Being busy lately

2019 started well and fast, January already passed and February is nearly half way through too. It’s been several weeks since I last updated a post here.

While I just closed my Twitter account today – honestly it was simply too much of social media lately, I think I can continue writing down everything that’s going on here.

Several months now I’m sharing posts on my Instagram account, about my brother in Christ from Gambia. I started a Go Fund Me campaign and still try to raise an amount of money for him to start and complete an educational course so that he will be able to provide and care for his Family. While he is the oldest of his family, his parents died several years ago, his Grandmother is still alive and tries to take care of his younger siblings, he tried to work illegally to earn money. Because this is not an option anymore, we try to collect some money to help him out doing his 2 month course, so he can start working legally with a certificate to survive.

I started a February Challenge which says “$1 for Alieu” – why $1? I posted this on my Instagram, because I thought that with my ~1.800 Followers even $1 would be more than enough. (If everyone would donate 50 cent it would be more than enough) trying to say, that I don’t ask you to give $20 or $10, I just ask for $1 or if you can’t $0.50

Trying to collect as much as possible in February so that Alieu from Gambia can start his course in March this year and finish it at the end of April to be ready for legal work in May! This is our wish, our plan and we hope that it will work with your help!

We thank you very much and send you the Lord’s blessing! Shalom

Bible studies and strange things happened

When I started reading my bible about 3 weeks ago I felt this beautiful feeling this hunger for His pure and holy Word. I was excited as soon as the day started to finally have my holy time with the Lord. I covered my head while praying and reading scripture and felt wonderfully blessed and lead by His Holy Spirit, the Ruach HaKodesh.

Until I got hit by a heavy migraine in the 4th day. I just brought my kids to the school and the childcare and was happy to continue reading my own personal bible plan, as I entered my unit and immediately realised I have a starting migraine. It has been some time, since my last big migraine (I’m not talking about headache, my migraine starts with small invisible dots in my sight and they get bigger until I can’t see clearly and then it turns to this huge pain in my head, affecting my whole body to feel sick and weak) and this one really hit me by surprise. And even I took 2 pills Ibuprofen and lay down immediately the migraine and pain didn’t fade after 2 hours, and I’ve waited more; at the end it stayed for about 2-3 days until I fully recovered and this made me really disappointed. I wanted to continue my reading, I wanted to be in His presence but had this feeling “I’m not well yet, get well first” another days past and it was about one week after the first migraine that I thought “kids are sleeping, I can start reading again, at least a bit” and at about 8:30pm I felt this symptoms again – invisible dots growing bigger and bigger, I took an even stronger ibuprofen to just close my eyes and sleep. And so I did, I was disappointed, I was angry and I was clueless – why did I had 2 migraines in a row? Yes, in my past I experienced 2 migraines a month but this time was heavy and well I was unsure why.

And then I opened my bathroom cupboard the other morning to brush my teeth and get ready for the day, when I saw my old glasses.

I stopped wearing them 3 years ago, because I prayed and believe that my eyes are healed and still they are. Then I started to wear them again and yet here I am, it is better, the eyes are relaxing, still it is strange to wear the glasses again. Nevertheless still I want to double check with my GP to see if the glasses are still okay, if there’s something else with my eyes and what I have to pray for.

Still I could t get an appointment yet, but until then I will keep you informed.

Be blessed and have a good week! Shalom

Friday book

Since I was able to read I was reading. As a small child I always asked my parents to read bedtime stories, so that my siblings and me can fall asleep. Usually they didn’t, because there was no time, no good book or a different excuse.

When I finally learned how to read in primary school, I was happy to hold a card to borrow books in a so called “Library Bus”. And was reading a lot and loved it. Later I preferred buying books and kept them in a shelf. After I came back from overseas I started to sort out nearly 85-90% of my books, gave them away or threw them away. I started reading my kindle and right now I’m borrowing eBooks there. Something else I started and really appreciate now is listening to books via audible. I tried audible books before as CDs, and wasn’t happy about it, as I only had a player in my car and I’m not that person to listen to books in my car. But with audible and their app which I’m using on my phone or tablet it’s easy to listen to a book while you are doing housework, or sports or simply sit on your couch doing something else like crocheting or drawing.

Today I started with William Paul Young’s book “Cross Road”. I wasn’t sure whether to listen to a book now or to read Paulo Corleone “the Alchemist” which I received as a birthday present. The last few days I was reading and studying Gods word in Acts and the beginning of Romans, until I got my latest migraine.

Listening to Cross Roads is lifting me up, a story to listen to, to sneak into someone else’s life and after watching William Paul Youngs “The Shack” and listening to his other book “Eve” I was looking forward to this one.

Life is slowly going back to its normal routine and schedule. I enjoy the new changes and the freedom to listen to books while I still be able to do everything else. Like now – doing the laundry 😉

Be blessed dear readers!

What do you think?

The last days of school holiday and everyone is feeling that it’s time for the school routine and well, even when I remember 6 weeks school holiday wasn’t that long (especially when you’ve been in Indonesia for 4-5 weeks) today it seems to be – even for my kids.

This is possible because we’ve just been away for around a week or so, we’ve been to Den Haag in the Netherlands and stayed in a Hostel. This was such a great experience for the whole family, and a big plus was, the distance to the beach was only 5 min away.

How to stay cool and calm, when you have 6 weeks with 24/7 kids playtime. I didn’t want to plan too much with entry fee or too far away and so everything was spontaneous. Most of the time we visited family and friends, then we’ve been to the Netherlands, to the beach, to the forest and simply outside chillin’ at the pool.

As I realise how fast the children are growing I really feel the urge to do more with them, not only sitting at the dining table, or on the couch; even my oldest told me the other day he wants to spend time together and just walk. I love it! So we decided to take our dog and walk together, we’ve been out for about 2 hours, constantly walking, talking, enjoying these last few days.

I tried to live life with God, to talk to him first in any situation – truth is, I’m still on my way, I’m still practising, learning how to do so and stay in this routine and life, but it happens that the head is running into situations before asking the Heavenly Father. It is a way to go, but I’ll take it step by step and I know that the Lord is with me, helping me with every situation and every problem.

I decided to start a new study plan for myself. It will be about community, the rules, every aspect Jesus wants us to obey, to follow and to love. Why is this topic in my mind? Well first of all it’s been in my mind for a couple of weeks now and I’m sure God is preparing me for something. I’m really looking forward this studies and will let you know of course.

Be blessed

How to love….

Well I wrote a blog post once about forgiveness – this will be a similar one, or one that continuous my journey of forgiveness.

Today I got informed about a situation of bad talk or talk behind my back about me. Well it shouldn’t bother me – but it did.

A short info about the main topic, one of my family member gifted me an old kitchen gadget, while her daughter told her to pullout an essential that, in her words “I should buy myself”. Honestly I didn’t thought a bad thing about it at all, while today the saleswoman told me, that the essential thing should be always within this gadget and usually isn’t available to buy extra. Well, that left me thinking. That’s when I received the answer that the daughter told her to not include it. I really would’ve understand if she could use it afterwards or without this kitchen essential – but this isn’t the fact. It was just some general problem, or maybe a jealous thought of her?

Honestly I would love to bring this gadget back to the daughter and gift it to her, while saying that I want to bless her with Gods peace and Love, but it too made me sort of sad, angry and I don’t know. I’ve been always really more than kind to her, talking, writing and I don’t know, while now I don’t know what image and thought is inside her mind, when she thinks of me. It is sad. But again, I didn’t act without asking my Heavenly Father – I opened his Word, and I know he showed me Matthew, to forgive and bless those who want to harm you. And even if they try to harm you with a bad tongue like she did. I’m sad because I feel sorry for her, but I’m happy because I can bless her with Gods peace.

Sending you blessings

healing Heart

What means music to you, in my life music surrounds me everywhere I go, at home, on the way in the car, everywhere I am, I have at least one song in mind.

It started when I was young that I loved to sing and listen to music, I preferred Indonesian and English songs, sometimes I listened to German ones, then Spanish, French and Italian ones. I have to tell you, the preference is depending on my emotional mood and actual life circumstances, but what is always playing, is praising songs no matter which language. Lately I like to listen to English, Hebrew, Russian and Arabic songs.

Nancy Ajram – Hassa Beek

Nancy Ajram is one Arabic singer with such a beautiful emotional voice. It is such a precious time listening to her songs even without fully understanding the lyric – with her voice, the Arabic language becomes more beautiful than it already is (making the wish to learn this beautiful language more and more).

Yesterday I just turned on YouTube to have some quiet time listening to praise music and I found this new one from Lauren Daigle You Say. It was this moment I had this feeling to grab a laptop and record some songs to upload on my YouTube channel (which is offline right now). Actually I don’t own a laptop anymore, so I try to work with my smartphone and tablet. For now I haven’t found a possibility to record hillsong music the way I did before. Well what to do then? Maybe you know the app #smule – I downloaded it again and sang 2 songs with some other singer. I like it, but it’s not then same as I did before using #GarageBand on my old MacBook. Right now I’m trying to figure out what to do and how to record the praising Hillsong music I want to share with you all.

This will be my new challenge for 2018 I might start in September.

So back to the topic – what does music mean or how does it affect me and my emotions? For me music is a strong instrument, it’s not only the singer and the lyric, sometimes it’s the drummer, the guitar player or another instrument. While I listen to the music I close my eyes, singing along or simply listen to every part and every instrument, as for me even the single instrument is giving me an emotional feeling, or even a throwback in time. They are like small time travels to different places and times and feelings. Good feelings, sad feelings and happy feelings. Music opens a door for me to dive in and stay at a time, where I want to be for a time period.

Music is a blessed time for me, I love to just stay in a song and leave all my thoughts and problems to my Heavenly Father – who is the only one to know exactly what’s inside my heart and what is going on inside my mind. With hillsong music I feel closer to my love Jesus and God. Sometimes it’s really difficult to tell and describe the emotions and feelings – as it’s not possible to find words and descriptions for every emotion. Have you ever felt like this? A feeling you couldn’t find words for?

Sending you the Lords blessing!


What is going on right now with my writing and my blog?

Currently I’m constantly thinking about my blog post content and what will be a useful niché for me to write about and you to read. My first impulse was to write about my life with God – as it’s stated on my description of my blog. Something more about my journey wearing a headcover as a Christian in a Christian country and in a community where no one else (woman) is wearing a headcover like I do. When did I start wearing my headcover, where did I got my first kit of scarves, where did I collect my informations and so on.

I’m reading all these blogpost where they try to teach you how to earn some extra passive income while running a blog. This wasn’t my first intention when I started my blog last year, but with time it surely got interesting if it’s really, surely possible. So this will be a journey now I’m starting this year August 2018 to see if it is possible and works. I am still searching for a good niché and I know that with Gods guidance and his power, he will show what to do and choose.

You can be sure that it will be about the Lord, Jesus, Ruach HaKodesh and/or the Christian headcovering, modest clothing and reading material.

Be curious – same as I am.