sustainable – here I found out, the more I try to reduce waste, it seems to be even more. But I guess it’s just the view of reducing waste in general.

About my headcovering, lately I’m testing out different styles, same as some sisters I’ve meet online on Instagram, while I order a lot from the U.S. I realized the high expenses for custom service. As I own a sewing machine, I might start some headcoverings my own.

In May I started a 52 weeks Bible reading plan with a sister in Christ. Within these 52 weeks we want to read through the New Testament. We are reading one chapter a day Monday to Friday. We are reading Mark 3 today and I love to start my day with God’s Word!

Be richly blessed dear brothers and sisters!

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Back to school

Finally I’m back writing on my blog, while I already planned to be more structured in writing on this personal blog, I find myself being busy with so many other things.

Sure 1 month ago I started my course in financial accounting again – it’s more of a refreshing course, to have a smooth start back to work. Well at least this is my current plan for now and I will see, what will be this summer.

I tried to built my Christian blog and tried to gain my readers through social media, while now and then I ask myself if this is the right way to find true followers and readers. Over a year ago I read about writing a blog and every day more and more I thought about the idea of starting one myself – until I did.

My blog is all about faith, believe and my life with Jesus Christ. I try to write about everything that happens to me in life with Christ.

Like my current course in financial accounting, I was searching and waiting for God’s path of my future and then everything got together in perfect time and way. While I had a nice lady helping me out, finding my personal niché and profession – I used to work as an accountant before and wasn’t so sure about what I want to do now, going back or trying out something completely different. After several good talks we found this course that perfectly fits into my life situation and includes financial accounting, Excel, DATEV, Lexware, SAP and also a month working in an online firm. I’m in the middle of this great course and enjoy every day. And I feel that this is exactly what God has prepared for me, I’m happy and waiting for what will be this September, after I finished the course. As I’m already checking different job opportunities, as a financial accountant, I also read about other jobs from home, some sound interesting, while others sound good first but at second glance not reachable more expensive to try out. I never was the kind of person staying at home doing nothing at all, I like to work and learn. After becoming a mother I started to feel these mother instincts and the beautiful part of being a stay-at-home mum. Still searching for some sort of combination of stay-at-home mum doing some work from my home office – combining family and work as close as it can be.

So, I will wait some months until I can write more about this part of my life.

I thank you all for your interest in reading my blog. Be richly blessed!

Minimize

Since some months now I’m thinking about my families life and our living situation. My family and I are living in a 2 bedroom unit, with a big living room, a big kitchen and 2 bathroom. This is a standard unit for a family like mine, but as the internet is full of either postings about more and more material and big homes, there are also those posts about minimalism, about van life and the freedom of owning less but living more.

This thought comes and goes and falls with my financial possibilities right now, but I really love the imagination about down-sizing, at least for some weekend or holiday. So what exactly? I love all those pictures and blog posts about the #VanLife and especially families with kids and their life and adventure on the road.

Why does this come to my mind? Well I love to travel, and I know my family does too. Sure we like to travel by plane, but this one is expensive and I think driving around let you see so much beautiful that you might lose on the way.
Last summer we just visited The Netherlands by car and really enjoyed it! I love the flexibility and the freedom you experience while going by car – if the car is driving. My car is old and it is an adventure to use it and see if you reach your destination. I’m thinking about how to reach my new goal on this personal wish to buy a van (converted or not) to use it as a great way to travel with the whole family and not missing anything from home.
I also checked on those cute little tiny homes, well these are also on my wish list. Guess I need to find the needed financial credits to purchase both or at least one of them on my wish list.

crocheting projects

Oh how I love all the new projects I see on Pinterest – the only problem I have is, that I shouldn’t take any looks on social media while I’m working on a project already.
It’s like right now, I’m crocheting one hat for myself and am also starting to knit a new baby blanket. While doing these I already built up wishes and images of another even bigger blanket in knitting version. Usually I prefer crocheting, but I just started to knit this one and I like it!
I also like to sew some small and big projects for the kids and for our dog and am still learning new skills.

Right now I’m knitting a simple baby blanket with blocks and different colours. I knit the blocks first and later I will sew them together to finish this beautiful project. There are several stitches I learned and love and as mentioned before I always think about new projects while working on my current ones. I need to finish this baby blanket now, because 2 cousins gave birth to 3 babies this year and I finished 2 blankets already (boy and girl) and still need a girl blanket for the 3rd baby.
After this I already made this new project in my mind, a big blanket, I’m not sure about the colours, the size, the pattern, but I have a hint of it, the colours will be nature tone (orange, brown, etc.) and I’m thinking about the moroccan stitch, or an CAL (crochet along).

To all of you crocheters/knitters with small kids, do you also experience this phenomenon that as soon as you pick up your hook or needles your kids cling to you like a bubblegum?
I love my kids, and I love to spent time with them and be around them, listen to their stories their days – but it’s really interesting, that every time I pick up my hook at least one is trying to sit on my lap to interrupt my work – with no bad intention of course.

And with my knitting skills, well lets say I’m a beginner and really try to take care to perfectly count and not lose a line.
How can I say, I really love all the yarn projects I did so far and am looking forward to all the projects to come.
It’s funny, because back in 2017 I thought and started to plan this blog and use some other social platforms to start selling my selfmade baby blankets.
I don’t know if this road is my path or not, if this blog is my path or not. I don’t know if I already found the perfect niche and so on.

Will see in the near future I guess 😉 until then I’ll share my thoughts with you. Be richly blessed!

Tear

I am talking to her about daily topics and immediately my heart starts to ache. One thought comes to my mind and I speak it out loud.

I ask her to go visit my grandfather at the old homes. Years ago he decided to move to this place in hope to be well cared of.

What really put me down emotionally is the fact and the thought, that no one of his family, not his ex-wife, his actual wife or his children are caring much about him. I can understand that it is a matter of distance, a matter of past and what has happened in everyone’s life, still a sudden pain reaches my heart and I start crying, I can’t stop it, the tears are just dropping down my face and when I finally stop crying, I try to find out what exactly happened to me.

So I start praying and receive the answer. My soul was the one crying out loud, because my spirit showed me how my grandfather is lying in his bed all alone, all by himself and in bad condition, not able to move, completely left alone – weeks – no months are passing before his children visit him, as there is always something else, something more important at that time than visiting their father.

My heart is crying as I feel his pain, yes he made wrong decisions, he did wrong things and wasn’t the father he should be for his children, but I feel his pain inside my heart and I keep crying.

The next day, we are at this place where he’s lying, we had to drive for an hour, it is a cute little village and the home is a Christian catholic place – even he’s not catholic still he chose this place, because he felt comfortable in it, when he got there around 6 years ago. Now he is lying in bed all the time, since approx 2 years, staring at the wall in his room, not able to read, not able to talk, not able to turn on the TV. Day by day by day by day.

When I enter his room and see him lying there, not able to move his hands and fingers, I can’t stop the tears from flowing down my cheek. I don’t try to stop them, I just let them down. Is it the sorrow to see the similarities of him and my mother and my aunt? Is it the pain I can nearly feel seeing him lying here not able to move.

I feel powerless because his son who was responsible for him gave away the responsibility to the government and now all other siblings are helpless, not able to claim for their dad to be at their place to be cared of.

I can’t understand, that a man with 5 children is held at an old home while he could be cared of at least at one house. The main point is money, the old home takes a huge amount of money because of the care and the room – I can totally understand that, but I guess it is unfair for those who didn’t have a family at all.

With this I pray to remember the elderly people, your parents, your grandparents because they shouldn’t be forgotten.

Be blessed!

Friday book

Since I was able to read I was reading. As a small child I always asked my parents to read bedtime stories, so that my siblings and me can fall asleep. Usually they didn’t, because there was no time, no good book or a different excuse.

When I finally learned how to read in primary school, I was happy to hold a card to borrow books in a so called “Library Bus”. And was reading a lot and loved it. Later I preferred buying books and kept them in a shelf. After I came back from overseas I started to sort out nearly 85-90% of my books, gave them away or threw them away. I started reading my kindle and right now I’m borrowing eBooks there. Something else I started and really appreciate now is listening to books via audible. I tried audible books before as CDs, and wasn’t happy about it, as I only had a player in my car and I’m not that person to listen to books in my car. But with audible and their app which I’m using on my phone or tablet it’s easy to listen to a book while you are doing housework, or sports or simply sit on your couch doing something else like crocheting or drawing.

Today I started with William Paul Young’s book “Cross Road”. I wasn’t sure whether to listen to a book now or to read Paulo Corleone “the Alchemist” which I received as a birthday present. The last few days I was reading and studying Gods word in Acts and the beginning of Romans, until I got my latest migraine.

Listening to Cross Roads is lifting me up, a story to listen to, to sneak into someone else’s life and after watching William Paul Youngs “The Shack” and listening to his other book “Eve” I was looking forward to this one.

Life is slowly going back to its normal routine and schedule. I enjoy the new changes and the freedom to listen to books while I still be able to do everything else. Like now – doing the laundry 😉

Be blessed dear readers!

Writing

What is going on right now with my writing and my blog?

Currently I’m constantly thinking about my blog post content and what will be a useful niché for me to write about and you to read. My first impulse was to write about my life with God – as it’s stated on my description of my blog. Something more about my journey wearing a headcover as a Christian in a Christian country and in a community where no one else (woman) is wearing a headcover like I do. When did I start wearing my headcover, where did I got my first kit of scarves, where did I collect my informations and so on.

I’m reading all these blogpost where they try to teach you how to earn some extra passive income while running a blog. This wasn’t my first intention when I started my blog last year, but with time it surely got interesting if it’s really, surely possible. So this will be a journey now I’m starting this year August 2018 to see if it is possible and works. I am still searching for a good niché and I know that with Gods guidance and his power, he will show what to do and choose.

You can be sure that it will be about the Lord, Jesus, Ruach HaKodesh and/or the Christian headcovering, modest clothing and reading material.

Be curious – same as I am.