Being busy lately

2019 started well and fast, January already passed and February is nearly half way through too. It’s been several weeks since I last updated a post here.

While I just closed my Twitter account today – honestly it was simply too much of social media lately, I think I can continue writing down everything that’s going on here.

Several months now I’m sharing posts on my Instagram account, about my brother in Christ from Gambia. I started a Go Fund Me campaign and still try to raise an amount of money for him to start and complete an educational course so that he will be able to provide and care for his Family. While he is the oldest of his family, his parents died several years ago, his Grandmother is still alive and tries to take care of his younger siblings, he tried to work illegally to earn money. Because this is not an option anymore, we try to collect some money to help him out doing his 2 month course, so he can start working legally with a certificate to survive.

I started a February Challenge which says “$1 for Alieu” – why $1? I posted this on my Instagram, because I thought that with my ~1.800 Followers even $1 would be more than enough. (If everyone would donate 50 cent it would be more than enough) trying to say, that I don’t ask you to give $20 or $10, I just ask for $1 or if you can’t $0.50

Trying to collect as much as possible in February so that Alieu from Gambia can start his course in March this year and finish it at the end of April to be ready for legal work in May! This is our wish, our plan and we hope that it will work with your help!

We thank you very much and send you the Lord’s blessing! Shalom


What is going on right now with my writing and my blog?

Currently I’m constantly thinking about my blog post content and what will be a useful niché for me to write about and you to read. My first impulse was to write about my life with God – as it’s stated on my description of my blog. Something more about my journey wearing a headcover as a Christian in a Christian country and in a community where no one else (woman) is wearing a headcover like I do. When did I start wearing my headcover, where did I got my first kit of scarves, where did I collect my informations and so on.

I’m reading all these blogpost where they try to teach you how to earn some extra passive income while running a blog. This wasn’t my first intention when I started my blog last year, but with time it surely got interesting if it’s really, surely possible. So this will be a journey now I’m starting this year August 2018 to see if it is possible and works. I am still searching for a good niché and I know that with Gods guidance and his power, he will show what to do and choose.

You can be sure that it will be about the Lord, Jesus, Ruach HaKodesh and/or the Christian headcovering, modest clothing and reading material.

Be curious – same as I am.


Some weeks ago I was talking about Trust in my church community and I was doing some research for myself. In my previous blog post I told you already about my thoughts and own fights against fear.
While I was in the midst of my inner storm of this fear-future-situation I was reading God’s word, to comfort, to root me, to calm my stressed soul and to find inner peace.
In Europe there is a big discussion about refugees coming from different countries and with different cultural backgrounds and different point of views, different religious believes. It is a wide range and fighting space for the evil to arise fear and discussion about the other.
Refugees from Africa, India, and east Europe coming and crossing Germany, some of them staying, some of them still on their journey. Singles, Families, children – especially the children and what they had gone through already and what they’re still facing in this world.
Last sunday we had our federal elections and because of the refugee situation right now, there are plenty of xenophobic and egoistic fearful people, who gave their voice and mark to some small groups, who proclaim to keep germany in structure in clear borders and away from chaos where we are right now. So is it chaos? Is it a mess and a huge challenge for everyone to handle war refugees and their providing, but as christians we should constantly pray and trust and believe that God is bigger than any circumstance, any situation that might seem like a huge chaos. God is able to turn around a sinner into a saint, God created this world and all of us – still he is waiting for us to trust in him.

8 It is better to take refuge in Adonai
than to trust in human beings;
better to take refuge in Adonai
than to put one’s trust in princes.
(Psalms 118:8-9)

For me I realized, that I have to search refuge in him only, that I have to trust in him and not in human beings. How often did we see and talked about the people of politics who broke their promises. There is only one who will never break his promise – it’s our heavenly father.

7 Blessed is the man who trusts in Adonai;
Adonai will be his security.
He will be like a tree planted near water;
it spreads out its roots by the river;
it does not notice when heat comes;
and its foliage is luxuriant;
it is not anxious in a year of drought
but keeps on yielding fruit.

While I was in my heavy inner chaos about what to think at all, refugees, victims, end of the world, how to think and act as a christian – but especially as a mother.
And I found peace reading my fathers words.

On this sunday my sister in christ shared her thoughts about trust in our heavenly father with me. In Germany we have a saying

Trust is good, control is better (Vertrauen ist gut, Kontrolle ist besser)

In here we all heard this one every now and then, and as a parent it’s like a sentence for every day. Like you start trusting your little kid being in the living room without breaking or damaging anything – while in fact you are spying with one eye to control what is going on in the other room. Or later, when the kids grow older and start to walk to school all by themself, it’s also well known, that some parents tend to say “oh, I trust him/her going all by him- or herself, but well I better take a look and check if everything is alright”.
And what about control in a partnership, how often did I say “I trust sure – but control is better”, so I recalled some of my past experiences in my partnership and found out, what I already knew, jealousy is not from God. It is actually a curse where you end up being locked and tortured.
I’ve been there, I walked into this curse by myself before, and it grew bigger and bigger. So I tried to escape this jealousy curse all alone relying on my human strength.
And fail.
It’s like you betray yourself. I found out, that if I can’t trust my partner I’m lying to myself, because if I can’t trust him the whole relationship is built up on lies and not rooted on solid ground.

God gives trust, he trust us and is patiently waiting for us to return to him, to his son and start talking to him again. God doesn’t come watching double checking if we are on the right path and walking towards him like he is directing our steps, he is patiently waiting, he is trusting and waiting with his never ending love for our return.

So God’s reliance is making us free, his trust in me makes me completely free to choose. His confidence in me gives me his freedom to be and become who I am in his eyes, who I am for real and how he made me, perfect in every little cell.

To control means captivity, like I said with my relationship and the jealousy, it left me in my own prison of emotions. I couldn’t trust my partner leaving for work, leaving for grocery shopping, nor even leave his messaging unattended or at least I double checked it afterwards. And yes, now I know that this is completely a no go! I was so much into my emotional prison, that I asked him to give me all his passwords so I could check whenever I want, to just make sure he’s not betraying me in any way.
So this presupposes that I assume him to cheat on me. In any way he is in a trap, because sooner or later my behavior leads him either to cheat on me because I’m asking for it, or leaving me because this prison is mine, not his and as I said, in God we have the freedom to leave these emotional prisons.
In my case I left the whole scene as I found out what I was building up, this emotional prison, this curse I got trapped myself in.

What did I do then, what were the steps I took? Well first of all it wasn’t clear for myself, I was searching and asking in prayer, and then I read Psalm 62.

(5) My soul, wait in silence for God alone,
because my hope comes from him.
(6) He alone is my rock and salvation,
my stronghold; I won’t be moved.

(7) My safety and honor rest on God.
My strong rock and refuge are in God.
(8) Trust in him, people, at all times;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us. (Selah)


And I continued reading Gods promises for me, and slowly found out what is actually from God and what is not. It was a journey to learn the things God has put inside my dna and Sarah-Code already. When I read Gods word and stay in his light it is easy for me to differ the good and the bad, because the Holy Spirit is leading my thoughts and opens my eyes.
Every morning I ask Jesus to be at my side and walk with me, no matter where I go or with whom I am. And every day I thank God my heavenly father for everything he has already done, for all that he is doing and for everything that he is going to do for me.

Thank you my dear readers, for taking your time to read my story.
Be richly blessed!




A couple of weeks ago I had this question that was inside my heart for days. Last year I started wearing the Tichel and this was related to my jewish relation through Jesus Christ. About my journey to wear a headcover you can simply use the menu bar and click to jewish roots and then head covering. Since then a lot had happened, not surprisingly it led me to my question about the calendar right now. Living in Germany, we use the gregorian calendar – 2017, april 13th.
When I start reading about the origin and the jewish calendar, I start to build a more stronger root to my own origin.

The Jewish Calendar – הלוח העברי – ha-lu’ach ha-iwri, is a Lunisolar Calendar, means that it is aligned to the moon phase. While we start our new year in January, the jewish calendar usually begins in September or October with its first month Tishri.

The era used since the Middle Ages is the Anno Mundi epoch (Latin for “in the year of the world”; Hebrew  לבריאת העולם‎, “from the creation of the world”).
AM 5777 began at sunset on 2 October 2016 and will end at sunset on 20 September 2017.

The jewish day starts from sunset (start of “the evening”) to the next sunset. First this sounds really unusual, but as I read it, and double checked it in the bible, it sounds right. It is just another point of view. Same as the jewish day names, I don’t know why before there was no big interest, but I’m really glad that God brought me here to study and read a bit further. And it is so wonderful that with todays electronic ways you are able to read everything you want, double check it through the internet or even books within a few hours. For todays post I’m using Wikipedia and my Bible (book and iPhone app as well).

© my Bible

One day I was thinking about using the jewish calendar primarily, but then again I was asking myself how to combine both, as the gregorian calendar is the standard calendar right now. Besides jewish calendar studies I started to learn hebrew as well, this is a real challenge, besides Russian and Arabic this wonderful language is really inside my heart. I use Duolingo and first I used Babbel, while Babbel is really good too, it is used with a plan, monthly, quarterly, half year or yearly. It is still cheaper than a course in a language school, but then I found Duolingo where I can learn Russian and Hebrew – while there is still no Arabic or Aramaic whether on Babbel nor Duolingo. I started to learn some basics of Arabic on Maha’s YouTube Channel, she is lovely and it’s fun to learn any language with her!

Back to my main topic, how to combine both calendars? In my case, I’m starting slowly. First I did, I added the Jewish calendar to my iPhone calendar =

AM 5777 17 Nisan


And I made a calendar time table in one of my journal 🙂

© Blog Journal Jewish Calendar

Next ones will be the weekly days =

  1. Yom Rishon – יום ראשון‎ (abbreviated יום א׳‎), meaning “first day” [corresponds to Sunday] (starting at preceding sunset of Saturday)
  2. Yom Sheni – יום שני‎ (abbr. יום ב׳‎) meaning “second day” [corresponds to Monday]
  3. Yom Shlishi – יום שלישי‎ (abbr. יום ג׳‎) meaning “third day” [corresponds to Tuesday]
  4. Yom Reviʻi – יום רביעי‎ (abbr. יום ד׳‎) meaning “fourth day” [corresponds to Wednesday]
  5. Yom Chamishi – יום חמישי‎ (abbr. יום ה׳‎) = “fifth day” [corresponds to Thursday]
  6. Yom Shishi – יום ששי‎ (abbr. יום ו׳‎) meaning “sixth day” [corresponds to Friday]
  7. Yom Shabbat – יום שבת‎ (abbr. יום ש׳‎), or more usually Shabbat – שבת‎ meaning “rest day” [corresponds to Saturday]

Thank you for reading my blog posts and my thoughts.
May God bless you!