Trust

Just a short post today about trust and faith.

One of my kids needed to have a surgery lately and during the week it started to be really hot. It’s summer and sure everyone was waiting for the heat and the sun to be there. We had our appointment on a Tuesday at 1pm. Around 2 days before Tuesday I checked the weather app and heard from.our radio station that Tuesday will be the hottest day this year, maybe the hottest in years. It should reach around 40 °C – and that’s not usual for this area where I live in Germany. Surprisingly I was calm the whole time and knew it would be all fine, when the doctor called me the day before surgery and told me to come at 7am because 3 other kids had cancelled their appointment because of sickness.

I hope the children will recover soon and will be able to take the surgery as well, but for this moment I was so relieved, that we could be the first ones to get surgery on this hot day. They told me that they won’t have many surgeries on this hot day, so I’m thankful and I’m giving thanks and prayers to the Lord!

I wished I could be patient and have this trust in all my life situations – this is another part I’m working on.

Be richly blessed dear readers! Shalom

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No one is covering, should I?

Some time ago I started covering for God, it was a good yet strange feeling as I image all the stares I received. When I started covering I was living in an area with many different cultures and believes, so it may not be as much recognized as today.

I moved and am living in a mainly Christian area were no one is covering except me. It’s still the same in my church, as I’m the only woman covering for years.

It is still interesting to answer their questions, while often I receive a statement like “Paul doesn’t mean us to cover, when he says so it’s only for Corinthian women, or it’s a traditional and different time thing”… Well if it’s not the right time for them I’m totally fine, while for me it is exactly what my heavenly Father has called me too. And I think it’s important for me to study even more about God’s love for us and how he sees us and wants his children to behave. Sometimes people just pick out the nice and perfect fitting quotes while leaving or cutting out others.

These last few months I’ve been through some tough passages in life, I started questioning a lot, tried to organise life in every spot (this is still a way to go), thought about nature and how I can be more sustainable – here I found out, the more I try to reduce waste, it seems to be even more. But I guess it’s just the view of reducing waste in general.

About my headcovering, lately I’m testing out different styles, same as some sisters I’ve meet online on Instagram, while I order a lot from the U.S. I realized the high expenses for custom service. As I own a sewing machine, I might start some headcoverings my own.

In May I started a 52 weeks Bible reading plan with a sister in Christ. Within these 52 weeks we want to read through the New Testament. We are reading one chapter a day Monday to Friday. We are reading Mark 3 today and I love to start my day with God’s Word!

Be richly blessed dear brothers and sisters!

Back to school

Finally I’m back writing on my blog, while I already planned to be more structured in writing on this personal blog, I find myself being busy with so many other things.

Sure 1 month ago I started my course in financial accounting again – it’s more of a refreshing course, to have a smooth start back to work. Well at least this is my current plan for now and I will see, what will be this summer.

I tried to built my Christian blog and tried to gain my readers through social media, while now and then I ask myself if this is the right way to find true followers and readers. Over a year ago I read about writing a blog and every day more and more I thought about the idea of starting one myself – until I did.

My blog is all about faith, believe and my life with Jesus Christ. I try to write about everything that happens to me in life with Christ.

Like my current course in financial accounting, I was searching and waiting for God’s path of my future and then everything got together in perfect time and way. While I had a nice lady helping me out, finding my personal niché and profession – I used to work as an accountant before and wasn’t so sure about what I want to do now, going back or trying out something completely different. After several good talks we found this course that perfectly fits into my life situation and includes financial accounting, Excel, DATEV, Lexware, SAP and also a month working in an online firm. I’m in the middle of this great course and enjoy every day. And I feel that this is exactly what God has prepared for me, I’m happy and waiting for what will be this September, after I finished the course. As I’m already checking different job opportunities, as a financial accountant, I also read about other jobs from home, some sound interesting, while others sound good first but at second glance not reachable more expensive to try out. I never was the kind of person staying at home doing nothing at all, I like to work and learn. After becoming a mother I started to feel these mother instincts and the beautiful part of being a stay-at-home mum. Still searching for some sort of combination of stay-at-home mum doing some work from my home office – combining family and work as close as it can be.

So, I will wait some months until I can write more about this part of my life.

I thank you all for your interest in reading my blog. Be richly blessed!

Being busy lately

2019 started well and fast, January already passed and February is nearly half way through too. It’s been several weeks since I last updated a post here.

While I just closed my Twitter account today – honestly it was simply too much of social media lately, I think I can continue writing down everything that’s going on here.

Several months now I’m sharing posts on my Instagram account, about my brother in Christ from Gambia. I started a Go Fund Me campaign and still try to raise an amount of money for him to start and complete an educational course so that he will be able to provide and care for his Family. While he is the oldest of his family, his parents died several years ago, his Grandmother is still alive and tries to take care of his younger siblings, he tried to work illegally to earn money. Because this is not an option anymore, we try to collect some money to help him out doing his 2 month course, so he can start working legally with a certificate to survive.

I started a February Challenge which says “$1 for Alieu” – why $1? I posted this on my Instagram, because I thought that with my ~1.800 Followers even $1 would be more than enough. (If everyone would donate 50 cent it would be more than enough) trying to say, that I don’t ask you to give $20 or $10, I just ask for $1 or if you can’t $0.50

Trying to collect as much as possible in February so that Alieu from Gambia can start his course in March this year and finish it at the end of April to be ready for legal work in May! This is our wish, our plan and we hope that it will work with your help!

We thank you very much and send you the Lord’s blessing! Shalom

Cold season

Finally it is becoming the cold season, it is cold outtside and windy and rainy from time to time. For me and the kids it is a beautiful time, spending outside if we want to, enjoying the fresh and clear air, walking and watching the nature change and just thanking God for everything we have.

Yesterday night I was thinking about one homeless man, whom I saw the other day. I was thinking about his condition, his life situation and about what I can do for him during this cold season.

I looked up at the internet about what they might need.

Money? Food? Clothes? Blankets? A tent?

So I thought about a sleeping back and took it to him today. I asked him about his needs, what he would like to have, e.g. food or more blankets/clothes.

His answer was first:

“Is this sleeping back new?”

Honestly, I was a bit surprised, but tried not to show it, I told him that’s brand new, even all the signs on it. Somehow I felt, he might not want it.

When I asked about food if I should buy him breakfast or some fruits, he simply said, he just wants and needs money.

Then he said something that made me think

“I need money, a lot. If possible 1-2 Mio €”

Sure could be jokingly, but then I also thought about his thinking. There are some homeless by bad circumstances, some because of addiction and some by choice. Some doesn’t want to live under the German system of tax and regulations. Somehow it seems that this homeless today is the one living outside by choice.

Thinking about homeless and all this topic it is difficult to decide whether I should help more or less. I don’t want them to thank me or something else, while I was thinking about how to help (besides money) I really thought I might help a little. The scene today instead showed me that it is best to ask, what they need, to donate after that.

My motivation was to help the homeless in this time, as it is turning really cold outside and they keep staying outside the whole time. Honestly I don’t want to just give money, as for most of them (as they say themselves) they need money to buy drugs and alcohol. I don’t want to be part or a helper for providing drugs or alcohol – when I want to help with what they really need like food or clothes or sleeping utensils.

Guess it’s a difficult topic, while it can be so easy.

Wishing you a blessed week and a peaceful time with Jesus Christ. Shalom

What do you think?

The last days of school holiday and everyone is feeling that it’s time for the school routine and well, even when I remember 6 weeks school holiday wasn’t that long (especially when you’ve been in Indonesia for 4-5 weeks) today it seems to be – even for my kids.

This is possible because we’ve just been away for around a week or so, we’ve been to Den Haag in the Netherlands and stayed in a Hostel. This was such a great experience for the whole family, and a big plus was, the distance to the beach was only 5 min away.

How to stay cool and calm, when you have 6 weeks with 24/7 kids playtime. I didn’t want to plan too much with entry fee or too far away and so everything was spontaneous. Most of the time we visited family and friends, then we’ve been to the Netherlands, to the beach, to the forest and simply outside chillin’ at the pool.

As I realise how fast the children are growing I really feel the urge to do more with them, not only sitting at the dining table, or on the couch; even my oldest told me the other day he wants to spend time together and just walk. I love it! So we decided to take our dog and walk together, we’ve been out for about 2 hours, constantly walking, talking, enjoying these last few days.

I tried to live life with God, to talk to him first in any situation – truth is, I’m still on my way, I’m still practising, learning how to do so and stay in this routine and life, but it happens that the head is running into situations before asking the Heavenly Father. It is a way to go, but I’ll take it step by step and I know that the Lord is with me, helping me with every situation and every problem.

I decided to start a new study plan for myself. It will be about community, the rules, every aspect Jesus wants us to obey, to follow and to love. Why is this topic in my mind? Well first of all it’s been in my mind for a couple of weeks now and I’m sure God is preparing me for something. I’m really looking forward this studies and will let you know of course.

Be blessed

How to love….

Well I wrote a blog post once about forgiveness – this will be a similar one, or one that continuous my journey of forgiveness.

Today I got informed about a situation of bad talk or talk behind my back about me. Well it shouldn’t bother me – but it did.

A short info about the main topic, one of my family member gifted me an old kitchen gadget, while her daughter told her to pullout an essential that, in her words “I should buy myself”. Honestly I didn’t thought a bad thing about it at all, while today the saleswoman told me, that the essential thing should be always within this gadget and usually isn’t available to buy extra. Well, that left me thinking. That’s when I received the answer that the daughter told her to not include it. I really would’ve understand if she could use it afterwards or without this kitchen essential – but this isn’t the fact. It was just some general problem, or maybe a jealous thought of her?

Honestly I would love to bring this gadget back to the daughter and gift it to her, while saying that I want to bless her with Gods peace and Love, but it too made me sort of sad, angry and I don’t know. I’ve been always really more than kind to her, talking, writing and I don’t know, while now I don’t know what image and thought is inside her mind, when she thinks of me. It is sad. But again, I didn’t act without asking my Heavenly Father – I opened his Word, and I know he showed me Matthew, to forgive and bless those who want to harm you. And even if they try to harm you with a bad tongue like she did. I’m sad because I feel sorry for her, but I’m happy because I can bless her with Gods peace.

Sending you blessings