time off

I’m so sorry I haven’t shared a post in a while… I even can’t tell that I’m that busy – sure I am but not more than the other time.

It’s just that my iPhone broke and while I’m trying to get time off of all the electronic device it’s like a help for myself to just stay away from social media and my smartphone…
Still I’m not a blackberry user, although I got really attracted to the #q10 or #classic… maybe I should wait for the #keyone ? I’m not so sure yet and I know that this iPhone break might be a good reason to think and rethink about what to change and what to keep.

Last sunday my son got a challenge for saturday – the whole day – no electronic device, not even tv, no smartphone, no iPad no Laptop – nothing… back to basic – or as I like to say lately, back to normal… wednesday we had a nice camping trip with brothers and sisters from church and we tried to only use what God has given us, made fire in a fireplace and some of us slept outside. So much fun for the kids and the adults!

As I got the opportunity to write here on a laptop I took the chance to write at least one last post, before I’m off for some weeks because of a kind of vacation.

What did I receive lately from my heavenly father? To be honest – a lot! I had some nice conversations, some good and refreshing ones, some silent and thoughtful ones, some challenges while living this daily life with kids, other people on the road driving around or discussions on online platforms. And beside all that, the challenge to start working with forms and applications with the government.

Where to start? Some weeks ago my sister in Christ posted daily quotes and prayers for the week, and I really like and enjoy it! Praying for our friends, praying for our husband, praying for our parents and praying for our children. This led me to my own thinking. Thanking and praying for those God has sent to me on purpose on his plan. Thanking him and accepting his gift and his will 100%, relying on him even more than before! And I know for myself, there can never be an “I have enough of God’s Love, or his Grace or his Advice”, when I accepted Jesus, and prayed to God with all my heart the cry of “more” started to grow. Every day it’s “more of your Love”. Realizing that lately I got distracted by daily schedules even more than the other days before. It’s like I’m always putting more on top while I know I need time off and time to rest and especially time with God! Otherwise I can’t recharge – mentioning this, this is what I try to do the next 3-4 weeks. So I hope you are all patient waiting for my return.

And then for sure some new stories and life changes as well!

Planing on some new researches and plans. I will keep you informed.

Until then I bless you all my dear brothers and sisters! May God guide your ways

Am I too distracted?

Am I too distracted?

How to measure the level of distraction or the portion of busyness? Honestly I can’t tell you that – because it is a personal level. For me I just found out. The last weeks I was just thinking and filling my head with ideas, plans and wishes, i was filling my schedule and the kids schedule to the last free spot for a good feeling, the feeling to use each minute of the day for anything. Sleep becomes rare, or at least sleep became restless, as I woke up even more tired in the morning. Coffee was my best friend but couldn’t carry me through the day without yawning throughout the day. 

Today I took the time for at least one hour off, I grabbed my kindle paperwhite and started reading one of my books I started reading months ago. And I tried to stand the other electronic distractions but couldn’t, because every now and then there was a new WhatsApp message, as soon as I unlocked the iPhone I continued to check Facebook after reading and answering WhatsApp. Last year I already told myself (and some friends) that I really need to work on reducing this social media and electronic devices. Ha, it’s an easy way to say, but a hard way to go – well for me. I know it’s not for everyone I mean, some are fine using the internet, smartphone and social media at just one time a day, not for me, my kids are showing that it’s way too much and I really feel ashamed! So today there is my new plan “less iPhone, less social media, less distraction” and more of God, Jesus, Holy Spirit and my family!!!

© antoinegeiger.com

I found this picture on Pinterest and well it makes visible what invisibly is happening with us using smartphones etc. 

How to change it?

„“Come to me all of you who are tired from the heavy burden you have been forced to carry. I will give you rest. Accept my teaching. Learn from me. I am gentle and humble in spirit. And you will be able to get some rest. Yes, the teaching that I ask you to accept is easy. The load I give you to carry is light.”“

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11:28-30‬ ‭ERV‬‬

Right now I start to understand, that out of my strength I can’t change anything, especially not my stressful, over-busy-lifestyle…. I need to ask for help. Only God can help me through is son Jesus to be finally able to rest. 

To stop reacting scared or aggressive as soon as I spot these or similar signs for being unreachable or not fast enough on the mobile internet I have to find ways to get out of this thinking (with the helping Hand of God). Two days ago I started looking for an old Mobil phone – yes, exactly, not a smartphone a normal 1999er Mobil Phone, to switch off the distraction permanently. But this would be no solution for the long run. I had a Facebook break for over 2 years already and it was a relief – definetly, but not the answer to my quest. I need to get a healthy handling and timing for this time consuming things like Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest, Twitter, WhatsApp, so I can breathe in life and live life actually in real not online via iPhone. While thinking about this part “breathe” I’m listening to Jonny Diaz song Breathe .

Breathe – Jonny Díaz

So I need a plan, a structured one and a God-led one! Because otherwise I’m not able to succeed. So my planning is now 

  • Praying and asking God to lead me his way for a good and healthy time table to use the social media
  • Write down some schedule into my new Bullet Journal and check several days which one works out best
  • Stick to the perfect plan 
  • Last but not least I’m planning to leave off all distractions in June as I’m on special family leave for 3 weeks!

© Bullet Journal

C is my favorite, but I need practice and God’s help, definetly!

I know that with God watching over me, with Jesus by my side and with the leading of his Holy Spirit I will finally find rest! I’m so happy about it and looking forward to this! 

© Sarah

Thank you for taking time to read my story! God bless you ❤

Godly Woman – Who’s she?

Godly Woman – Who’s she?

Reading the bible, on a daily basis, whether you just read one chapter, or you are reading on a plan at one point I was wondering “how does a godly woman look like?”. Not only her outer appearance, also her behaviour. Inside my heart I knew she should not hide inside the house or have no voice at all, I mean, there might be people showing biblical quotes that seem to state “this is the godly woman”. I did my research and found the Proverbs 31 woman and some other characteristic aspects I want to share with you today.

Why I started this personal journey? It’s not something I planned years ago, or as a life plan of myself. To tell you my personal circumstances, sure I was born into a christian family with christian tradition and since childhood my parents told me parts from the bible until I was able to read and teach myself. As a teenager I was sure I called myself a christian pre-adult, avoiding alcohol, drugs and men. While last point was more the fact there was no way of having a relationship, as God was still teaching me to be patient. At some point the flesh was at its rebellion stage and I had a late puberty at the age of 19 or 20 something. It included everything, disrespecting my parents, not listening to good advice, especially not advice from my younger siblings, testing and consuming alcohol, clubbing the weekends and of course men. The evil start telling lies and made me believe, that as an equal human on earth, why shouldn’t women be allowed to act and try men before marriage as it is sort of normal for male nowadays. When I was 25 I met my first fiancé, telling myself that I don’t need to marry him before starting a family, as it seemed that we both want the same. I didn’t listen God’s advice (and my families) as I thought my way is the best, at least for myself. So things happened as I ran ahead not waiting and listening to God’s Holy Spirit ended alone as a single parent. In the end it was my choice as I did not want to sink on this huge ship of sin and addiction.
At the age of 28 I decided to start a new life with my son, a fresh start and just live life. We moved down under – Sydney – I love this city! When I went this path, I promised God, and myself to trust in the Lord, no matter what. So Jesus was in my heart and I was relying on his love and I told myself to trust on his way this time!
I received so many blessings and was overwhelmed when I met my second fiancé, through my cousin one day. I can’t remember what exactly went through my mind, as I started this journey with my son I told myself to establish  a solid base first before meeting anyone.
Well things changed, as the flesh (again) pulled the gear to satisfy it’s desire. Love grew, feelings pushed the hormones and the positive thoughts to handle it all – by ourself.
In the end, as I asked God in the first place, I was called back to my believing roots and I listened to God’s Holy Spirit, to end this seemingly beautiful relationship, as it was not what God has planned for me. When there is Light, Darkness has to flee.

“The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness hasn’t overcome it.” John 1:5

Jesus is my light, he shines inside my heart and shines through darkness, I don’t want to say that my partner was “darkness” himself, but he lied about promises, that seem meaningless for him (maybe), but are essential and important to me.
As a christian I put God first always, I put God before myself, before any prospective partner, or husband. The time I realise that this fact should change, not recognizable for the world but for me inwardly, I focused on the voice coming from a loving God, not an enraged God but an understanding, patiently waiting heavenly father that he is, waiting for me to return back to his way, full of light. So I took his hand, refused to listen to fear, grabbing my back, I hold his hand tight and stayed in his Love. Since that time I continued studying and praying to my God and received so much blessings even as a single mother.

“Listen, my dear brothers and sisters: Has not God chosen those who are poor in the eyes of the world to be rich in faith and to inherit the kingdom he promised those who love him?” Jacob 2:5

In 2016 I started growing my desire to know more about God, to know more about Jesus and to know more about the Holy Spirit – and most of all, to listen more what God has to say. By mentioning this, it’s not only meaning to hear a voice, sometimes it is a feeling, a feeling to open the bible and immediately read what you need, sometimes it is something your brother or sister in Christ is telling you, not knowing that this was meant for you from God himself. The desire and wish inside my heart to re-read some bible verses and finding out if it’s right for me to wear a headcover arise. See my blogpost on Headcovering for the whole story. 

Back to the topic “Godly Woman”, who is she? How would she look like today? Would she wear clothes like back then? Is it necessary what to wear? What kind of fabric, or even color? There are some quotes in the holy bible, telling that the Godly Woman was wearing fine linen and purple. 

„She makes her own quilts; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. נ“

‭‭Mishlei (Pro)‬ ‭31:22‬ ‭CJB‬‬

First it sounds oldschool, like who’s quilting, or wearing linen? But then I started to ask for a different point of view, it doesn’t have to be out of fashion, linen is a good fabric, keeping you cool on hot summers and it doesn’t mean you are just wearing this sand-caramel color (while this is a nice color I think). And crafting – knitting, crocheting, sewing and quilting are more and more common. I started knitting in 2012, then I switched to crocheting, as I preferred it, then in 2014 I started trying out sewing, this is nice too, while I’m still doing the small projects like beanie hats for kids; so next challenge might be quilting? (Besides all my other challenges new languages, journaling and of course blogging) okay, but it’s not stated that you need to be able to do these things, I think it’s mainly focused on the things I should be able to do. These crafty things are essential for me, for me as a woman, for me as a mother and for me as a wife. Nowadays we don’t need it to survive a winter, but honestly it’s something different to snuggle in a handmade crochet blanket or to take a bought one (nothing bad about them too though). 

When I browse the internet and of course my favorite Pinterest, I found some points about the Godly Woman, she is

  • Generous (2. Cor. 9:11)
  • Wise (Prov. 31:26)
  • Light hearted (Prov. 17:22)
  • Reputable (Prov. 31:23)
  • Godly beauty (Prov. 31:30)
  • Trustworthy (Prov. 31:11)
  • Humble (Isa. 66:2)
  • Depend on God (Mat. 4:4)
  • Modest (Prov. 7:10)
  • Patient (Rom. 12:12)
  • Confident (Phil. 3:3)
  • Speak truth (Eph. 4:15)

As you can see, the most quotes are from Proverbs 31, so I started reading this again. Starting at Proverbs 31:10 the godly woman is far more worthy than jewels, and her husband will depend on her, he will never be poor. She never causes her husband trouble, she enjoys making things with her hands (craft, cooking, household), she wakes up early and prepares everything for the family, she is strong and able to do all her work. She works until late to make sure her business earns a profit. She is a strong person and people respect her, she looks to the future with confidence. She speaks with wisdom and teaches to be loving and kind. She is never lazy, her children say good things about her, her husband brags about her.
Well so far, honestly I can’t see me in this picture for now – but you know what? I’m working on it! Several points are on the list, that I’m working on now, and I know together with God I can achieve everything! I don’t do it because of me, or for myself – I want it, because I want to draw myself closer to God. It will not happen overnight, but with the time, step by step I will achieve to reach the godly woman as it is described in Proverbs 31.

Thank you for reading my thoughts and my story. Be blessed dear brothers and sisters!

Christian heart meets minimalistic lifestyle

It’s march 2017, spring is here and it’s time for deep cleaning and clutter-free living.
Some months ago I started checking my unit for clutter and I start wondering how to get rid of most of it as soon as possible; it’s a real challenge for me, well I’m not the person who’s collecting a lot of stuff – my sisters would roll their eyes right now, telling me, that it takes at least 10 minutes for me to sort and trash out letters/mails, because I’m oldschool having some penpals writing real letters (not the electronic mails). And with this, I’m very picky what can be thrown out and what I need to save.

So this one is a big challenge for me, as I don’t like to clean much, honestly I’m not the best cleaner but with this post I want to change and take you with me on my trip to

  1. Declutter step-by-step
  2. Organize the things to
    – sell
    – throw away
    – keep
  3. How to clean a 74qm unit in no time

To be clear, this is a plan I’m really looking forward to take place, as I will start – I will upload pictures and steps until I will reach the end.
I want to include some advice and essential DIY tips I found on Pinterest, and which I tried myself (especially hacks for cleaning the couch/sofa).

But back to my first intention and thoughts about this post, as a christian I was wondering if there is advice in God’s Word about this life issue. I felt restless while I was running behind the kids and even myself cleaning and picking up things, to put them from one place to another. And my heart was telling me, there is something you can read about in God’s Word, the Bible about our life and our lifestyle. So this is just for myself, everyone has a different feeling about this”issue”, well in my case I felt simply not well and just revised with this daily chore.
With so many things and plans in my head I was thinking about “how to organize my household” with 2 small kids leaving their toys and stuff around and overcrowded rooms.
I know, there need to be more hiding places for things, but the most important thing in my case is – sorting out!
Everyday there is at least one piece going inside the unit, that could stay out in the first place. Let it be the envelope of any mail. I already started to not take in the brochure we receive every wednesday and saturday – but I will change this as well – we don’t need so much rubbish, to do = pin a sign that inform “no advertising please”
In the end of my decluttering season I want to be less stressed when I come home, to be honest with you there is at least 50% of things in my unit I actually don’t need – or my kids. So in times where there are refugees coming to europe and germany there are plenty of possibilities to give away those things that seem unnecessary for me. (I have to ask the kids first of course, but I know they will agree to help)

  • Sell what you own and do tzedakah — make for yourselves purses that don’t wear out, riches in heaven that never fail, where no burglar comes near, where no moth destroys. 34 For where your wealth is, there your heart will be also.” Luke 12,33-34 CJB
  • In other words, do not let yourselves be conformed to the standards of the ‘olam hazeh. Instead, keep letting yourselves be transformed by the renewing of your minds; so that you will know what God wants and will agree that what he wants is good, satisfying and able to succeed.” Romans 12,2 CJB
  • “Now true religion does bring great riches, but only to those who are content with what they have. For we have brought nothing into the world; and we can take nothing out of it; so if we have food and clothing, we will be satisfied with these.” 1.Timothy 6,6-8 CJB

These three bible verses gave me the impulsion to start, okay I need it to be well organized (because last year I started this clutter free life, and it ended frustrated and unfinished because I tried to start all at once without any plan at all)

  1. Try to make a roughly plan in your thoughts and if you want and need write it down
    – As I have a 2 story unit I will start from top to bottom
    – Work from room to room (as I mentioned before, you risk to get frustrated, because it can be a lot!)
    – in every room, seperate boxes e.g. laundry baskets to split what you are going to toss out, what you can donate and what you will keep
  2. Before you start in your first room now, enjoy a cup of coffee or tea first and then get things started.
    – Clothing, ask yourself if you used/worn the item the last year, or if you’re going to wear it in the next 3 months
    – if the answer is no/no check if the item is still wearable in good condition, so you can donate or sell it. If not = toss it.
    – if the answer is yes = keep it
  3. Second room (Bathroom)
    – check for outdated products, parfum, deodorant, nailpolish,….
  4. After finishing the upper floor I have to check my big living room – this will be my biggest challenge (besides the kitchen) as I store a lot of things there, like as mentioned before Mails, Documents, Photos, Books, Yarn, some toys from the kids, domestic appliances (vacuum cleaner)….
  5. Last but not least the kitchen, this will be serious too, as I have to ask myself what I really need and what I can donate, like for example how many cups do I actually need? Or cutlery? Pots and Pans? And then I will start organizing drawers for bags, binbags, shoppingbags, freezerbags (one of my next blog posts will be about foodprep)

After this plan I really hope and am looking forward to see a clutter-free home of mine!
Start date will be Monday March 20, 2017.

Update 13. April 2017
So I started, I sorted out and already gave 4 big bags to charity in a nearby church, later there will be more who will be donated to another organisation near my place, for singleparents in need.
And I did my kitchen on Monday, still a long way to go – I want to reach a minimalistic lifestyle even with kids.

The following 4 kitchen cabinets I show you now, were photographed before de-cluttered. 

© cabinets before

On Pinterest I found some nice essentials, well maybe it’s just for bakers, I still have to find my right balance for my family and me. I started to sort out some of my cups, and those heaps of glasses (on picture 3, still unpacked and 12 in total) and some of my plates.
I got my own list now =

  • Cutlery (for lets say 4-6)
  • Glasses ~4
  • Wine Glasses ~2
  • Cups ~4
  • Plates ~4
  • Bowls ~4
  • at least one good knife (I got 2)
  • wooden spoons (2-3)
  • whisk
  • can opener
  • bottle opener
  • measuring cup
  • mixing bowls (~3)
  • cutting board (~2-3)
  • pot (2-4)
  • frying pan (2)
  • colander
  • cookie sheet
  • baking dish

Well reviewing this small list, I still got too much. So, next step after the easter break – more de-cluttering!! I still need some more food containers for continue my prep meals, as I don’t use and don’t have a slow-cooker (I don’t know if it would be the right machine for me) I’m more the person to prepare food on one or two days to be prepared for a whole week or 10 days. I tried some pasta already, worked for me, as I don’t like too much spice, but when my sister tried it, she notes that it’s too tasteless. Guess I stick to asian food, I will try some israeli/arabic food next time to prepare and store in the fridge and freezer. As well as I need some JÄMKA IKEA food storage basics, and basics for sugar, flour, rice, noodles etc. right now I’m using TupperWare they are nice, but well way too expensive honestly, and sometimes I like the style of IKEA.

I’m still working on my clutter-free home, and the big dream is still this Tinyhouse… One day, if it’s God’s will.

By Whatcom Lake Cottages

Thank you for taking time following my spring deep cleaning plans 2017.
God bless you!


Hagar from “Women of the Bible”

A slave, married to Abraham she became proud, but because of being proud God´s punishment was big. When she listened God´s voice she followed immediately and she got the prediction that her son would be the father of many.

Who was Hagar? She was an Egyptian woman, who could be possibly a gift from Pharao while Abraham and Sara were hiding in Egypt. Then Hagar was a close slave from Sara, as Sara chooses her to be the birth mother of the predicted Son, Abraham and Sara should have. Of course this action caused a spiritual desaster. After Hagar realized that she actually was pregnant, she began to put herself higher up on Sara, while this led Sara to treat her not well at all. So one day Hagar was desperate about her situation and how Sara treated her she runaway straight into the desert. She wasn’t too far, when she heard a voice calling her “Hagar, Slave of Sara, where are you from and where are you going? Go back to your master and stay being her Slave” but as to soften this, it was followed by “You will give birth to a son. Call him Ismael, as the Lord has listened how you are suffering” After this, there was no concerning or struggling inside Hagar, she returned back to Abraham and Sara, because God calmed the storm inside her heart like a spring in a desert oasis.

Ismael means “God hears”

Hagar, a young woman, used as a slave, brought far away from her hometown to serve her masters, pregnant with her first child, abandoned into desert after her son was about 16 years old.

In all this time and after this still, God never left her, God always saw her pain, her struggling and God heard her Sons voice. And Gods promise, that her son will be the father of many people stayed true, as Ismael is the father of our Arabic-Muslim brothers and sisters.

Refering to the book The Benjamin Generation written by Joseph Prince and the Bible, Hagar symbolize one Mountain – Sinai in Arabia, same as Sara does. Both women symbolize the union with God.

“Tell me, you who want to be in subjection to the system that results from perverting the Torah into legalism, don’t you hear what the Torah itself says?
22 It says that Avraham had two sons, one by the slave woman and one by the free woman. 23 The one by the slave woman was born according to the limited capabilities of human beings, but the one by the free woman was born through the miracle-working power of God fulfilling his promise. 24 Now, to make a midrash on these things: the two women are two covenants. One is from Mount Sinai and bears children for slavery — this is Hagar. 25 Hagar is Mount Sinai in Arabia; she corresponds to the present Yerushalayim, for she serves as a slave along with her children. 26 But the Yerushalayim above is free, and she is our mother; 27 for the Tanakh says,

“Rejoice, you barren woman who does not bear children!
Break forth and shout, you who are not in labor!
For the deserted wife will have more children
than the one whose husband is with her!”[a]

28 You, brothers, like Yitz’chak, are children referred to in a promise of God. 29 But just as then the one born according to limited human capability persecuted the one born through the Spirit’s supernatural power, so it is now. 30 Nevertheless, what does the Tanakh say? “Get rid of the slave woman and her son, for by no means will the son of the slave woman inherit along with the son of the free woman!”[b] 31 So, brothers, we are children not of the slave woman, but of the free woman.” Galatians 4, 21-31 CJB

Hagar symbolize the flesh = as her son was planned by human.

“Thus, those who identify with their old nature cannot please God.” Romans 8,8

Photograph by James C. Lewis

„God heard the boy’s voice, and the angel of God called to Hagar from heaven and said to her, “What’s wrong with you, Hagar? Don’t be afraid, because God has heard the voice of the boy in his present situation.“

‭‭B’resheet (Gen)‬ ‭21:17‬ ‭CJB

Hagar in our time? What would she be like? Maybe a young mother or mother to be who is also struggling with life and situations others put her through without her even asking. How many are singles, single mothers, seeking for love, understanding and acceptance? How many try and work on their life to be successful while their heart is cracking and falling apart because the fact is, they can’t do it all alone – what they need is our Heavenly Father, who is watching over them, willing to help, but we have one tiny task to do first – we need to ask for help. God will help, no matter what situation you are in, he will never leave your side and he will always be there for you, as long as you ask him to. God will never force you to ask, or accept or even talk to him, but he wants you to want it yourself, because God loves you so much, he doesn’t want to see you suffer, he doesn’t want you to be in pain, but because of our free will he can’t interfere with our path we want to be in. As soon as we realize and accept that we need God and ask him to be there he definitely will! And that is a promise! A promise God himself made for all of us! So the story in the Bible included 3 main people first, Abraham father of many people, Jews, Christians and Muslims, Sara mother of Jews and Christians and Hagar, a slave and mother of Ismael, father of Muslims. And God was with all of them, God showed mercy, God corrected their path (called them back), heard her suffer, kept his promise.

Hagar, mother of Ismael is a very interesting woman, back in the past I already thought about her, her life, her struggling, her pain and her relationship with God. Although she came from Pharao in Egypt, she heard Israels God, not once- twice! And she listened. She showed obedience without questioning and she faced all the struggles, but because God was with her.

Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts about Hagar.

Be blessed!

Woman of the Bible

I love reading books. This is what my friends know. 2 years ago, when I was baptized, my brothers and sisters in Christ gave me a great book about all women of the Bible. There are 52 mentioned, so its a good thing to read one story of a woman each week so you should be done in 1 year… well, that was the plan, today it´s almost 2,5 years ago and I´m still reading and studying this book. To be honest, during this time I was into so many other things, crafting, reading, and so much more… but today I want to share with you one story of a woman who really fascinated me – and for sure I will add more during my studies here on this Blog.

If you want to purchase this book yourself here is the link that directs you to the amazon.com.uk shop.

So I mentioned before, that there are 52 women written about, all of them mentioned in the Bible. Today I want to start and tell you about Rahel, beautiful Rahel sister of Leah, second daughter Laban´s and her life being ruled and manipulated by him, she didn´t had any control of her own life, being in a passive modus of herself. With the sin that happened to her, she answered with sinning in respond – measuring herself with her sister and betraying her father.

When you start reading Rahels story in the Bible you may see the dilemma. Starting in Genesis 29:15 when Jacob started working for Rahels father Laban, and Laban asked his nephew Jacob what he wants in return for his work. Jacob asked his uncle to marry his daughter Rahel, because he fell in love with her, and in return he would work for his uncle Laban for 7 years. Laban agreed to his wish, marrying his daughter Rahel. Laban had a first daughter named Leah – and here we go. After Jacob worked for 7 years he asked for the marriage and Laban invited everyone for the wedding. Genesis 29:23 says, that Laban didn’t put Rahel, but Leah to marry Jacob and he (Jacob) didn’t realized it until the next morning after they were already married. Sure Jacob was really mad at his father-in-law I mean, he worked for him for 7 years and they agreed that Jacob could marry his love Rahel, but now Laban betrayed him and gave him Leah. What should Jacob have done? And now Laban was tricky, he told Jacob to work for another 7 years, so he could marry his second daughter Rahel.

The book “Women of the Bible” is a good book to study women of the holy bible, you can read the story, and the authors give you questions to ask yourself, to answer while studying and to get you deeper in the story and time of this happening itself. For example

  • Read Genesis 30:1     The tragedy in the voice of Rahel happened to so many women afterwards. Why was the close relationship to Leah the cause to make things even worst? Shouldn’t this help to decrease the pain instead?
  • Read Genesis 35:16-20   While they were still on their way, Rahel gave birth to her only son, try to imagine her circumstances and her physical and psychics pain she was going through.
Photograph by James C. Lewis

In the end Rahel was the mother of Benjamin, who should first be called Ben-Oni (son of my grief) because of the painful birth she had and in the end died of, but his father Jacob named him Benjamin (son of the right hand, son of the south). And why Benjamin is the one directing for something else, something important in the Bible and our life today  is another very interesting book I refer to, it´s “The Benjamin Generation” from Joseph Prince, really very interesting point of view and he is connecting the Old Testament with the Scripture, it is so wonderful to see this light while reading, understanding, discovering even new points that you haven’t seen there before. I recommend this book from Joseph Prince, it is not that heavy or too much to read, it is more informative, supportive in studying the Word of God.

Thank you for reading! Be blessed!

Head covering 

I want to tell you, why I started covering my hair as a Christian.

It wasn’t a decision made in about a few days or some weeks, actually I thought about covering my hair a long time ago. Fear and a fearful voice in my head made me think in negative ways about covering my hair. 

The main thoughts were = covering your head/hair leads to impressions that I converted to another religious believe as to Islam or Sikh, or that I have a hairloss sickness or else? To be really honest with you, in my past I had thoughts about women covering their hair as being oppressed or with less value to be forced into covering. 

I’m really glad and blessed that my holy father allowed me to see that this is not the truth, yes sure there are women and girls being forced into covering but also women with strong faith and obedience to worship God only and not this world. 

When I started realizing that my heart is seeking information and truth about my own way covering or not covering, I started googleing it. Sure it is easy, and the main results showed Christian nuns, wearing head covering, or muslima’s headcover hijab. I continued searching the Scripture which leads me to 1. Corinthians 11:6 „For if a woman is not veiled, let her also have her hair cut short; but if it is shameful for a woman to wear her hair cut short or to have her head shaved, then let her be veiled.“ I know that this biblical verse is read and discussed a lot, pro head covering and against. I kept studying and searching for truths, reading about women in the time of Jesus, the way they were dressed, especially their hair. Jewish women used to wear tunics, with a sash or rope or a leather belt and they were covering their head and hair. 

I’m not living back then, or in Israel, still I felt my heart longing for more information, for more insights about their living and their fashion, well their clothes. As they were living in times were the clothing was also functional they used materials to comfort them in the different season weathers. Materials to keep their skin from burning through the sun, materials to keep them warm in cold night times. Still Gods word says

1. Timothy 2:9-10 „Likewise, the women, when they pray, should be dressed modestly and sensibly in respectable attire, not with elaborate hairstyles and gold jewelry, or pearls, or expensive clothes. Rather, they should adorn themselves with what is appropriate for women who claim to be worshipping God, namely, good deeds.“ 

It’s stated “when they pray, they should be dressed modestly..” I can only talk about myself but I like to pray during my day, starting in the early morning times when I wake up, standing up going to the bathroom, to the kitchen, to the childcare, the shoppingcentre, driving the car on the highway – everywhere. So after google supported me with all this informations I checked Pinterest and Instagram for some visual offers, which led me to beautiful Headcoverings called Tichel. Jewish headcover, and their technique to wrap them. At the time I started using a headcover myself, wrapping it around my head like the Jewish women on Wrapunzel. For me, headcovering is a visible obedience I give to God, while he is securing my thoughts. „Above all, be careful what you think because your thoughts control your life.“

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭4:23‬ 

The beginning was a challenge, not only the wrapping and the problem of slippery scarves, but also reactions and questions of people around me. More about the slippery Problem later. How about the different reactions in my surrounding.

  1. “May I ask, do you have cancer?” For some, it’s quiet a sensitive question, I do understand and respect this. One close relative of mine has cancer and she lost all her hair, beside the fight against cancer and all her therapy she has to fight the feeling to be unattractive or with less value because of her hairloss. Just about my decision to start wearing my tichel, I decided to donate my hair to a charity for children fighting cancer. The company is supported with hair and money donation and provides natural wigs for kids. It is such a beautiful work and I was really sad I didn’t know earlier in life, as I had many haircuts from hip long to really short always throwing away the hair. 
  2. “Did you convert to Islam?” This is a quiet interesting question, as it is mainly asked by European, let’s say German friends. It’s nothing negative or they didn’t meant any negativity, simply the fact I saw clearly, that for some people headcovering means “Islam”. Even Muslim women and men, talked to me in the city thinking I’m an arabic speaking Muslim. Well I’m working on the Arabic speaking point, but this will be another topic. As my family in Indonesia knew from the beginning that by the way I wrap the headscarf I can’t be Muslim. (Indonesia had a 87.2% population of Muslims in 2011)
  3. “Is this new fashion?” Yes, I also got these comments, if it’s just a fashion thing, because it’s nice for today, or because I got a “bad hair day”.
  4. “Is it because of religion or culture?” Well culture rather no, because the German culture does not cover hair any longer, long time ago they used to, while working on fields and to protect the hair and head from dust, dirt and sun, but I won’t say a normal hat is culture.. well “because of religion” this one is slightly tricky. I would say no. I don’t cover my hair because of religion, I posted 2 biblical verses which I needed for my journey to find out what is right for me only, on the path whether to wear a tichel or not, but it might be a total different meaning for my sister in Christ sitting next to me in church.

Honestly I had positiv respond to my new life-headstyle, because as soon as people in my surroundings realized that I do cover my head not because of a husband or a father or brother or a city or country or culture who told me to do so, I can see in their expression either interest and/or acceptance. I don’t care much about acceptance as I don’t harm anyone by wearing my tichel, it’s similar if I would wear a cap, or a sun hat or just a headband, it’s not offending anyone, and my main intention is to serve and obey God, not human, so my first thought is always, do I serve God, or people? Coming to the interest part, this one is more of a value for me. You may have read about refugees coming to Europe, Fear is a dangerous weapon and ignorance is an easy game for it. When the feeling and my interest in headcover began, it was months before the first refugees came. Today I know, covering my head is not only for myself and my relation to God, it is an instrument to fight ignorance and fear. To open eyes, to open topics without being scared, to open minds. Inside myself the feeling became bigger to clear things up, to show people that fear of the unknown is not necessary. Sure not everyone I met outside is asking me why I’m wearing the tichel, not everyone is asking if I’m sick or Muslim, or what kind of believe I’m actually in. But the few who already have or who will are exactly the ones who should and were led by the Heavenly Father! 

It’s been a year now, wearing a tichel when I leave the house. It’s not 100%, but I try at least 98%, sometimes my kids pull it off, or I just run outside quickly to check the mail or throw the rubbish. I’m looking forward to my upcoming tichel-year 2017.

Going back to the problem I mentioned earlier, the slipping problem. First when I decided to wear a headcover I tried different styles, sure you have a wide branch of how to do your hijab, and then I finally found some on how to do your tichel. I started to put my hair into a bun, then I tried the wrapping… and yeah it looked okay, but as soon as my head was moving my scarf started slipping too… I checked the internet, and found one woman telling to help yourself out with a baby cotton blanket, you usually use to wipe away things baby spilled, things baby grabbed and I used it to cover my baby while I was breastfeeding. I tried this method and it was working well. Okay, except I had this under my scarf and as soon as my kid pulled off my tichel it would come visible. So I tried different headbands I bought in shops nearby, but it didn’t work, then I tried to buy an undercap from a Turkish hijab shop, but I think they are not meant for Tichel or the turban hijab, just for hijab purpose. Then I found the Wrapunzel Homepage with lots of beautiful scarves, pins, and tutorials!! I bought my Volumnizer and I’m so happy about it! Right now I’m using scarves I already owned or I got some from my sisters in Christ and friends and family to start with – but as mentioned before, the scarves and kits at Wrapunzel are so beautiful, think my next order will be made soon! And with this volumnizer I can even wear my tichel with short hair, while it looks as if I still have my long hair under the scarf. The volumnizer creates a nice and beautiful shape as well and it’s easy to wrap your scarf around. And the most important point for me – it’s a non-slip-band included!

After this problem was fixed I started to work on different wrapping methods and styles and still am learning and working on new looks. 

So I’m not at the end of my story why I start wearing a headcover, what thoughts and fears I went through. I thank you for taking the time to read my tichel story. Always feel free to comment below. God bless you!