The Difficulties I experienced and still experience wearing a headcover – no matter if it’s my Tichel or a Hijab or Veil is still in the air.

Even posting pictures on Instagram (@Sarah_Jesus_Headcover) creates questions, questionmarks inside some heads and well sometimes misunderstanding. But I really appreciate all my followers and followers-to-be who simply write a message or post a comment below and ask whatever is on their mind.
Sometimes it’s even easier to talk to others on these online platforms as in real life.
Why is that? Well let me explain, in real daily life, walking with a tichel or any kind of headcover as a Christian creates these questionmarks on people’s face. I can’t even tell why, but I experienced that sometimes people want to ask, and sometimes they don’t. If they don’t, they’d like to keep their own explanation, even if they are totally “wrong” or “misled”. While on others it’s like this disgusting look, because I stopped wearing my tichel the second half of 2017 and started again in 2018. And it feels like a facial expression telling me “come on, you’ve already had this period and let’s call it phase of your life, than finally you stopped and got back to normal and now again? Why’s that, I hoped and wished that you’ve passed it now and forever”… this is a lot, for just an expression – but well, I don’t know why, but too often it’s that I’m right about such things. It’s like a “feeling” or something like this.

Last time I had a good talk to my sister, while I don’t know if she understood what I tried to explain to her or not, because as I know myself years ago I was similar, thinking “why should God want us to cover our hair? He created us like this” yes, totally right, it has nothing to do with our naturally appearance but more about obedience for our heavenly father Adonai. Our culture, the media and well social acceptance created a point of view in my sight that kept telling me to take my right as a woman wearing what I want, if I want to be sexy I wear even less clothes, because I can. Well, yes because I can, doesn’t mean it’s the right way.

“Submit as people who are free, but not letting your freedom serve as an excuse for evil; rather, submit as God’s slaves. Be respectful to all — keep loving the brotherhood, fearing God and honoring the emperor.”
1 Pe 2:16‭-‬17 CJB

The most experience while wearing my tichel is a surprised facial expression and sometimes question about my believe, if I converted, if I’m Muslim, if I changed something important in my life – and if so what exactly?! Some asked, if I cover because of sickness, if I lost my hair and cover because of cancer or leukemia.
And still, on Instagram I’m asked if I’m Muslim even I’m posting christian and biblical quotes – I’m not offended or anything at all, it’s always a pleasure to get in touch and in good talk to people interested in “why I cover”. When I started last year it was a challenge for myself, but also a way to let others know and inform why others cover and the most important thing to stop a limited mind thinking about headcover is for muslimas only.
It is still a way to go and not as easy as it could be, because the first impression is still something different. But as long as people ask and show interest, there is hope to spread truth.

When I met Jesus and when he took place in my heart, I wanted to know him more, become more like him, like my heavenly father sees me, he has created me as a whole, perfect person and I want to show this, and thank him by gifting him my whole life and everything I am and everything I do.

I can pray in my home, in my room; same as praying in my church community – but I also pray and talk to God while I’m outside, walking in the park or forest.
Last year I read a bit of “stop being a people-pleaser” by Joyce Meyer and this is what I still try to practice in full. Sometimes it is easy, sometimes it is a bit more difficult.
Especially right now in the cold winter season, I’m wearing normal hats/beanies besides my tichel headcovering.

Well, well.. I will keep you updated with my headcover post and the year 2018!

Be blessed!


Not enough hours

I was thinking about this next blog post.
The day is already done, and I’m preparing for bed, as I need some rest – at least 7 hours to keep going.
Sometimes I think I’ve too many schedules and plans a day, but then again it makes me feel whole.

So what is it, that I do? Besides writing as a new blogger, I crochet baby blankets, I read different books about faith, believe, God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, I do bible studies, I’m still de cluttering my everything, still planing and working on being more and more minimalist, I want to create my own war binder/bullet journal/travellers journal, I enjoy Hillsong, I spend time with my family and I practice writing. It’s actually not that much, while I’m counting them here, while during the day it’s time consuming. So I can’t do everything everyday, I need to put them into a schedule, this is really difficult, as I want to have enough free-time for my family and kids.

I try to combine different things to save time, like crocheting while listening to the bible app or my latest audiobook “Eve” by Paul William Young.
Like right now I’m listening to my daily bible plan while writing this post. It’s training my brain to work and listen to God’s Word.

While it is still unorganized in my daily life I know where I have to put my faith and trust, you know I tried to arrange and plan everything myself, but never involved my heavenly father.
I have to remind myself every day, to put God first in every situation, I want to walk with him everywhere he wants me to be. And this is, why I know that he will help me, arrange my daily routine and schedule; he will show me and let me know, what might be not necessary and what is important for him, so I can check and change to start focusing on these things.

When I started my healthy eating and cleaning-household plan I realized, what God wants in my life. He doesn’t want to restrict my life with rules, but with this plans I can see, that he wants the good for me, my body and my life. Same with my minimalism challenge and my new plank-challenge (I just started 4 days ago). Living with less let me see and value things I own more, it’s reducing waste and well who knows, maybe I can reach a no-waste-Sarah this year?! Guess I will start crocheting some tote-bags. And I started a 30-day plank challenge, because I want to do something for my body with a bit of exercise. I do some extra exercise for my back as well.

Guess plans and challenges are the perfect thing for me. It’s not for everyone, but yes I can tell you, it’s 100% right for me.

Blessings to you!

Small things

It’s Valentines day, the weather is so beautiful, while its still really cold outside, the sun is shining.
The days become longer again and so you feel the energy returning too.

While I had some plans ongoing the last couple of weeks and months today is a day with just a cleaning/household plan.
After I finished “the purpose-driven life” I thought about starting another reading plan but guess I need a break of a couple of days maybe.

I finished some beautiful blankets and also gifted 3 of them to new mama’s and their baby’s. And I’m still creating new ones for sale.

I’m still planing on having my own war binder/blog binder but haven’t found the perfect leather outlet for my inlays.
Found so many beautiful videos on youtube about it!

Ha, and the de-cluttering session is not finished yet, last time I just sorted out everything in my closet. And felt relieved already, so yesterday I tried to sort out everything unnecessary and put it in boxes =
Selling, donating and to throw away.

Honestly, first I thought it’s a month challenge – now I know it’s a lifetime challenge… especially with kids, maybe it’s easier as a single person, but maybe not… until I’m done – I continue crocheting blankets, blankets, blankets… haha…

Hum, this is it for today, sure there is more upcoming.
Be blessed

Christian Head-Covering Tag

It is time to start this blog post, to let you know some more facts and to let you know more about my ways wearing a headcover as a Jesus following christian.

A dear blog follower introduced me to this christian head covering tag and I think it is really a good idea to write down some facts about me and my story on wearing a headcover a jewish tichel.

• How old are you?
I’m 33 years old.

• For how long are you covering?
I started covering last year, 2017 in spring, after I donated my hair.

• How do you cover?
I cover all of my hair; after I tried to cover parts of my hair, like some leaving a fringe, but with my head and hair it didn’t work.
After I started covering my head I started thinking and wearing more modest clothes. I cover my legs and I sorted out tops, shirts and sweater showing too much of chest and chestbones.

• Why do you cover?
I’m born into a protestant christian family, no one is wearing a headcover, whether in church, nor outside.
As a half Indonesian with many visits in this beautiful country I got in contact with hijab wearing women, as Indonesia is the biggest country with Muslim people, 88% of the Indonesians are Muslim (about 191 Mio.people).

Some years ago I started to question myself why some women cover, and the first impression and thought was because of a rule, or a husband, a tradition or a country who tells women to do so. I did some research about the different ways and styles of headcover and their different expression and intention, I began to pray and asked God about my way, my purpose and what I still need to know about headcovering.

I read 1 Cor 11
But I want you to understand that the head of every man is the Messiah, and the head of a wife is her husband, and the head of the Messiah is God. Every man who prays or prophesies wearing something down over his head brings shame to his head, but every woman who prays or prophesies with her head unveiled brings shame to her head — there is no difference between her and a woman who has had her head shaved. For if a woman is not veiled, let her also have her hair cut short; but if it is shameful for a woman to wear her hair cut short or to have her head shaved, then let her be veiled.
1 Co 11:3‭-‬6 CJB

And I started to re-think about the way the western woman is clothing herself and why we think it is a freedom and gift to wear less clothes as a woman. I took a deeper look at the social advertisement, the media and the education.
It is said that women shouldn’t be bound to her wearing, her clothes and her appearance – I think this is correct, but when you start changing the point of view into a neutral point, where you start seeing yourself as a perfect creation God has made, it is a fast way to a more modest way of clothing and behavior.
For me it got clearer every day, as my mind knew, I don’t have to show more flesh and body parts of myself to the world just to be accepted, to be recognized, to be someone.
I just want to be me, the “me” God has created in my mother’s womb 33 years ago.
As a sign of honor and reverence I started covering my hair during prayer at home, which quickly extended, as I questioned myself, what I should do outside, while I’m at the mall, or grocery or at the zoo or elsewhere when I am praying unplanned.
This is how and why I started covering in the first place.

• Do you cover for the same reason now and in the beginning?
The reason I covered in the beginning is still the same now, while today I have to answer even more questions about covering than before. I moved 6 months ago and while moving I didn’t cover my head and now I started again.

•In front of whom do you stay covered? Are there exceptions (family gatherings, working place..)?
At the moment I cover my head in church and on some activities of the kids. I don’t wear my headcover at home or while family gatherings, usually I take off my headcover while visiting female friends and wrap my “tichel” back on when going home.

• What was the reaction of your husband? Of other family members? Of persons you meet?
The reactions were differently, my sisters reacted distant, so did my mother, while my father knows that biblically and in old traditionally christian communities it is nothing new or uncommon to see head covered women in church.
The other family members didn’t asked much, I don’t know if this was because of no interest or fear to ask an embarrassing question.
When I first cover, I met many people outside guessing I’m Arab and Muslim, while I think my appearance is clearly Asian, I could friendly tell that I’m German, while half Asian and no, I’m not a muslima but Jesus following Christian.
For some the next question was, why I cover then, if it is normal for a Christian or not and as soon as we got in a conversation it was a positive exchange of this topic “head cover”.

• How did covering change your life? (prayer, self-esteem, testifying…)
The cover was a shield, like a helmet and a crown. I decided to cover for God, not because my husband has told me, or my father or my church community, but because my heart told me to listen to my heavenly father and obey his rules, and not to look to other people’s opinions, or

• your denomination?
I am following Jesus Christ, the living Word of God, ADONAI my heavenly father and his Ruach HaKodesh – Holy Spirit – christian.

I thank you for reading my new blogpost, please leave a comment below. Be blessed! Shalom

Where do I fit in?

Again talking about reading the Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren, lead me to rethink my life in church, in my community and my view of my active life and work while being there (and even at home).

I realized what is the most important thing in my life and what my goal in this life should be and actually is.
As I’m a Jesus follower I am trying to become more and more like my savior and I’m working on myself, my life and everything around me to support this step.

In one chapter I read, that it is necessary to find your spot in your community, as we are one body in Christ.

I already tried to speak in front of our church, giving testimony and bible studies, and while I liked it and felt it is a good way to spread God’s Word through my life and experience it appeared to be not exactly what is right for me right now – maybe later, yes but not at this point of my life.

So beside the band and hillsong we are actually practicing and doing at some of our services I was thinking of where God might need and use me, when I finally reached the children’s room – the Sunday school, how many might call it.
And while we were talking about who’s helping my sister in Christ with this beautiful work, I decided to start following Christ and stop thoughts and words to start exist in my head (things like questions “is this really my place, maybe I’m not right there, not good enough, I don’t have the experience or the know-how etc” I just started – this sunday!

And as always I received the help of my Lord. It was a small group and so it was really nice to be around these kids, first we read 2 stories for kids from the bible (Abraham and Sara, Mose) and then we talked a bit, as far as possible with 6 to 7 yrs old ones and then we also did some drawing on things we remembered out of the stories I read before and what is actually in their minds right now.
I have to admit, that it was such a blessed time and I really enjoyed it and think I will stick to this opportunity for a little while and then I will see if this will be one of my niches.

Wishing you all a blessed day!

Finding your place

After reading my 40 day reading challenge of the Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren I realized what is important for me in my community and what I should start doing and trying to find my personal spot.

The 40 day reading challenge is over, while my personal challenge just started. And I can only recommend this book to everyone seeking his personal purpose of life. Mine will be at my friends house, my sister in Christ after I finished the additional 2 chapters.

How did reading the Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren affect my life, my thinking and my behavior?

Last week I received a message from relatives telling that one of my cousin has cancer. She had cancer 2 years ago, where I immediately asked for prayers in my church community. This time I asked the relatives to get into action as well. Most of my uncles and aunts declare them self as christian (whether catholic or protestant) while after I wrote down, that we should pray all together instead of talking and cursing the sickness, the lack of medical advance and the professionals as there are doctors and/or pharmacist.
It is sad, but while I thought and still hoped that there would be at least a respond, there came nothing.
So I started writing my cousin in a private message. I asked her if she believes and if she knows God.
At least her answer was honest, and while she said it’s not because of her health issue, but she can’t believe in God letting suffer, pain and fear live on earth, so she rather believes in nothing.
The first reaction was closing the conversation – if she doesn’t, it’s her own decision.
But the whole day I was just not happy about my too short answer, so I wrote her the other day and introduced her to Jesus my savior. It is a small step for me, but now the Holy Spirit can start working inside her heart and well I know this was exactly, what I needed to do. It’s obedience and listening to the Lord in doing what is his will.

About my other relatives, I’m unsure yet, because it’s really hard and tough to work on all of them alone – I know it’s not me doing the change, it’s just me being the instrument and speaker to give and introduce Jesus to the world.

And this will start right now – I thank the Lord for showing me this and for always listen to my prayer!

Thank you for taking your time and reading my story! Be blessed!


How to get freedom? The one you want in your life?
The first question I asked myself was, what exactly is freedom to me?
Financial freedom, social freedom or freedom in general?

While I’m still reading my 40 day reading plan and challenge “The Purpose-driven Life” by Rick Warren, I’m positively surprised or happy to read what God has for me, what God’s plan is for me and this gives me freedom.
Somehow I slowly realize what is important in my life – and not ruled and directed by media and the government, but by my heavenly father – who knows me best!
This is the best part, because he knows me better then I do. So how many people are following the media, or commercial advice and think, this is really who I am, while this is just the media to suggest you what you should think you are. Well at least this is what was in my situation. I felt restless, I felt like something is always missing.
Then I watched “the Minimalism” a documentary, and of course I searched the internet and got some tips and advice on how to start getting the right point of view for myself.

I liked the statement of the one talking on “the Minimalism”

Wow, this stayed in my head. While I wasn’t using people for things, I thought about the meaning and realized what it meant for me.
Why did I have the feeling of needing a new smartphone, a better car, nice furniture, holiday and all the nice games and toys for the kids? It’s simply stressing myself, my life and well, to be honest, like 80% of the kids toys and games stay untouched in the kids playroom. So where’s the point and need to buy even more?

I liked the hint to go and before I start buying something (beside grocery of course), I will ask my self “does this thing will be of worth. Will it be useful, do I need it? Or will it be a just a nice-to-have?”
This simple step is helping me out so much, sure would be easy from the beginning, while its the past and how we used to live that made our home full of things we actually don’t need and the worst, we don’t use!

So what have I done so far? I started at my closet (again) and well I have a whole big waste bag full of good clothes I will donate. Then I continued with my kids closet, again so much clothes – I really think they can’t wear it all. And of course everyone has his/her favorites and so, I can separate between those they really wear and those they don’t.
After this clothes decluttering – I will continue sorting out all the toys, games, dolls and stuffed animals, which are not in use anymore. Separate between donation and trash, if broken or with missing pieces.

After this, I think I will continue with a more difficult part, the living room and all my stuff I saved from years ago, old pictures, books, letters, etc. This one will be the biggest construction area I guess, but well let’s face it, it will be worth it!

So, funny that this topic is still on-going in 2018!

Thanks for reading! Be blessed!