How the weather changes us (the result of our behavior)

I’ve been waiting for today for some weeks now. I had my appointment at my favorite hairdresser changed three times, to this date – today. I was looking forward, sitting at the hairdresser’s chair, chit-chat with him about past and present, while enjoying this special treat just for me. Last time I went to my hairdresser was March 2016 – so more than a year ago!

My hair had grown a bit already and it wasn’t bad or not pretty but I was looking for something else, fresh, maybe with new color.. I saw my favorite series “Baby Daddy” with #ChelseaKane and I really like her hairstyle, so I send a picture of her haircut to my hairstylist and added my wish of trying out some colors as well..
Today the sun was shining a lot and gave us around 32 degree – so real summer feeling yay!

After cutting and coloring I was done (3 hours later), but somehow my color doesn’t shine through as I wanted and as my hairdresser intended..

All in all its a good nice haircut, but maybe I will stay patient and will keep growing it.. enough haircuts and experiments?.. I will see what will happen the next month’s.. in any way I got my tichel to cover up my head and hair, and where I can experiment with nice scarves.

Going back to my main Topic, about nature and human behavior. Yesterday I had my experience shared with you already and today? What was happening, I was driving the car with my children. The youngest was sleeping and not witnessing the scene that was happening on the highway. After a construction area where the speed limit is 80km/h they had the unlimited speed area with 3 lines. I was going 100km/h on the middle line, overtaking all the trucks but still taking care of the road while it started raining like waterfalls, when I saw this black car speeding behind me, showing his lights in a real aggressive way – still I didn’t thought of anything bad, I was thinking that maybe the driver wants to make me aware about a light or something else my car is having problems with. Still going 100km/h on the middle lane to overtake the trucks on my right side the black car slipped right when there was a gasp and tried to overtake me from the right side (this is not allowed in Germany) and this time I finally saw that this man was mad about me, driving too slow – for him. By any situation he was really angry and upset with me, that I was not driving as he wished I should. Just a little reminder, he simply could have overtake me from my left side, where cars should or are supposed to overtake those cars going 100km/h – but he didn’t, until then he was so mad at me because of nothing, he overtook me then just to place his car in front of mine to go on his breaks for letting me nearly crush his car!
He made me feel so many feelings at the same time, anger, fear, boiling blood and sadness.. why sadness? Because later I could feel sadness for him, because I saw that the devil was torturing him, that he was rushing like the Devils are behind him and I was stopping him to get by, while he didn’t saw his possibilities (on my left side).. I felt weak, because what to do or how to talk to someone while driving 100km/h and more? You can’t hear a word you just see expressions and gestures…
And of course I felt my boiling and rushing blood, this feeling because someone just thinking about himself, not taking care or a thought about others, he saw my kids!! And with this in mind I was really exploding, not understanding what is going on in his head?
My whole body was shaking when I tried to control my car while pushing the breaks so I won’t hit his car while he was pushing his break hard at 100km/h.
When he finally left the scene and headed out the highway he just showed me the “sign of the horns” or “Mano Cornuta”.
As some scene’s of Rock or Metal Music are showing, I realized what it actually meant. Who was actually trying to break me, to make me fear.
The devil will not win or fear me, because I have Jesus! And Jesus already won when the devil tested and tried to trick Jesus, but Jesus is Lord and the devil has to flee!!

This situation showed me, that it is important to know Jesus, to know who is the father, the son and the holy spirit, because truth will win always.
This horrible scenario today showed me what I have to teach my children, what role I have to show them and what important words to speak!
My son was in shock and asked “why this man wants to kill us?” then even he saw his hand gesture.

The world is changing, it was years ago and it is and will in the future, but we all need to be aware and awake to see and choose between light and darkness. And darkness hates light!

I thank God with all my heart, that he had and has his protective hand above me and my family, that I will not receive any harm! I take Jesus Hand every day, and invite his Holy Spirit to guide and lead my way and steps every day!!

Dear brothers and sisters, thank you for taking your time, reading my story!
Be blessed! Shalom



I had a wonderfully blessed day, with several talks and inspirational arguments from others, while some behavior and words lead me to my today’s topic.
It won’t be a blog entry about some big worldwide issue, but maybe it is and we don’t realize?

I had this appointment for parents with school kids, where they handed out all the information needed for new parents to school kids. This appointment was for parents only, as it was at evening time, near bedtime for younger kids.
I was sitting in their big hall, ready to write notes if needed but mainly sitting and waiting in row 3 for the head teacher and others to start the presentation while more parents entered the main hall.. they started on time, and after some minutes some late parents came and sat down.
One mother was recognized by many – let’s say all, because she came with her 3 young kids..
And it is just clear, that it couldn’t stay quiet the whole time (about 1 hour).. but while the kids had their moments and have been louder from time to time, I felt like the other parents weren’t actual parents but pet owner.. I’m not saying this in a negative way against pet owners, but I mean, some of them surely felt disturbed, angry or whatever, but the main crowed surely thought
– why did she bring her kids?
– can’t she handle them?
– couldn’t they stay at home or at a neighbors or babysitter?

Sure, it’s only understandable that all the parents have their right to listen to all of these important information (they will receive in copy by mail the next few weeks) but this mother too. I don’t know if, but what about questions like =
– maybe she is a single parent
– maybe she moved here shortly and doesn’t have a babysitter
– maybe she wanted to be a good mother being at this information evening – even she had to bring her kids?!

After this information and presentation, all the parents rushed to the doors to see and investigate the list, to find out, in which class their child will be.. the mother and her 3 kids left the main hall at last and no one actually tried or seemed to talk to her, while I was standing at the back of the doors, to wait and see the other hyperactive parents check the list, taking photographs of the list to double check it at home. That’s alright, I took a picture myself, after most of the parents left.
I took the time and started talking to this mother of 3.
She just moved here recently, is a single mother with 3 young children, she is working full time and handling everything walking.. sure she could have brought her kids some place where someone could watch them but not at this time, it would have been too far and she needed to pick them up and walk back home after all. So she decided to bring the kids instead of missing it at all.
She has my respect! And this led me to my topic “humanity”, where is it? Honestly, when we left the school she even said “goodbye” to a small group of parents standing there, and they didn’t even blink.. I was really sad. I’m thankful for my father in heaven, that he showed my heart that this women didn’t bring her kids to interrupt the whole meeting, she had to! What else should she had done? Not come at all? Let the meeting be something for either just married parents, or ones in partnerships, or rich ones, or ones with grandparents and so on? It’s not always easy or as we plan and wish our life should be.. I know myself.
But today I realized how many people don’t even know, how precious and essential the smallest things can be in life!
I thank God for so many things and so many people in my life, I thank God for giving me sight through his Holy Spirit and I thank him so much for his son Jesus Christ my Love!

Jesus is the one who had shown me to look through his eyes to God’s children, and to share his Love with them. I love him so much for letting me realize what he see’s in us.

Earlier today, when I picked up my son from childcare the principle acted strange and just a few minutes later she said something to me, that left me thinking. But I responded with Jesus love and surely this conversation is not finished yet, as she told me and my son that because I picked him up, he should play and run around any longer, this would interfere with the Psychologie and their whole system.. I responded with understanding and love, and comforted her by taking my children as quick as possible to not interfere and keeping this clear and strict border between childcare-time and pickup time..

I know that God’s plan for everything and every person in my life is better than my own, or anyone else’s! And I’m patiently waiting for every page to be shown by His time…

Thank you for your precious time reading my story!
I’m praying for you to be blessed by the highest! Shalom 🙂

Trusting the Lord

I started yesterday night, writing on my new BlackBerry Classic, to get used to the great keyboard and the shortkeys.. when I accidentally pressed the cancel button and the whole text disappeared.

So I bought this blackberry because I broke my iphone and I wanted to get away from the addiction “Smartphone” with all apps that seem important and the image that I need messengers to stay in contact with my friends.. this is still a project.. as I’m a blackberry user for 2 weeks now.

I really enjoyed my time off lately and am more and more working on getting more away every day. Right now I’m only using 4 apps frequently including this one to write post on wordpress..
Lately I tried to organized more in every space of my life and living.. every day I’m de-cluttering some stuff that’s not in use for some time and that’s not being used in the next 3-6 months..
Being actively in contact and communication to my heavenly Father and being still and listening to his voice, being patient and calm going step by step further in life.. this year is a year for me and my family with some small and bigger changes, and in everything it is the Lords hand guiding, helping, directing where and how to go. Years ago, when I had to arrange and talk to the same or similar people I was nervous and stressed out, likely to be explosive in arguments because of my old me. Back then I didn’t had the filling love, the never ending grace you can only receive from our heavenly Father, he is the one who is calming the storm, who is in control of my life. It is Jesus who is walking every step with me, so I’m never alone. And I thank Jesus for his patience with me..

I started to read about Josiah, a boy with autism, it is really worth a read! It is a true story, told by his mother.. the book is called “Josiah’s fire” I will keep you informed about what I got and what God will add up to this journey.

And I will start a new baby blanket project soon.. I’m not sure yet about the pattern and about the colors.. but I know it will be great with God’s guidance!

Yesterday Amazon Prime showed “Letter to God” and it really brought me to tears, because it’s a true story and some scenes are really heart touching, but really worth a watch!

I started to think about my food and drink behavior, about the use of milk and milk products and meat.
Media is telling us that milk is super important and healthy, but is it? Some medics are publishing new studies about milk and what it does to human bodies, because cow milk is supposed to feed cow baby’s, not human. So while I was thinking about this argument, I was realizing, that it’s just simple to admit, while my baby can drink mothermilk, it’s just sure because I’m his mother so God made me feed my baby with mothermilk, same with animals, cows got milk when they have a baby, goats have milk when they have a baby, dogs and cats have milk, when they have their puppies.. but why is it in our heads to drink as much milk as possible? While studies admit that milk is even supporting bone sickness and other body problems for humans?
I started to try a new way, always God lead and not going the extreme, I tried Soy Milk and Almond Milk.. I have to admit, I’m drinking it with coffee and my Chai and it’s delicious!! As long as it’s healthy that’s a good one! I’m not saying, I’m completely away from milk and it’s other products, but I’m reducing it and using others instead.

I will keep you informed about all my new steps, ways and my life with God!
Thank you for taking your time reading my blog! Be richly blessed! Shalom!

Reaching out to people

My dear readers, it’s been a while now and I have to admit that it was a wonderful time without internet, without my smartphone and just spending my time with my heavenly father and my wonderful kids. I enjoyed the time recharging and finding myself through God and feeling centered.

What have I done? I took some weeks off, spend my time at the bavarian forest and got back to my roots, as I planned to take my time off of my smartphone and bad habits to look at the screen every 5 minutes, and while I was on the last train to my destination my iPhone broke completely… suddenly I was without phone and without internet – but apart of being lost – I felt free. Completely free.
Sure I wasn’t able to take photos and memories to show the world online on social media, but this was part of my order.

I had the chance to talk to different kind of people, christian, believers and new to God, Jesus and Holy Spirit people. It was such a blessed time and I hope I can have a second trip like this.
My kids enjoyed it, beside of one week off because of influenca.

What have I recieved? Beside many talks with other parents I used my time talking to my heavenly father, start to question some of my life choices, what I can change, what I should change in thinking first and I was led to my eating behavior.
While reading and watching some books about our evolution of food and drinks I start thinking about my behavior… well it led me to the conclusion, that while I try to eat less meat, I will try to reduce it even more. Once a week or once every two weeks and I want to completely avoid buying meat from discounter. Years ago I really smiled about some discussions about living and eating vegan, sure I tried to live as a vegeterian years ago but found it too difficult for myself… while now, I’m a mother, living with my kids I want to try to start something new. I won’t put myself or my family to say we are living vegan, as I say before I think meat is important and given by our heavenly father. My thinking is – knowing and respecting what God gifted us and being more grateful and thankful for our food, especially meat as it was a living creature (no matter if Cow, Pork, Sheep, Lamb, Goat or Camel) I want to get far away from industrial meat producers who pump antibiotics and other stuff into their animals to let them grow fast no matter what.

This is my fresh start on this topic food, healthy living, healthy food that’s also biblical based. I’m also starting to look for a healthy, smart and God lead way to use milk, milk products like cheese, butter, yoghurt, cream etc.

So this will be one of my major projects in my daily life and of course I will keep you up to date with some biblical resources and quotes.

Thank you for reading and taking your time… Be richly blessed!

time off

I’m so sorry I haven’t shared a post in a while… I even can’t tell that I’m that busy – sure I am but not more than the other time.

It’s just that my iPhone broke and while I’m trying to get time off of all the electronic device it’s like a help for myself to just stay away from social media and my smartphone…
Still I’m not a blackberry user, although I got really attracted to the #q10 or #classic… maybe I should wait for the #keyone ? I’m not so sure yet and I know that this iPhone break might be a good reason to think and rethink about what to change and what to keep.

Last sunday my son got a challenge for saturday – the whole day – no electronic device, not even tv, no smartphone, no iPad no Laptop – nothing… back to basic – or as I like to say lately, back to normal… wednesday we had a nice camping trip with brothers and sisters from church and we tried to only use what God has given us, made fire in a fireplace and some of us slept outside. So much fun for the kids and the adults!

As I got the opportunity to write here on a laptop I took the chance to write at least one last post, before I’m off for some weeks because of a kind of vacation.

What did I receive lately from my heavenly father? To be honest – a lot! I had some nice conversations, some good and refreshing ones, some silent and thoughtful ones, some challenges while living this daily life with kids, other people on the road driving around or discussions on online platforms. And beside all that, the challenge to start working with forms and applications with the government.

Where to start? Some weeks ago my sister in Christ posted daily quotes and prayers for the week, and I really like and enjoy it! Praying for our friends, praying for our husband, praying for our parents and praying for our children. This led me to my own thinking. Thanking and praying for those God has sent to me on purpose on his plan. Thanking him and accepting his gift and his will 100%, relying on him even more than before! And I know for myself, there can never be an “I have enough of God’s Love, or his Grace or his Advice”, when I accepted Jesus, and prayed to God with all my heart the cry of “more” started to grow. Every day it’s “more of your Love”. Realizing that lately I got distracted by daily schedules even more than the other days before. It’s like I’m always putting more on top while I know I need time off and time to rest and especially time with God! Otherwise I can’t recharge – mentioning this, this is what I try to do the next 3-4 weeks. So I hope you are all patient waiting for my return.

And then for sure some new stories and life changes as well!

Planing on some new researches and plans. I will keep you informed.

Until then I bless you all my dear brothers and sisters! May God guide your ways



Before I followed Jesus like I do now, I honestly enjoyed talking and discussing topics, from unimportant to important topics. Sometimes I even got myself into so much temper that it would be a loud discussion, where everyone tries to implant his/her opinion into the others mind.

When I asked Jesus to be in my life 100% (not only 50% or when I need him) he started to change me in my everything through the Holy Spirit.

I became calm and quiet, before I used to babble along with every topic. Today I can listen, think about what was said and let it sit for some days. Before I was easily tempered and impulsive, today it is not easy to stay calm, but when something occur I fix my eyes on Jesus, my Lord. He helps me stay quiet.

With one close relative I was frequently talking hours about Religion, politics and life. When I turned to Jesus in life and actually live with Jesus, I stopped discussing and arguing on this loud level and keep my voice at a normal volume. He actually noticed it and sometimes it is making him losing his temper. I know it is not my relative when his temper is exploding, it is someone trying to get a chance to get me back to my old me. No chance.

For me I understood that it is not important to argue or trying to make someone understand and accept your opinion. Yes of course I can tell my point of view, my way of life, but I’m not the person to say to someone else what is right and what is wrong for him. Knowing and accepting this in life makes it so much lighter and easier. 

The other day I had a short talk on instagram via comment underneath a picture related to a biblical quote. The comment was stating that the Bible is a written book by men with a God living 2000 years ago not today – before I would have started arguing, writing long texts and explaining him why he’s wrong. Today I can simply reply to him, that if he is willing to read the Bible with his heart and mind, he will truly see that the Bible is full of life, truth and that even it’s validity back then same as today and tomorrow will remain. He shot his answer back, that he studied Christianity and its full of war, calling to fight and that Jesus invented hell. Wow, this was a GO for my old me to start the battle, while the new me, together with Jesus, could offer him Love, by writing him truth. As he studied Christianity and the Bible it is obvious that he didn’t read with his full mind and heart, as Jesus never asked anyone to start a fight, to start war or even to kill someone, even if the old law gave you the right to. Jesus didn’t invent Hell, as it is mentioned in the Torah (Old Testament) thousands of years before Jesus was born…

I can tell you, dear brothers and sisters in Christ, with our Lord Jesus, everything is possible! Me, I was irascible especially on topics about God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. But with Jesus Love I’m able to give all the negativity away, I put it down at the Cross where Jesus died for me.

Thank you for reading my story! Be blessed!

cloudy again

cloudy again

Tuesday morning and it is cloudy and partly raining, same like yesterday there is not much to do, while there is always something to be done.

Tonight I woke up at around 1 and stayed awake until 3. I was walking around spiritually and was thinking about what do be done next, what is important, what is less important, how about my schedule and so on. Sure this kept me awake and then I started my talk and prayer to God. I was thinking about getting up and start writing a new blog post but then I stayed in bed, decided to focus on my Lord Jesus so my soul could find rest at this restless night.

Labor Day is over, what did this day had for me? Two wonderfully blessed conversations with two close friends of mine. One conversation was more planet and nature based while the other one was a lot more spiritual, talking about our path walking and living with God, praying, talking, reading scripture and slowly bringing God’s living word into our lifes – not only reading it theoretically, but realizing how practically it can be if we allow Jesus to controll our presence.

Yesterday I started to read Judges, a chapter a day for the month May. It is a blessed way to stay connected with brothers and sisters all over the world. I read Judges before, but it is always nice to exchange what we received while reading the chapter. I’m using the bible app (you can download it on the App Store or on the Google Store), it is wonderful you can read it yourself or listen to the chapter.

Today’s chapter talkes about the israelites turning their backs towards God and praying to other Gods and even forgetting God and what he had done for them.
It is a strong chapter, it is a reminder for all human on this earth – because while the Israelites back then had no chance to return we have! And we have this chance because God loved us more than we can imagine – he sent his only son down to earth, so that we all – no matter if Israelites or from other nations –

11 And again, “Praise the Lord, all you Gentiles;
    let all the peoples extol him.” Romans 15,11

19 Therefore, go and make people from all nations into talmidim, immersing them into the reality of the Father, the Son and the Ruach HaKodesh, Matthew 28,19

We should wake up and be aware of being Disobedience praying or worshipping other Gods. How does this look like today? Isn’t it easy to say “these Israelites built their altars for other Gods and worship them, this will not happen to me” – really? We have to start searching through all our routines, all our behavior, our thinking about people, celebrities, thinks and wishes in our life.
How often did you push Jesus from his throne in your life and put your desire for a new smartphone, a new car, an expensive ticket for this once in a year concert of any singer or similar? Try to pray to your God today, to show you your altar that was build without knowing you pushed Jesus down in your life. This is the presence altar we build in our life, even if we build it secretly in our thoughts hidden from others.

Thank you for reading and supporting me and my blog. Be blessed!