Recently it happens often, that while driving the car I have some sorts of flash-backs to my past life.
What exactly? Mostly my past without Jesus, walking in my own way and trying to reach all the goals human might try to reach.
Going back to my early 20’s I remember my rebellious time. I thought about my time being single, singer in a band, student at uni, working part-time as a cashier and as a babysitter, to afford my apartment and my car.
In this time one of my band member was taking us all out for dinner after every band meeting, and this was at least twice a week. We’ve been to different kinds of restaurants like Italian, Greek, Chinese, Japanese and other.
While the band member took us all in his tiny car, he even invited the girlfriends of the drummer and the guitar player. So in his car that fits 5 people he put 6 or 7 at some time.
And for some reason he always needed to show off how fast and dangerous he was driving, once he even took the police attention and just drove even faster to escape an interview and of course the penalty.
This band member also had a strange hobby, he was doing some sort of horoscope and fortune-stuff using special cards Tarot – he was gifted by his grandmother, he told.
So these cards were mixed, then he asked me to chose some, depending on what exactly I wanted to know about my future and for what time-period.
We played this tarot-card game some time and well in my rebellious and naive time I took the chance and believed it.
I thought I’m smart telling myself, that I want to check on the truth first, whether everything he told me will come true or not.
And it did. Everything he told me, about the men I meet and some situations in this period of time happened.
So I asked him to check on my cards again and on my future, asking his cards and the universe.
Again everything happened, and even more.
At first I didn’t recognize it, but after some days I had a real strange feeling, something bad, horrible I couldn’t tell.
I felt something strange following me like a shadow, mostly at night time. The worst thing was, this negative, strange, horrible, cold feeling and thing didn’t disappear… it was like something horrible following you, giving you goose bumps and this cold sweat.. and in the dark, lonely times just before sleep I felt a strong grip pulling you into darkness.
When it got really worse for me, I searched for answers. I tried to re-think and find a solution and an escape out of this horrible situation I’ve already been into.
And I found one. I found the only way out of darkness – Light. And this Light was brought down to us, also named the Way or the living Word – Jesus, Immanuel!
So I began to pray, I searched my heart and begged for forgiveness, because I choose the fortune-telling-cards before God, in other words I created a God for myself and I disobeyed Adonai.
I knew inside my spirit, what exactly was following me, because I did this cruel and disgusting thing in my past called card-fortune (but even a personal horoscope or other fortune telling – it’s all the same).
All for once I knew, why and from whom the fortune, their cards and horoscope receive their power to actually tell the future.
And I even found a passage in the bible, about fortune, people who can get in contact with the dead and other.
I prayed to my heavenly father, I asked for forgiveness and promised him to never put someone or something before him! I fulfilled my promise with horoscope and fortune, while once I broke the part with the partner, but as a daughter of the highest, he called me and always kept me in his secure hands.
This Tarot-Experience was 10 years ago now, I don’t know why I have these flashbacks these days, especially while I’m driving on the Highway.
Since then I even haven’t been interested in reading these small horoscope articles on newspapers. The only thing that occurred the last years was the Chinese horoscope at the end of the year, while eating at a Chinese restaurant with a brother from Church and before leaving they hand us a new Chinese calendar with the Chinese zodiac sign.
Some even say that because of their zodiac their character is fixed.
Honestly I usually can’t remember my children’s zodiac, while the Chinese is still in my head.
I try and want to leave it out as well, as it is not important to me at all.
Years later, after I did this Card-Fortune I listened to a lecture related to God’s living Word the Bible, explaining and revealing what comes as an extra, while ordering your personal horoscope or fortune or Tarot. And this really kicked me back to my past and like the smallest piece of a puzzle everything fit and I received a whole picture of what exactly happened back then.
I thank my heavenly father, my creator and my brother Jesus, Lord of my everything and savior of my soul for revealing so much truth in my life and I thank the Holy Spirit – Ruach HaKodesh for opening my eyes and teaching me so many lessons step by step.
With this I wish you a blessed day!
Thanks for reading!