Fasting

Fasting

Reading the Bible it is common to read about the Fasting, while the israelites had several days to do their fasting the most important day for Jewish people (even kids start at, girls 12 and boys 13 years) is the Yom Kippur on the 10. Tishri, it starts on 9. Tishri in the evening until the next evening. Usually it is a fasting of 25 hours, no food and no drink. The Yom Kippur is the highest holiday, this year it will be on the 30. September 2017 – starting on 29.in the evening.

Pesach

When Jesus went to the desert to fast for 40 days, he didn’t eat for 40 days and 40 nights –

„After Yeshua had fasted forty days and nights, he was hungry.“

‭‭Mattityahu (Mat)‬ ‭4:2‬ ‭CJB‬‬

Lately it is common to start fasting on march for 40 days not eating chocolate, sweets, meat, not drinking alcohol, some might stop smoking for this period of time, not watching the tv, the smartphone, the PlayStation/XBOX or related to these. Until Good Friday as this is the day when Jesus was sold out to the Israelites, judged to hang on the cross to pay for our sin.

John 10:9

On Thursday 06.04.17 (AM 5777 10 Nisan) I started my fasting. I started the evening before, not eating anything only drinking a lot water and tea, as I’m still occasionally breastfeeding my little one. I haven’t done fasting before, but somehow I had this wish and feeling deeply inside my heart to follow Jesus  example on how to fast. The first day I broke fasting at about 3pm, second day as well. Today I read that on Good Friday in strict traditional Lutheranism you break fasting at 3pm, as this is the time Jesus had fulfilled what saved our life’s, he gave his blood to cover our sin, and died on the cross. As today is Good Friday, I’m so thankful what Jesus had done for us, for me. His gift is more than precious, more than special. He gave what no one else gave, he put himself on my place while I was a sinner still, he loved me already and showed his love with taking my sin and paid the highest price, so that I should be free. Today I wish you a blessed day at home, or wherever you are with your family, your beloved ones, your friends and Jesus inside your heart! It doesn’t matter if you are already following Jesus or not, he took the Cross for YOU too, this is unconditional LOVE!!! 

May God give you his blessing in all you do today and the days after, that he might open your eyes but more than that to open your heart for his Holy Spirit, to receive him and walk with Jesus the straight path! 

Calendar

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A couple of weeks ago I had this question that was inside my heart for days. Last year I started wearing the Tichel and this was related to my jewish relation through Jesus Christ. About my journey to wear a headcover you can simply use the menu bar and click to jewish roots and then head covering. Since then a lot had happened, not surprisingly it led me to my question about the calendar right now. Living in Germany, we use the gregorian calendar – 2017, april 13th.
When I start reading about the origin and the jewish calendar, I start to build a more stronger root to my own origin.

The Jewish Calendar – הלוח העברי – ha-lu’ach ha-iwri, is a Lunisolar Calendar, means that it is aligned to the moon phase. While we start our new year in January, the jewish calendar usually begins in September or October with its first month Tishri.

The era used since the Middle Ages is the Anno Mundi epoch (Latin for “in the year of the world”; Hebrew  לבריאת העולם‎, “from the creation of the world”).
AM 5777 began at sunset on 2 October 2016 and will end at sunset on 20 September 2017.
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The jewish day starts from sunset (start of “the evening”) to the next sunset. First this sounds really unusual, but as I read it, and double checked it in the bible, it sounds right. It is just another point of view. Same as the jewish day names, I don’t know why before there was no big interest, but I’m really glad that God brought me here to study and read a bit further. And it is so wonderful that with todays electronic ways you are able to read everything you want, double check it through the internet or even books within a few hours. For todays post I’m using Wikipedia and my Bible (book and iPhone app as well).

© my Bible

One day I was thinking about using the jewish calendar primarily, but then again I was asking myself how to combine both, as the gregorian calendar is the standard calendar right now. Besides jewish calendar studies I started to learn hebrew as well, this is a real challenge, besides Russian and Arabic this wonderful language is really inside my heart. I use Duolingo and first I used Babbel, while Babbel is really good too, it is used with a plan, monthly, quarterly, half year or yearly. It is still cheaper than a course in a language school, but then I found Duolingo where I can learn Russian and Hebrew – while there is still no Arabic or Aramaic whether on Babbel nor Duolingo. I started to learn some basics of Arabic on Maha’s YouTube Channel, she is lovely and it’s fun to learn any language with her!

Back to my main topic, how to combine both calendars? In my case, I’m starting slowly. First I did, I added the Jewish calendar to my iPhone calendar =

AM 5777 17 Nisan

 

And I made a calendar time table in one of my journal 🙂

© Blog Journal Jewish Calendar

Next ones will be the weekly days =

  1. Yom Rishon – יום ראשון‎ (abbreviated יום א׳‎), meaning “first day” [corresponds to Sunday] (starting at preceding sunset of Saturday)
  2. Yom Sheni – יום שני‎ (abbr. יום ב׳‎) meaning “second day” [corresponds to Monday]
  3. Yom Shlishi – יום שלישי‎ (abbr. יום ג׳‎) meaning “third day” [corresponds to Tuesday]
  4. Yom Reviʻi – יום רביעי‎ (abbr. יום ד׳‎) meaning “fourth day” [corresponds to Wednesday]
  5. Yom Chamishi – יום חמישי‎ (abbr. יום ה׳‎) = “fifth day” [corresponds to Thursday]
  6. Yom Shishi – יום ששי‎ (abbr. יום ו׳‎) meaning “sixth day” [corresponds to Friday]
  7. Yom Shabbat – יום שבת‎ (abbr. יום ש׳‎), or more usually Shabbat – שבת‎ meaning “rest day” [corresponds to Saturday]

Thank you for reading my blog posts and my thoughts.
May God bless you!

New Blanket Project

New Blanket Project

It is a beautiful thursday, the weather is well, not as good as could be, but hey it is a gift from God, and it is not raining! I was using time outside with the kids and the dog, walking and stopping at several playgrounds. Yesterday I started a new baby blanket project, I found a beautiful and easy pattern on Pinterest called Baby Afghan Crochet.
I still had some leftovers back from last years order, when I purchased a whole box from one of my favorite yarn online store Lanade when they still had the yarn DROPS #5.
So now I started this cute baby afghan for? Well who knows, there is one friend expecting not long to go, maybe her? Or I will simply keep it, like always (I love blankets), maybe I will start to sell them and open a small baby blanket/afghan online shop – just for fun.

Princess

You are welcome to leave some comments or request if you’d like.
Be blessed dear brothers and sisters!

Am I too distracted?

Am I too distracted?

How to measure the level of distraction or the portion of busyness? Honestly I can’t tell you that – because it is a personal level. For me I just found out. The last weeks I was just thinking and filling my head with ideas, plans and wishes, i was filling my schedule and the kids schedule to the last free spot for a good feeling, the feeling to use each minute of the day for anything. Sleep becomes rare, or at least sleep became restless, as I woke up even more tired in the morning. Coffee was my best friend but couldn’t carry me through the day without yawning throughout the day. 

Today I took the time for at least one hour off, I grabbed my kindle paperwhite and started reading one of my books I started reading months ago. And I tried to stand the other electronic distractions but couldn’t, because every now and then there was a new WhatsApp message, as soon as I unlocked the iPhone I continued to check Facebook after reading and answering WhatsApp. Last year I already told myself (and some friends) that I really need to work on reducing this social media and electronic devices. Ha, it’s an easy way to say, but a hard way to go – well for me. I know it’s not for everyone I mean, some are fine using the internet, smartphone and social media at just one time a day, not for me, my kids are showing that it’s way too much and I really feel ashamed! So today there is my new plan “less iPhone, less social media, less distraction” and more of God, Jesus, Holy Spirit and my family!!!

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I found this picture on Pinterest and well it makes visible what invisibly is happening with us using smartphones etc. 

How to change it?

„“Come to me all of you who are tired from the heavy burden you have been forced to carry. I will give you rest. Accept my teaching. Learn from me. I am gentle and humble in spirit. And you will be able to get some rest. Yes, the teaching that I ask you to accept is easy. The load I give you to carry is light.”“

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11:28-30‬ ‭ERV‬‬

Right now I start to understand, that out of my strength I can’t change anything, especially not my stressful, over-busy-lifestyle…. I need to ask for help. Only God can help me through is son Jesus to be finally able to rest. 


To stop reacting scared or aggressive as soon as I spot these or similar signs for being unreachable or not fast enough on the mobile internet I have to find ways to get out of this thinking (with the helping Hand of God). Two days ago I started looking for an old Mobil phone – yes, exactly, not a smartphone a normal 1999er Mobil Phone, to switch off the distraction permanently. But this would be no solution for the long run. I had a Facebook break for over 2 years already and it was a relief – definetly, but not the answer to my quest. I need to get a healthy handling and timing for this time consuming things like Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest, Twitter, WhatsApp, so I can breathe in life and live life actually in real not online via iPhone. While thinking about this part “breathe” I’m listening to Jonny Diaz song Breathe .

Breathe – Jonny Díaz

So I need a plan, a structured one and a God-led one! Because otherwise I’m not able to succeed. So my planning is now 

  • Praying and asking God to lead me his way for a good and healthy time table to use the social media
  • Write down some schedule into my new Bullet Journal and check several days which one works out best
  • Stick to the perfect plan 
  • Last but not least I’m planning to leave off all distractions in June as I’m on special family leave for 3 weeks!

© Bullet Journal

C is my favorite, but I need practice and God’s help, definetly!

I know that with God watching over me, with Jesus by my side and with the leading of his Holy Spirit I will finally find rest! I’m so happy about it and looking forward to this! 

© Sarah

Thank you for taking time to read my story! God bless you ❤

Nowadays

Nowadays

It is really interesting to watch the world outside. What is happening right now? Politicians are talking to each other, fighting with words and then? Still innocent humen, children getting hurt, murdered and then? All these shocking videos and pictures are breaking my heart but a great fear is knocking inside my head, leading the question in mind “what if this feeling starts to fade?” Not mine but I mean from people around the world, those who don’t have these problems, who don’t fear to lose their life’s or their children’s life? Recently I scroll down on Facebook repeatedly reading about abandoned animals and how they were treated… yes it is also cruel, and I’m not in the position to state they are not worth to be mentioned, but it’s shocking that the scale of these scenarios are equal or because animals seem to have a different position in our life they are closer to us than children in a far away country? Horrible! 

Chan Schaichun – innocent children!

I know physically I can’t do much, but mentally I will do as much as possible! I am praying for the people who suffer being in country’s where they have no rights, where they are punished for having their Christian faith, for being murdered because they can’t defense them self and live in this particular spot on earth. And I’m asking you to pray, no matter what believe you have, but only because of humanity! It’s not much I’m asking you for, it’s not money or any other material donation – it’s just prayer for those in need!

Thank you! God bless you ❤

Jesus battle

Jesus battle

Well this time it really took me some days off. I was working and reading on this topic and I still am. About 2 weeks ago I saw the Documentary or nearly Musical “The Passion New Orleans” from 2016 on Netflix. I didn’t know why until then I really like movies or shows with music and this one really got my attention. They didn’t wrote the music for this play, they took already excisting ones from the past. And as the name says it’s the Passion, the last day with Jesus, but to make it more visibly for us today as it would appear or might be in our time. Truly it might be difficult to get your mind into the past circumstances and into the real pain everyone was going through while Jesus was with his disciples, the pain and feelings when Jesus was betrayed and even what Judas was going through. I watched it now 3 times and listened to the soundtrack as it really touched my heart and soul. And this got me thinking and creating my new blog post. Do we really appreciate the gift we received from Jesus? There might be some people in this world wondering, if Jesus was real, if they can believe in him to even exist, I can advise only to check on every possible way, ask God in prayer, check the internet for witnesses (not only the Jews, Christian,  Romans etc.) these last days I was just deeply wondering and questioning myself what pain and suffering he has went through – for me.

Back to “The Passion New Orleans” if you are interested in, you can watch it on Netflix or maybe try to listen to the soundtrack, while the whole play is really worth a watch.

Soundtrack

While watching the play it catches me and I was fascinated by the combination of songs and situations they were into. Somehow it help you to get a hint of how they must have felt, there’s the saying that through music you can touch the soul… my main focus is on Jesus, while Judas was in my thoughts as well, as he (same as Pete) are symbolizing us human right now. The thoughts, feelings, pressure and other things Judas has fought is just slightly imaginable, same as Pete, I mean, it is easy to blame him now for not standing behind Jesus, saying to not even knowing him – but honestly, didn’t you also deny to know Jesus once? It is sad, really but we have to learn to say it without shame, to stand behind Jesus. He died in public for us, for me, while I was born 1951 years after Jesus died for me, why should I be ashamed of saying out loud, that I love Jesus? That I follow Jesus as he is my only hope and help to get to our Heavenly Father? There is none! But this need to get clear inside the head first. Jesus is no one to be ashamed of! His Love is greater than any fear, greater than any darkness or any struggle.

While Jesus was with his disciples, he showed that even he knew what his fathers plans were, he felt the whole pressure on his shoulder. I asked myself, how do I feel as a single mother, trying to organize everything, dealing with my sins and faults I’ve done, with the little ones, the medium ones and the big ones. How big is my little pressure of my conscience when I lied in the past, and sum it all up, it has quite a weight, and it’s pulling you down. So now let’s just imagine Jesus was putting the whole – not only one or two humans sins the whole sin on his shoulder! In Matthew 26 he said

„and he said to them, “My heart is so filled with sadness that I could die! Remain here and stay awake with me.”“

‭‭Mattityahu (Mat)‬ ‭26:38‬ ‭CJB‬‬

But Jesus knew that to guarantee us people to return back to the father he had to do this not because his will is on first place but his fathers will.

„Going on a little farther, he fell on his face, praying, “My Father, if possible, let this cup pass from me! Yet — not what I want, but what you want!”“

‭‭Mattityahu (Mat)‬ ‭26:39‬ ‭CJB‬‬

Jesus knew he had to take the whole cup of sin, to fulfill what was planned before earth was there. Still the pressure and pain was intense and we as normal sinners can’t image what Jesus must have felt as the only person without sin.

„A second time he went off and prayed. “My Father, if this cup cannot pass away unless I drink it, let what you want be done.”“

‭‭Mattityahu (Mat)‬ ‭26:42‬ ‭CJB‬‬

So Jesus gave himself, so that we would be saved. Again this is bringing me to tears, knowing that Jesus loved us so much, that he paid the most highest price! What about today, so many people called christians on paper already forgot on what a high price they were bought. I don’t judge or mean they are not appreciating what Jesus did, but they simply lose sight and got distracted by other things.

„Stay awake, and pray that you will not be put to the test — the spirit indeed is eager, but human nature is weak.”“

‭‭Mattityahu (Mat)‬ ‭26:41‬ ‭CJB‬

The spirit is eager but the human nature is weak! The human nature is weak for sin, and nowadays it’s easy to fall for sin, as sin is played down.

As Christians we have one powerful weapon, no weapon build by human its prayer. Because through prayer we can move mountains and even hearts to return back to God!


Thank you for reading my thoughts. Be blessed dear brothers and sisters 🕊

Godly Woman – Who’s she?

Godly Woman – Who’s she?

Reading the bible, on a daily basis, whether you just read one chapter, or you are reading on a plan at one point I was wondering “how does a godly woman look like?”. Not only her outer appearance, also her behaviour. Inside my heart I knew she should not hide inside the house or have no voice at all, I mean, there might be people showing biblical quotes that seem to state “this is the godly woman”. I did my research and found the Proverbs 31 woman and some other characteristic aspects I want to share with you today.

Why I started this personal journey? It’s not something I planned years ago, or as a life plan of myself. To tell you my personal circumstances, sure I was born into a christian family with christian tradition and since childhood my parents told me parts from the bible until I was able to read and teach myself. As a teenager I was sure I called myself a christian pre-adult, avoiding alcohol, drugs and men. While last point was more the fact there was no way of having a relationship, as God was still teaching me to be patient. At some point the flesh was at its rebellion stage and I had a late puberty at the age of 19 or 20 something. It included everything, disrespecting my parents, not listening to good advice, especially not advice from my younger siblings, testing and consuming alcohol, clubbing the weekends and of course men. The evil start telling lies and made me believe, that as an equal human on earth, why shouldn’t women be allowed to act and try men before marriage as it is sort of normal for male nowadays. When I was 25 I met my first fiancé, telling myself that I don’t need to marry him before starting a family, as it seemed that we both want the same. I didn’t listen God’s advice (and my families) as I thought my way is the best, at least for myself. So things happened as I ran ahead not waiting and listening to God’s Holy Spirit ended alone as a single parent. In the end it was my choice as I did not want to sink on this huge ship of sin and addiction.
At the age of 28 I decided to start a new life with my son, a fresh start and just live life. We moved down under – Sydney – I love this city! When I went this path, I promised God, and myself to trust in the Lord, no matter what. So Jesus was in my heart and I was relying on his love and I told myself to trust on his way this time!
I received so many blessings and was overwhelmed when I met my second fiancé, through my cousin one day. I can’t remember what exactly went through my mind, as I started this journey with my son I told myself to establish  a solid base first before meeting anyone.
Well things changed, as the flesh (again) pulled the gear to satisfy it’s desire. Love grew, feelings pushed the hormones and the positive thoughts to handle it all – by ourself.
In the end, as I asked God in the first place, I was called back to my believing roots and I listened to God’s Holy Spirit, to end this seemingly beautiful relationship, as it was not what God has planned for me. When there is Light, Darkness has to flee.

“The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness hasn’t overcome it.” John 1:5

Jesus is my light, he shines inside my heart and shines through darkness, I don’t want to say that my partner was “darkness” himself, but he lied about promises, that seem meaningless for him (maybe), but are essential and important to me.
As a christian I put God first always, I put God before myself, before any prospective partner, or husband. The time I realise that this fact should change, not recognizable for the world but for me inwardly, I focused on the voice coming from a loving God, not an enraged God but an understanding, patiently waiting heavenly father that he is, waiting for me to return back to his way, full of light. So I took his hand, refused to listen to fear, grabbing my back, I hold his hand tight and stayed in his Love. Since that time I continued studying and praying to my God and received so much blessings even as a single mother.

“Listen, my dear brothers and sisters: Has not God chosen those who are poor in the eyes of the world to be rich in faith and to inherit the kingdom he promised those who love him?” Jacob 2:5

In 2016 I started growing my desire to know more about God, to know more about Jesus and to know more about the Holy Spirit – and most of all, to listen more what God has to say. By mentioning this, it’s not only meaning to hear a voice, sometimes it is a feeling, a feeling to open the bible and immediately read what you need, sometimes it is something your brother or sister in Christ is telling you, not knowing that this was meant for you from God himself. The desire and wish inside my heart to re-read some bible verses and finding out if it’s right for me to wear a headcover arise. See my blogpost on Headcovering for the whole story. 

Back to the topic “Godly Woman”, who is she? How would she look like today? Would she wear clothes like back then? Is it necessary what to wear? What kind of fabric, or even color? There are some quotes in the holy bible, telling that the Godly Woman was wearing fine linen and purple. 

„She makes her own quilts; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. נ“

‭‭Mishlei (Pro)‬ ‭31:22‬ ‭CJB‬‬

First it sounds oldschool, like who’s quilting, or wearing linen? But then I started to ask for a different point of view, it doesn’t have to be out of fashion, linen is a good fabric, keeping you cool on hot summers and it doesn’t mean you are just wearing this sand-caramel color (while this is a nice color I think). And crafting – knitting, crocheting, sewing and quilting are more and more common. I started knitting in 2012, then I switched to crocheting, as I preferred it, then in 2014 I started trying out sewing, this is nice too, while I’m still doing the small projects like beanie hats for kids; so next challenge might be quilting? (Besides all my other challenges new languages, journaling and of course blogging) okay, but it’s not stated that you need to be able to do these things, I think it’s mainly focused on the things I should be able to do. These crafty things are essential for me, for me as a woman, for me as a mother and for me as a wife. Nowadays we don’t need it to survive a winter, but honestly it’s something different to snuggle in a handmade crochet blanket or to take a bought one (nothing bad about them too though). 

When I browse the internet and of course my favorite Pinterest, I found some points about the Godly Woman, she is

  • Generous (2. Cor. 9:11)
  • Wise (Prov. 31:26)
  • Light hearted (Prov. 17:22)
  • Reputable (Prov. 31:23)
  • Godly beauty (Prov. 31:30)
  • Trustworthy (Prov. 31:11)
  • Humble (Isa. 66:2)
  • Depend on God (Mat. 4:4)
  • Modest (Prov. 7:10)
  • Patient (Rom. 12:12)
  • Confident (Phil. 3:3)
  • Speak truth (Eph. 4:15)

As you can see, the most quotes are from Proverbs 31, so I started reading this again. Starting at Proverbs 31:10 the godly woman is far more worthy than jewels, and her husband will depend on her, he will never be poor. She never causes her husband trouble, she enjoys making things with her hands (craft, cooking, household), she wakes up early and prepares everything for the family, she is strong and able to do all her work. She works until late to make sure her business earns a profit. She is a strong person and people respect her, she looks to the future with confidence. She speaks with wisdom and teaches to be loving and kind. She is never lazy, her children say good things about her, her husband brags about her.
Well so far, honestly I can’t see me in this picture for now – but you know what? I’m working on it! Several points are on the list, that I’m working on now, and I know together with God I can achieve everything! I don’t do it because of me, or for myself – I want it, because I want to draw myself closer to God. It will not happen overnight, but with the time, step by step I will achieve to reach the godly woman as it is described in Proverbs 31.

Thank you for reading my thoughts and my story. Be blessed dear brothers and sisters!